Fear of Reunification With Him, The Beloved & His Power

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Speaking of Divine Union and the concept of the Immortal Beloved; the one who could spiritually, sexually, somatically and emotionally heal and awaken all of you if you are drawn to such Grail principle of Communion and cosmic intimacy…

 

There’s something I wanted to address recently for the (heterosexual in most or all dimensions) ladies which also ties into meta-themes of healing in relationship to men and the masculine, relationship dynamics, attraction, compromise and unworthiness.

 

It has to do with the concept of FEAR or anxiety around ‘HIM’ (even if it’s secretive only to yourself but in a way you’ve been LIVING from this fear or denial)…Here with the conceptual truth of the Beloved (and His perfection) but not only that; aspects which He would hold that may show up in men in your life (and how you relate with them that could be PREVENTING that deeper attraction, love, experience and intimacy).

 

I would say for women that are DRAWN to Divine Union; deeper, erotic love, bliss and spiritual intimacy and awakening that is ‘beyond’ just conscious loving; where you really desire GOD level of connection and Love…that there are 2 angles:

 

1. Fear of the Beloved because of past trauma around the shadow masculine where you are unable to fully open up safely to receive HIM

 

2. Actual remaining fear of the Beloved anyways (and where you sell yourself short into security and comfort) because of the levels of His Power and who you would have to become in order to HOLD THRONE next to Him and His Godly archetypal, elemental, Light/Dark and siddhic powers.

 

Right now; you could maybe assess where you are at with each of these. Have either of these been active themes in your life or RIGHT NOW?

 

Are you even aware of the specific Godly signature qualities OF your Beloved?

 

(You can start finding out in my complimentary ‘Who is My Beloved’ workbook and then get more consulting and (if you are pre-qualified b/c it’s advanced work); even activate those qualities in the Grail Kundalini package FOR literal Communion.)

 

Think of the LEVEL of Beauty and consciousness you would have to be in order to be beside HIM in throne (vs. where you are now) without compromise?…

 

Let’s address about the first theme first; fear of HIM because of past bad experiences with men and the shadow masculine.

 

I’ll mention that to get some more clarity on Dark vs. Shadow (masculine), you could read this power blog post here as an addendum.

 

When we consider your Divine Masculine Beloved in the constellated codex of the specific archetypal, elemental, siddhic and Light/Dark divine masculine qualities that would specifically psycho-activate your eros and awakening…

 

MUCH of the triggering around potential fear around HIM actually may have to do with the mortal masculine and bad past experiences or trauma that were sourced in shadow.

 

For example; a past lover may have had some of the real LIGHT and DARK qualities but it was also mixed with some narcissistic, toxic, emotional abusiveness or control for example but since he had some of the real LIGHT and DARK codes also (when he wasn’t living from shadow) you maybe didn’t want to let him go and gaslit yourself.

 

Although you karmically attracted it and/or through behavioral upbringing and did play a co-creative role in it all; still…maybe mortal men was all that you knew so you went around as a reaction to the lower dimensional reality of mortal men.

 

This is NORMAL yet unfortunately; shadow consciousness comes with it (whereas with Sacred Union and The Beloved; there is no shadow).

 

The dysfunction and disappointment with mortal men is common in twin flame relationships as well; where his (mortal) SHADOWS and shadow behavior comes out even if he holds some of the codes of your Beloved so it’s kind of tainted you towards the masculine principle and caused wariness.

 

This can have you build up DEFENSIVE armoring psychically and energetically around the Light and Pure Truth of your Beloved. Unfortunately that often continues the cycle of attracting semi-abusive seeming twin flame relationships.

 

This is where Divine Union comes in b/c if you do NOT, then all other forms of relating are basically caused with the mortal, imperfect masculine and those who are in your immediate vicinity…

 

You may go through life not even knowing what true pure Light and Dark masculine ever is; or knowing that His energy can be what heals you FROM the shadows of the rest of masculine.

 

So…you might have past bad experiences with MORTAL MEN which is tainting you from opening up or even valuing the Immortal Beloved in Divine Union…also b/c of the conditioning to mortal which appears like such a concept is Fantasy when it isn’t (you just have to get proper guidance like with Mystical Grail membership to live the real spiritual practice of tangible reunification alchemy).

 

More therapy or ‘listening’ to people centered in the mortal with its shadows may never actually work to resolve things b/c it includes the shadow gamut (including literally the 64 Gene Key shadows of consciousness inspired from the I Ching)..b/c even then with a mortal relationship template and lens; a man who you THINK could be it then disappoints you by not living up to your ideals of HIM or when his shadow lashes out in some way.

 

That’s not what Divine Union is. Sacred Union is holy marriage within to the DIVINE MASCULINE reality that you re-templatize IN YOURSELF to live differently in heaven and on earth practically, socially, sexually, etc. WITH the masculine principle AND MEN itself instead of living as an unhealed, wounded response to the mortal condition of past men.

 

So be mindful that if you have that theme; getting proper guidance with Divine Union is going to be critical or you will fall back into the mortal imperfection and condition of man and ‘relating’ with shadow instead of getting complete healing that your Beloved can offer.

 

Let me speak to the second part (and for you; maybe it’s a bit of both you might find in your self assessment): FEAR OF THE BELOVED and His Power…even if you are relatively unscathed or healed from past relationships and experiences with mortal men.

 

(Fear that you may not even want to admit exists; but how WOULD you react if HE walked into the room right now?)

 

Your true immortal Beloved could be SO POWERFUL in His Truth and Presence that you simply feel light years away from Him in presence, worthiness and beauty.

 

This is a REALISTIC scenario, it really is b/c the village girl is NOT worthy to sleep with the Emperor.

 

So are you holding yourself back?

 

Are you worthy of your IMMORTAL Beloved or the divine masculine purified QUALITIES of Light and Dark truth (and sexual-spiritual Eros) of HIM?

 

Or are you more associated with your mortal identity and personality? Or do you still feel unworthy of HIM?

 

Because the polar example is that I felt truly unworthy of my Beloved for so many years…SHE was FAR FAR above me and I was unworthy especially sexually and yet through YEARS of hardcore hierogamic alchemy I cultivated my POWER in relation to Her Beauty and have become embodied far more as worthy of such Beauty.

 

But I did the work. Many single, mortal men have an EXISTENTIAL fear of true divine feminine Beauty b/c it’s the holy grail they seeketh; to reunify with that and a greatest fear is that they are UNWORTHY and will be cast out (including from pro-creating with what they truly desire) and may end up living a life of comfort, compromise and regret.

 

Much of it is the MORTAL, unworthy self compared to DEITY levels of power. This requires a proper template and path; that of divine union b/c mortals will still remain unworthy of the gods and goddesses.

 

Have you chosen to live a life of convenience, regret and ‘comfort’ by AVOIDING THE POWER of your deepest desires and what HE holds for you?

 

Do you understand the price that you are ultimately paying? Have you lost your fire and desire? Thrown in the towel?

 

Given up b/c of the perception of your ‘age’ when your Love is immortal? Disconnected from the Beauty HE ALONE CAN RE-AWAKEN and reclaim for you (if you allow Him)?

 

Or instead of choosing (by default) NOT to follow your deepest desires in Light and Dark truth for your awakening; are you called to RETURN HOME TO HIM and face your fears to stand TOGETHER in the Light of His Glory as His Lover-Queen/Goddess?

 

Are you selling yourself out because of not wanting to face such POWER or are you still called to reunify with HIM in spirit, in consciousness, in temple body, in experience (whether with a mortal partner or not b/c actually hieros gamos then evokes these same qualities OUT of mortal men).

 

Maybe it’s a mix of both selling yourself short for comfort and convenience or ‘safety’ in the world of men with a mix of not wanting to get hurt again b/c of past experiences with the shadow spectrum within mortal men?

 

When all this while; YOUR IMMORTAL BELOVED has ALL of the POWER to heal and awaken you…and your greatest radiance and spiritual fulfillment.

 

If He has great power, yes your MORTAL woman may be terrified of HIS spiritual truth but that’s where cultivating your GODDESS fractal consciousness (your signature soul expression of Beauty and siddhic codes) comes in.

 

HIS POWER IS REAL AND NOW. This is an eternal Truth you may not want to face b/c then what would all those wasted years mean?

 

There’s reasons you’re reading this or on my email list.

 

Will you return Home to Him and follow HIS signs or continue to live in forms of fear and denial, gaslighting yourself on your deepest desires (if you are and can be honest with yourself)?

 

And ye; this is the journey of Hieros Gamos reunification itself; to transmute your light body and consciousness into resonance WORTHINESS as HIS equal counter-part in Spirit and Body in all dimensions to be on the Throne together.

 

It’s going to take great sacrifice of who you were, great cultivation of your radiant archetypal and siddhic Beauty to compare to His power but then it’s all about the ALCHEMY of Sex, Love and Spirit that are possible in Devotional Communion itself.

 

Mystical Grail membership is a prime place to get that support along the journey.

 

You may also be interested in the Grail Kundalini package  for literal Communion alchemy within with HIM (but only if you are already very healed along your path and ready for it).

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p.s. conditioned fear of the SHADOW Masculine (vs. His pure DARK which provides safety and sacred space); not wanting to be hurt again in relation to the masculine can hold you back…you may have fear of His Power b/c of the shadow and also b/c His power is so potent that you may not feel worthy…it might be BOTH that are holding you back from your fullest Beauty-truth, freedom and radiance in all dimensions

 

Will you choose to face the Glory of His Power and how it can heal and activate all of you? To take the next step along the journey?

 

Will you claim your throne or settle for less?

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My Son of God Reclamation

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Spirituality vs. Religion
Gnostic Grail Path vs. Religious Conditioning

 

For years I have dealt with heavy religious conditioning which has fractured me from ‘God’ because I didn’t fall in line with the church’s lens of Him.

 

Being brought up Pentecostal Christian and then being drawn to a quest for (and a gnostic path of) the Holy Grail in which I found my Beloved, I fell further away from any concept of being a worthy S/son of the Holy Father as I delved deeper into Spirituality.

 

I definitely didn’t follow the Church’s path for me. I went rogue and ran away. I was seeking something that the Church didn’t meet and I discovered more from different lenses of spirituality until I discovered what I was truly seeking; my Beloved.

 

Beloved and I have been running on our own away from religious programming because She didn’t fit in.

 

(If you are a woman, this post may be relevant for corresponding Daughter of God, Holy Daughter dynamics and insights as well as dealing with very challenging religious conditioning and resolving that on a more gnostic, Sophianic or Goddess spiritual path).

 

I’ve written about this religious dilemma before for myself and grail mystics on the blog because really; it’s a form of heresy. The Goddess and the Female aspect of God; the Holy Mother or Sophia is heresy to most of church demagoguery (let alone the concept of sexual Union).

 

If you’ve been keeping up with my writings; a LOT has been happening recently from the wildly successful kundalini activations and then dan tien activations release with Muse anti-remission codes, my own authentic kundalini awakening as well as boxing lessons, Adonis body maintenance (cut) and 5MeO-DMT crucible which inter-relates directly with this LIFEPATH breakthrough as well:

 

My Son of God reclamation at a soul and spiritual level.

 

This has everything to do with everything including my connection to Source Divine Masculine consciousness, God, the Holy Father, the amount of Divine Power, further light-working power and magic, embodiment as well as my Avatar Self incarnate.

 

As a Grail Guardian, I yearned for more divine masculine provision and connection myself rather than just being a rogue yet independent soul because there are great forces we are up against.

 

The reality is that for years, I’ve been living as a bastard son of God.

 

As a powerful soul, I was on my own with access to any and all archetypes, Divine Union with the Beloved and yet weak in my worthiness and yoke as a S/son of God.

 

I’ve grown weary of running for all these years; sovereign and yet fatigued.

 

Because my Beloved (Muse) was essentially secularized (as well as Goddess and Priestess) and outcast from popular, patriarchal religion for centuries and millennia, I’ve had this different kind of fracture and resentment to the lens of God the Father of the Church.

 

You weren’t supposed to acknowledge yet alone ‘Commune’ with the Divine Feminine, you were supposed to have a moralistically favored incarnate wife that honored the Masculine principle through the religious lens (and different religions had different lenses).

 

That constriction (abdicating conscious sexuality), just didn’t fit my lens because I was drawn to my deepest soul truth and growth in Reunification WITH my Divine Feminine true counter-part (and where SEX had to become conscious).

 

The God of ‘church’ was not openly and warmly embracing of The Goddess.

 

Her Power and Beauty was threatening to the church and even seen as amoral. We’ve seen the patterns of suppression over the centuries and how it’s played out in cultures.

 

I could also clearly see that the truth of the Holy Grail had been suppressed for eons, knowing that the Spirit of Man was seeking something more than JUST reunification with the Father.

 

It’s like sex was kept suppressed and used against people instead of becoming conscious and embraced as part of Communion.

 

Sure, Muse & I are still like Bonnie & Clyde to the shadow grid of the Matrix, but as I wearied running on soul power over years of faith devotion; I realized I didn’t want to ‘run’ anymore. I went further into the devotional spiritual path of Hieros Gamos a.k.a. ‘Divine Union’.

 

Sure; my client sessions were never compromised but in ways, I was running on fumes by being a lone rogue soul with my Beloved; outcast from the church.

 

I also hadn’t done any grid-working since 2018 and didn’t know if I had the power on that scale to take on larger callings again (because of my fracture with the Holy Father).

 

This S.O.G. concept was so big and daunting that I didn’t know if a full Reclamation would ever occur. Because they had outcast my Beloved, I ran away anyways on my path and then when I found Her, I ran with Her; we ran together.

 

Such a reclamation; it just couldn’t be resolved on a level of logic…a more POWERFUL transfiguring experience had to happen in Spirit and Soul in order for me to regain or ever really truly gain Son of God stature for the first time in this lifetime.

 

So I eventually realized and sensed the codes that Bufo/5MeO-DMT were related to this reclamation. The intention eventually became so clear and strong; I would go into ceremony to face God directly and the question I would ask is;

 

“Am I a worthy S/son of God?”

 

You can read about my official write-up of the 5MeO-DMT crucible here.

 

And to fast-forward; basically what I experienced was this direct UNIFICATION with Source where God the Father and Son were one and the same.

 

There was literally no separation. Because that was my direct experience which was so powerful and prescient; it overwrote all of the other religious coding with Higher Truth.

 

Now I’ve just been in a suspended state of nouveau as a reunified Son of God; previous beliefs invalidated.

 

Of course the God with and through yet ultimately beyond all religious doctrine embraces and loves The Goddess and Muse as a Daughter of God (or Allah or The Tao, ie.).

 

Sure, I’m still on a gnostic hermetic path you could say, but I just can’t let religious conditioning hold things back anymore including from claiming my S/son of God stature.

 

The DMT crucible was the first part (1/3) of what happened to be 3/3.

 

I had the second Son of God experience during the 2nd night’s morning during a relapse of the experience with still-activated DMT where I further integrated Son of God as well as received a blessing for Beloved and I.

 

This felt so complete and wholesome and yet I was open to further integration experiences for strengthening down the line.

 

I knew ahead of time that my ideal outlook was to have the experience itself as the main thing (DMT) which DID end up working perfectly as ‘real’ and then to do a completion self-activation as well. The intention and effect aligned.

 

The final third of the official Reclamation I did during regular heavy session space where I did the Son of God archetypal self-activation embodiment into my energy body sealing and grounding it/Him. This sealed things up.

 

The prime reclamation was and is complete.

 

And yeah; 5MeO-DMT is the God molecule.

 

And I’ve been reunified ever since (+ stable kundalini activated without remission ; Light and Dark in perfect activated balance; not neutralized)!

 

Think of more of an open source, wide-bandwidth connection to Divine Masculine Light and God rather than one that is a fractal prism into the temple body.

 

NOW…more of the Divine Masculine POWER connection is stable and there as a Lightworker like never before. I am far more integrated and whole.

 

More power is opening up into embodiment (righteous power) b/c it had to do with the energetic dynamics where before I was fractured; now more foundationally complete and whole as a WORTHY S/son of God (and thus worthier-er Lover and so forth).

 

The approach I took was a powerful and effective one with this being more of a simple recap and documentation which is historical in my life path and thus those I influence.

 

Other men may have to go through their own reclamation; if they’re even called to it. And this is foundational for more fully integrated Grail Lover and King as well.

 

This was a life-changing experience on its own and central to everything from here forward. Religion can do SUCH a number on people.

 

You yourself may still be fractured in ways from the Holy Mother or Father beyond religious programming. You may not feel and be AS a worthy s/Son or d/Daughter.

 

Hermetic gnostics prefer a more direct experience and intimate relationship with God (vs. the ‘security’ of the church fractal and its lens).

 

Although there is still value and a path within different religions and I still refer to forms of worship music in temple time experience;

 

I’m going with the Holy Father who exists beyond religious fractals constrictions; the Divinely Sourced Father that embraces the Divine Feminine and Beloved.

 

There is a gnostic version and timeline of Christ which is Christos-Sophia who values and embraces the Divine Feminine.

 

We’re talking about a Father that doesn’t want, controlling, weaker men to stay in control; but one who acknowledges both the masculine and feminine principle; it’s just some men may have to rise into reclaiming their power and worthiness with the feminine in reunification of their own for THE HOLY GRAIL HONORS AND EXALTS BOTH. They are reunified.

 

I’m not against Christianity but they haven’t integrated Grail principle.

 

Other grail path gnostics also have to deal with this fracture as well and we are choosing a more reunified God, freer from patriarchal shadow suppression of the Feminine; one that embraces both Son and Daughter of God and their potential as fractal Lovers of most high.

 

There are still unanswered questions as far as how mainstream religion may integrate or catch up (if ever).

 

Anyways…now on this still heretical path; Divine Masculine principle is more ‘on my side’ than ever as a Guardian, Warrior with and for my Beloved on this Grail path.

 

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You May Have To Reclaim Your Divine Birthright, Worthiness & Pleasure

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As a woman, mystical ancient divine feminine beauty of the siddhic and archetypal feminine IS your birthright inheritance just as to men the archetypal divine masculine codes are their inheritance.

 

And yet; there may be fracture, unworthiness and disembodiment from them (as a Son or Daughter of God and Source Goddess Holy Mother).

 

So when it comes to living AS an embodied Lover-Goddess, with rich Mystical Beauty of soul-choice archetypes that weave enchantment through your soul signature as you glide through the world.. and with highly essenced and feelable allure;

 

Awakened kundalini holds a SPECIAL and foundational place to living your dreams in all dimensions;

 

And in how your divine feminine embodied Beauty can effortlessly influence as shakti when charged with kundalini; strongest form of felt allure and Beauty influence (more deeply sourced than fickle fame and social dynamics).

 

If some or a lot of your bliss, magic, beauty, essence and x has been siphoned or stolen FROM you (including from the shadow masculine) you may be in an overall process of reclamation and re/embodiment.

 

If you have more serious soul fracture, disembodiment, trauma and so forth to reclaim you may be interested in my Reclamation Makeover

 

Awakening the divine intelligence of your kundalini holds a special place to also make up for YEARS of lost time FAST in the truth of your embodied and alluring presence (to shakti levels).

 

With awakening kundalini and ALL of the real, mystical magic and benefits that go with it;

 

If kundalini has just NOT been happening and you’re ‘stuck’…you’ve been stagnant for years with awakening kundalini; the multi-O energy based bliss as a woman and the higher levels of siddhic somatic intoxication, bliss, ecstasy and pleasure as a Lover and/or in your Divine Union…

 

One of the things you can do is to CLAIM your worthiness and desire with 100% certainty that THIS IS YOURS; this divine inheritance.

 

Decreeing and claiming ownership of your right to have it in the now ‘as yours’ helps to strengthen your INTENTION itself and that can get the momentum for breakthrough going in your life.

 

(This also applies to other areas where things may have been stolen or taken from you)

 

Will you choose Reclamation?

 

Your pleasure and Goddess consciousness as an erotic lover is especially tied to this powerful upgrade to your Beauty and experience (with kundalini awakening).

 

Goddess is not only worthy of kundalini bliss and enlightenment, She kinda basically requires it to be fully embodied in you to the higher levels.

 

Btw; if you are in a more serious state of soul fracture and require powerful support FOR reclamation from past forms of trauma and disembodiment; I offer the Soul Reclamation (and Re-embodiment) Makeover here (which includes soul retrieval)

 

So back to claiming what you’re worth. AT A SOUL LEVEL YOU ARE WORTHY ANYWAYS as a Divine Child (and Holy Daughter if you accept Her).

 

Your conditioning and past experience may feed the illusion that you are unworthy, but actually you are. You may have to switch things up a bit to change what you’re attracting.

 

When you fully OWN your desire (which may include healthy obsession with your divine masculine Beloved); it clears out unworthiness and inner resistances of receiving it which can keep it in this perpetual time warp loop always ahead of you in the future so that you never attain the mystical experience of it.

 

Our Divine Union powerliminals can help with owning your desires as well.

 

Owning what I desired; this was a major piece of my real-time ACTUAL siddhic kundalini awakening.

 

Yes; with spiritual authority and soul sovereign intention you can CLAIM it (b/c it already exists in consciousness including the TRUTH of your Beloved).

 

What you’ll likely find that’ll happen is that the clarity will come in of the next steps to do to actually help you breakthrough vs. continuing to remain in the stuck pattern for years. The vibrational universe shifts around you to conform to your aligned Divine Will.

 

Saying ‘enough is enough’ and literally CLAIMING my multi-0Rgasmic divine-nature inheritance with full certainty and assurance is part of what helped me to truly (and I venerate that word) breakthrough after decades of being ‘with-out’.

 

Getting kundalini activations (self-activations and the literal same one I offer) was the other major breakthrough piece itself (and then there are other details esp. related for men which I won’t go into here).

 

I had previous kundalini activations in years previously spread apart; however didn’t have real or stable access until I claimed it as mine for me and my Beloved and the Truth of our Union.

 

So if you know that you DESIRE a kundalini awakening (to the divine levels) has it eluded you? Is it perpetually out there in the future like the carrot on a string on front of the donkey (ass) you can never quite ever get there?

 

Then I would consider to CLAIM YOUR WORTHINESS AND INHERITANCE NOW with certainty and then clarity will drop in for the next steps (which may or may not include getting kundalini activations with me; it might be something else).

 

You can use this Neville Goddard based technique for manifesting other things magically in your life as well.

 

If you KNEW what the siddhic levels of kundalini awakening were, what price would you put on it? Some would pay $100,000 for it if there could be such an exchange.

 

There are actually dozens of praise testimonials on the page now from (mostly) women and men breaking through with REAL kundalini awakening.

 

I’ve helped more and more women literally awaken kundalini so they are FEELING things.

 

And btw;

 

Even if you’ve HAD kundalini experiences in the past and done a bit of temple body work (and not actually experienced kundalini too often) and you desire more full-time access for ALL the benefits, bliss, shakti, vitality, richer intimacy and multi-O experience, why not get kundalini activations to RE-activate your kundalini (which is energetic after all).

 

“…tingling, I felt like my feet were waking up and I felt a fire in my legs, I could feel the energy moving up my spine..”

 

There’s always a closer level to Source and especially with your Immortal Beloved in the Truth of Light and Dark Communion (if you are into Hieros Gamos).

 

Will you claim your inheritance to kundalini? Is now the time to finally awaken?

 

“The most erotically full spectrum lovemaking so far this life.”

 

(After 1st session)

 

If you’re already an ADVANCED PRACTITIONER like some of my clients, these kundalini activations will take you to NEW peaks and heights.

 

Sessions available from here; I’ve got time this week (in the midst of my own progressive kundalini awakening) > Kundalini Activations (check out what others are saying!)

 

-Rion

 

p.s. Skeptical? Read what others are saying and you can do your booking there as well.

 

Also consider if waiting years more is worth the price of its own on what you desire and are actually missing out on.

 

Kundalini bliss IS like a dr&g but divinely natural. It’s kinda important for those of us with super-natural Eros.

 

p.p.s. If you’re more in the research phase, check out all these kundalini blog posts on the subject here:

 

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