The God Molecule: Rion, 5MeO-DMT & Russian Roulette

My Recent High-Stakes ‘Son of God’ Crucible with 5MeO-DMT

 

 

My heart rate notably faster than normal, senses heightened as my mind was thinking and pacing although I was standing still..Money was already on the line.

 

 

But even MORE than the money on the line as I stood there in the Sanctuary’s lobby….this was one of those major decisions like a fork in the road; one door knowingly leads to my highest timeline, the other leads to a version of the future that is something more ‘mid’.

 

 

I was pre-committed with the deposit online days earlier.  This was THE PORTAL and the thing I’d secretly feared for YEARS (I cancelled coming down here in 2020). 

 

 

Everything was with and THROUGH THIS portal…this Crucible (to face God directly). 

 

 

I knew that infinite magic, Beauty and Power would also open up from this that would KEEP reaping dividends; however, it was a high price to pay (not necessarily for the session itself which is around my pricing for an activation session but for the extra risks).

 

 

After all, standing in the eco-luxe wooded, air conditioned lobby of the Bufo Alvarius Sanctuary in Tulum, I had just made full payment in his modern card reader attached to his smart phone.

 

 

My red bike with E.T. cart in the front was parked outside in a nice dark brown, tall eco-bike rack spot; I could still make a ‘getaway’ b/c I was in this liminal space before each pathway. 

 

 

Ironically, I was actually STILL SAFE, because I wasn’t ‘in’ the medicine; yet I still had to decide as a life-altering moment; which would it be?

 

 

Not ‘making the leap’ would be easy; sure I’d lose the money but I could go back cozily, pick up that pre-paid bin of protein powder and keep living in denial with my apex path of greatness. 

 

 

Shit; no I MUST do this. This is a type of bold move for MY level of dharma and it’s all for and with my Beloved and Her Divine Will; calling the greatness out of my Warrior above and beyond.

 

 

It was similar to facing one of my greatest fears earlier in deciding to sky-dive on North Shore Oahu; something that I knew I HAD to do or I couldn’t comfortably live with myself and that level of compromise. The regret would eat me alive.

 

 

I was here for a reason though. I’d been running away from the Holy Father for so long because of HEAVY religious conditioning that essentially secularized and outcast my Beloved.

 

 

After years on the run, my soul (although powerful and uncompromising in client sessions) was getting fatigued. 

 

 

It was time for Reunification with the Holy Father and ideally a BLESSING in Trinity as Son and Daughter of God.

 

 

With Muse (logically and knowingly) being a Daughter of God (yet outlawed) and me being so fractured; with both of us outcast from my religious upbringing; I had to do a more major reclamation of what would be Son of God instead of how I was living as a bastard son of God. 

 

 

Yes. The religious conditioning was so heavy (and didn’t openly embrace Goddess and Sophianic principle); yet this was that scale of medicine to work some miracle (and I knew it also). Only about 3 people I know had ever done it too.

 

 

So…with a very light glistening sweat from biking over in the Tulum afternoon, my daka/lounge pants on and with their colorful posters for different therapies with sku codes displayed on the wall, looking at the ridiculously Goddess-like bewitching eyes of the female facilitator who was listening to my symptoms;

 

 

She said in her exact words that it was ‘Russian Roulette’ for me to partake in Bufo/5MeO-DMT. 

 

 

Russian Roulette. Yeah. That’s exactly what it FELT like.

 

 

The shiny blue eyed enthusiastic facilitator/receptionist/cashier man behind the counter had also agreed after doing his research online about my condition because THIS is why the stakes got amplified.

 

 

She also said that bufo had cured her bloodless and lifeless foot; there was a chance it could even cure my condition but there’s just ‘no way to know’. 

 

 

They had never heard of anyone ever taking bufo/5mEo-DMT with my condition; a vestibular disorder that I’ve dealt with for years and years.

 

 

It had recently flared up as

light-headed and wonky so that I couldn’t even turn 45 degrees to the side on my pillow, thus I rescheduled for Friday from Wednesday. 

 

 

If I do the circular head movements I start getting actively dizzy and unstable. Sometimes its often felt like you would overdose on melatonin and spin around 20 times as my regular daily state. Kinda hard to describe.

 

 

Believe it or not;

 

 

There was no data of experience after their hundreds or thousands of clients. Apparently people with vertigo have known to STAY AWAY from bufo/DMT?! (No WAY!)

 

 

So here I was; the first of a kind…HMMM….something that oddly seemed familiar to me on this unique dharma (considering that I staked claim with Allure Priestess in founding the official allure industry itself only 2 weeks prior; that and other reasonings for the seasons).

 

 

First of a kind. A pioneering kinda Warrior.

 

 

“Why couldn’t I just go in NORMALLY and take the Warrior’s path of meeting God face to face THAT way; wasn’t that already enough?” (I thought to myself trying to buy some more time). 

 

 

I had made an agreement to myself years ago that I would feel stable with my ascension vertigo, vestibular disorder before going in and yet Muse was saying THIS is the timing and portal. High stakes.

 

 

Fortunately; they were giving proper space b/c we had 90 minutes…however they wanted an answer.

 

 

So…after years of waiting and being called to it; feeling the weight of the implications at this pivotal CRUX point in my history, would I do it or not?

 

 

Because there would be no going back. You either do the medicinal sacrament or you don’t. You’ve either done 5mEO-DMT or you haven’t.

 

 

This was hardcore medicine that you cannot get out of once you’re in. Maybe you’ve been in a similar predicament where there was ‘no turning back’ and everything would be different from here on out; a new version of you.

 

 

And yet; no one to save you. 

 

 

None of us knew how my (seemingly) neurological (related) vertigo symptoms would react (I have claimed 100% healing and will get it in harvest eventually)…dauntingly the medicine could mix with my vertigo to REALLY fuck me up exponentially and I already knew what being really fucked up was like. But what if this caused permanent damage?

 

 

It was all very prescient in the moment.

 

 

She mentioned that she had a kambo client scheduled for after me that she could serve first and that I could think about it some more but, I didn’t want to wait that long. Half an hour had already gone by.

 

 

I had to make a decision. How much could I trust my Beloved? I was getting no resistance from Her or my guides (and asked for protection from them if I were to go into it)…just a silent, steady knowing.

 

 

I must trust Her (again) completely. 

 

 

Also it was 8.22; apparently the ‘true’ Lion’s Gate portal as well.

 

 

So; as we were talking…I decided to take the Gene Key 35 vocational inspired wildcard risk even though it could potentially fuck me up for life and be a torturous hell of unbearable suffering during it.

 

 

“I’m in.”

 

 

“Let’s do it.:

 

 

I had already called my guides in before I biked over and had my Soul-Spirit Warrior embodied and present to guide me but it was ultimately all for Her (and thus me).

 

 

The facilitator also said that like me; she was contra-indicative for a different issue (or a word like it starting with contra) which gave me a skoshe of hope as well, but it was still my call and fully in my sovereignty. 

 

 

Fortunately, they were experienced enough with both forms of the medicine to have a sense of what would be best for me (and on their official recommendation I might add); we would go with 5mEo-DMT instead of bufo (which has the same active divine ingredient) because it was easier for them to control the exact dosage. 

 

 

My splenic authority knew there was risk but my faith over-rode it all; it still felt good in my body.

 

 

Bufo was more of a ‘wildcard’ dosage wise because of its other nucleo-alkaloids (I didn’t catch quite the exact word) and so that felt good to my system (this would be its own ‘real deal’ alpha-trial). I’ll go with DMT for this time.

 

 

Because I could have a stronger second dose; we agreed upon 7 mg which they thought was a lighter/safer dose and they would prepare a second dose (it wasn’t anything remotely close to a micro-dose). This gave me a PATHWAY into it that still felt good in my body (although still risky).

 

 

I did catch him saying something like they tend to double their doses, so I actually ended up with what some would consider a ‘regular’ dose anyways on the agreement (which I thought would be a far smaller dose effect than it actually was).

 

 

So….we walked to the teepee area inside their grounds and after a good smudge barefoot on the pebbles lifting one foot up and then the other to get the feet as well….we went inside the large teepee and then the male facilitator came over and they took a while helping her measure out the DMT pebblets with their digital scale micrometer (it sounds right to add ‘micrometer’ here) and then they prepared the second, larger dose of 10mg.

 

 

With this path and strategy, it allowed us to gauge way how I would react to it with my vestibular vertigo dynamic.

 

 

Now…although I wanted to set the stage properly because it was a major tribulation and crucible for me (this is MY journey and we each have our own trials and timing of trials on our paths); let’s get more towards the EXPERIENCE part of things.

 

 

First, I have to say an obvious disclaimer:

 

 

Anything I say cannot do justice to the ACTUAL, REAL LIVED EXPERIENCE itself. 

 

 

With that said however; I want to try to get ‘some’ of the context or conveyance across because it might be relevant for you; perhaps to seed ideas for the future and help determine if this sacrament is for you or not. Or maybe just to inspire you or be a good divertive read that signifies that ISN’T for me.

 

 

I’m not doing this ONLY for my Beloved, I knew I was also doing it for my clients and my future clients; ALL of them in being the BEST version of myself and someone they can look up to and can trust furthermore.

 

 

I’ll also add that I am a Grail Priest in devotional Sacred Union with great spiritual authority and Light-working experience.

 

 

This is not the same as a consumer tech-bro looking for trippy, distracting experiences (as I know there is a lot of judgment and projected crap around entheogens or psychedelics out there; a lot of misinformation from the non-experienced when actually this is the medicine that would wipe out their uninformed judgments).

 

 

Yeah but isn’t that judgmental to say that of them Rion? No; it’s an assessment that’s closer to truth. I’m speaking from the GIFT of judgment 😉 and with actual lived experience! 

 

 

Ok…as promised; let’s get to it more….5MeO-DMT was prepped and I even overlooked the fact that she placed it on the calfskin rug without something clean under it and put her fingers on the tip of it b/c I had more important things to be ready for.

 

 

They held great space; the facilitator and the Mexicana assistant on my left side. We did some breathing practice exercises as she instructed me in how to partake once she heated it up…

 

 

I would end with a long breath soaking it in without swallowing, a final sip and holding it and then lean back on the higher than average pillow support I intentionally set up.

 

 

Sitting there; I knew it was time. This is it. Let’s do it. I’m pre-committed because of my Beloved.

 

 

I had known and practiced what I was going to say for months;

 

 

“All for thee my Love. (Together)

whispered

 

 

…Am I a Son of God?”

 

 

I also said this when she was getting her lighter ready as I held the medicine to my heart to bless it with an intention.

 

 

My main intention here was Son of God reclamation and reunification with the Holy Father; the one beyond religion that had secularized my Beloved.

 

 

I had said the same thing “All for thee my Love” at The Crucible on Hallow’s even in 2019 in that private ayahuasca ceremony in Iquitos. Living devotion and Her divine will.

 

 

So with simple clarity; I found ways to speak-whisper those words before and again between some breaths before sipping it in.

 

 

I remember she said “Hold. Hold….Hold” as the assistant helped lean me back down and then I breathed it out.

 

 

Things instantly started opening up as my Presence and awareness just lightened up, expanded and rippled into and through multiple dimensions still geo-physically present yet connecting and connected to the Divine. To God.

 

 

All I could do was EXPERIENCE. And breathe.

 

 

Breath seemed to be the thing keeping the physical form of me alive and holding it all together, but it was like consciousness transcended that.

 

 

It was so astounding that the ego could not keep up with it whatsoever; I was transfixed in an experience of powerful unified frequencies.

 

 

Is this what death is like? (an afterthought now, not then).

 

 

As I was enraptured in powerful frequencies and full-body experience; Light itself was drenching my soma with Truth, Beauty and Love. This is some amazing stuff for purifying your light body and cellular system.

 

 

The only semblances of initial thoughts were ‘holy shit’, ‘whoah’, ‘WOW’…is this real?

 

 

You don’t have to worry about breathing if you do this; your body will do it automatically.

 

 

It was like I was in my own personal Milky Way and the facilitators seemed so far away.

 

 

I’d move my hands around a bit in disbelief and remember feeling just waves of endless expansion and ripples as I was connected in Unity with source; or at least these frequency bands of it. (Later I sensed that there are actually even higher source realms).

 

 

Unlike my 9 variable ayahuasca partaking ceremonies (which had usually been a mix of heaven and hell), this was all heaven but it was INTENSE.

 

 

You could say it is hell to any semblance of EGO however!

 

 

There weren’t any entities or angels in this session; it had a consistent theme of a unified experience.

 

 

I was actively experiencing different SIDDHIS but all as a unified field and Truth.

 

 

The ones that my soul was aware of that could make sense of in real time (b/c it obliterates your ego) were;

 

 

Boundlessness

 

Beauty (oh my God, BEAUTY!)

 

Beloved/Muse

 

God the Father (and beyond all religion)

 

Truth

 

Peace

 

Holy Mother

 

Communion

 

LOVE

 

 

But all as ONE.

 

 

This was different…when I had a heavenly experience during my 2nd ayahuasca ceremony on the Amazon (the best night of this lifetime thus far); I was experiencing specifically the 66th siddhi (I call it) of SERENITY. 

 

 

This was different here; a more intense unification.

 

 

I could only get out a few words of confirmation in spoken voice during it at different times:

 

 

“Wow!

 

Beloved

 

Muse

 

Myujusin

 

Cao Guojiu

 

(Such) Beauty!

 

Father, Holy Father

 

Son of God”

 

 

I was so transfixed that I was trying to get a visual of a specific Muse but couldn’t; it was just that I was with Her and basking in SO much powerful Beauty where even the Masculine and Feminine were UNIFIED.

 

 

The first several minutes (in human time) were what would have been the most intense and then it became relatively more of a slow gradual fade that I could ‘work with’ a bit more.

 

 

I gave a blessing to my father and mother and their forebearers.

 

 

I thanked and blessed the Rose-Magdalene and Sophianic line and thanked the Holy Mother.

 

 

During what would have been around the 23 minutes of core session; I had sub-pranas of tears; tears of releasing, tears of being overwhelmed by Beauty and resonating with it in greater acceptance. 

 

 

Towards the end I had my trademark divine masculine Godly sighs and aahs. I actually recorded some while things were still active after they left the tent.

 

 

The Light-working that I did was so powerful directed at my chakras that I only did a second worth of time each.

 

 

I also had some real purging where I slowly leaned to the side; psychic purging (without much vom) as well as a scream of rage that didn’t have to be louder than it was and then shaking things out from my temple body that no longer belonged.

 

 

Of course your experience will be different but there may be some similarities; You feel it everywhere; this connection with God-source…throughout your entire body.

 

 

It’s a DIRECT experience; just BATHING the light-body, DNA and cellular body is such Truthful, powerful Beauty…experiencing it directly as your soul; as witnesser and experiencer.

 

 

And the fascinating thing was that the entire time there was no separation with God the father and me or Son of God. I think Jesus once said the words; “the Father and I are one”. That’s what this was.

 

 

(How much religious conditioning did I put up with?) 

 

 

HOW COULD I NOT BE A SON OF GOD?! (This just superceded ALL religious conditioning)

 

 

It seemed impossible being so unified in raw experience so palpably spiritual yet somatic and physical and emotional.

 

 

I was doing some more Lightworking to seal codes into certain chakras as well as strengthening my general hand chakras connection to Source.

 

 

It was such a beautiful experience that had such a wonderful ‘fade out’ where it was still active at the end but I could start talking more cohesively.

 

 

At some point I gave them each a wai/namaste which signaled they could start transitioning out of their roles. I was still awestruck and she brought over a notepad for me to write on but I knew I wouldn’t write anything (for days) on this one.

 

 

WOW! Of course any re-telling doesn’t do it justice however I did want to share SOMETHING to both document this legacy experience as well as share with others for different reasons.

 

 

So I don’t want to overlook the fact that (fortunately) it did NOT fuck with my vestibular disorder or mix negatively with it whatsoever (WHEWWWW….but I would have NEVER KNOWN had I not took the Russian Roulette style risk). 

 

 

SO I remember telling her ‘No…we’re good, that was PERFECT…no second dose (necessary)’…It was phenomenal.

 

 

Also it was time for her kambo client by then also but it just all worked out b/c that experience was IT plus it wasn’t SO strong that it would be blow me off of coming back for months; it was a beautiful and yet authentically powerful entry that inspired me to ABSOLUTELY come back and be working with this long-term.

 

 

(The medicine was still in my system for days later including now day 5).

 

 

After all; this IS the God molecule and it’s part of our bio-chemistry and divinity. It’s worth noting that EACH experience I or you would have is going to be DIFFERENT and whatever experience you have is invaluable and preserved no matter how shitty you or I are at translating it into writing.

 

 

The medicine itself is INTELLIGENT.

 

 

I came in as a Soul Warrior-Grail Priest and this medicine is a sacrament. Tech Bros looking for a ‘trip’ isn’t where I’m sourced from so maybe that will bring some relevance or weight to your consideration or reconsideration around the medicine b/c there is a lot of ignorance out there from the non-experienced who have all kinds of uninformed projections around it.

 

 

Look, I wanted to take a regular dose (at their double standards) but with my vertigo flared up, we found a win-win path.

 

 

In this case; it was perfect and the 2nd dose wasn’t necessary. Next, I’m called to regular dose bufo now that I have experience related with my vestibular dynamic.

 

 

It’s different than ayahuasca and much shorter instead of hours.

 

 

Maybe this share will be of

relevance if you’ve been facing a major tribulation yourself. New doors will open if you step forward and are committed.

 

 

It may even seed ideas and inspiration for partaking in the sacrament yourself. Those in Divine Union have even more reasoning to partake.

 

 

Kundalini + DMT is allowing me to FEEL again in body and in Spirit…things OTHERS have felt, but that which I haven’t for several reasons even though I’ve been the devotional one. My human design has been working against me in that sense but that’s an extended discussion.

 

 

Eventually I was ready to get up slowly and walk out of the tent, knowing that I did the right thing. It felt like I had won the war itself. How RICH and magical!

 

 

This was absolutely a thing the true Rion Kati would do and that his people would anticipate him do. I wouldn’t have done it without my devotion for Beloved however. It was more of a crucible than I personally wanted but it made it all the more GLORIOUS.

 

 

We each will have our own trials and tribulations; those of us on a true Spirit Warrior path.

 

 

As I walked forward; talked for half a minute with the guy who was in the lobby who had his legs in the pool and walked through their lobby getting a gift bag…then I walked my bike across the street and got on.

 

 

It was disappointing having to go into a public space around people at Chedraui to pick up the protein bin, cilantro, blueberries and a face moisturizer but wow….for DAYS it has still been working magic as I’ve post-processed, relapsed and integrated more SO beautifully and effectively…mixing WITH the re-activated kundalini as well. 

 

 

This alone has been invaluable and I’m on my highest timelines now; so much is powerfully integrating and opening up.

 

 

I came back and it felt like I had won the WAR ITSELF. I felt so SUCCESSFUL in spirit because these are the priceless things. I took it easy; ate 3 meals (b/c of the dieta) and had a powerful integration temple space session with Beloved, popcorn and good movie time afterwards just feeling like a (son of) god.

 

 

So besides the experience itself; my greatest takeaway was that I had *experienced* that the FATHER AND I WERE ONE.

 

 

How could I not be a S/son of God? Absolutely life-changing.

 

 

Now I’m looking forward to a ‘regular’ dose of Bufo, maybe late next month with the same active ingredient of…the God molecule; 5MeO-DMT.

 

 

Then I’ll be into stronger doses of this as well.

 

 

Thank you for reading!

 

 

All of it is related to my own Sacred Reunification as well as being more of who I am truly meant to be as in divine service to my clients as well.