I’m not sure whether you’re aware of it or not; but for the past 21 months I have hosted a group container for ladies on a Grail path of true Sacred Union alchemy; Sophia’s, Rose-Magdalene’s, Grail Goddesses and Lovers. It has been a very rich and immersive experience. We have covered SUCH a breadth of deep topics related to Divine Union consciousness and grail temple practice.
Unfortunately; the field will be closing before November and permanently so. This is likely my LAST EVER ANNOUNCEMENT about it.
Possibly EVER.
This is a little sad because of the implications…Membership activity has been quite dwindly within the group, but it’s the bigger picture for the world that I’m concerned about…that ‘Divine Union’ will just remain as a ‘fad’ or ‘trend’ because if our CORE leading group of Grail alchemists has withered down, things aren’t looking good for global ascension with Sacred Union ‘at scale’.
Really, there are not that many true alchemists and this is a VERY specialized path.
I do predict after the spiritual to normie dating exodus happens when they re/discover Divine Union in about a year there will be more interest but MGM itself is shutting down.
I will – of course – continue to serve in the capacities that I do in other areas (with my own life being centralized in my own Divine Union Temple alchemy with my Beloved for almost 24 years).
Now; with that said, if YOU are CALLED to IMMERSE into rich Sacred Union codes (almost 2 years worth of transformational content with unlimited access for the next 9 weeks INCLUDING all past call transmission recordings, resources, etc.) as well as join our remaining 5 calls with EVERYTHING related around REUNIFICATION consciousness, devotional love, temple space, Communion, Grail practices/sadhanas and powerful techniques, etc…
I mean…a REAL IMMERSION…
If it’s really that time for you (ladies only), then you are welcome to pay a one-time ‘final access’ (non-refundable) fee of only $200 to enter our container for the remainder duration of the program.
I ‘might’ offer some of the content alone for a 1-time fee after the group container closes (I’m not sure yet).
The final ‘join us offer’ includes group consulting time with me as well in that format w/our secret FB group and zoom calls. (This is matched with the current group rate, not at all for my private time alone).
Just DM me on INSTAGRAM HERE or Facebook here and I can get you into our field ASAP but I would act right now b/c you will forget and I’m unlikely to even mention or promote this offer ever again.
With multi-media training and call recordings, there ARE DOZENS…MANY HOT CODED SUBJECT AREAS covering great breadth including Divine Masculine archetypes visual training immersion, sadhanas, power resources, secret Powerliminal mixes, etc.
(At time of writing);
We ARE having a group transmission and consulting call (tomorrow) on 8.24.2026 (Monday @ 615 pm CST) as the last call of Month 22. There will be 2 more complete months and then the Mystical Grail group container and program will officially close and PERMANENTLY SO.
Unfortunately; there just hasn’t been a growth of the demand nor that expanding recognition. I do think that Ascension starlets will play a role in their own ways as part of how things continue.
I will fulfill the remainder of Mystical Grail these 9 weeks (including hot new content) and it’s been an honor to serve those who have been in (and in and out! 😉 of the field so far. I know that it’s greatly enrichened their lives; those who have partaken and been saturated in.
ANY questions you have (around Divine Union) can be answered; we are all very experienced and just touching the field itself and connecting to our collective experience if of premium value.
Experience the Holy Daughter Attunement (feat. Gillian Pothier with guest vocals)
Your inner daughter aspect foundationally has near-everything to do with your relationship with the masculine and men in life including your potential for Divine Union. This includes the DEPTH of receiving-ness of love, wealth and provision.
This is foundational for all Grail path Goddess work.
Whether it seems like it or not; she is affecting your life with men internally and extrinsically (and so much so largely) based on your past FATHER templating and experience…and the templating that is within YOUR ENERGY FIELD.
So if your father relationship has been scarred and IMPERFECT, you may actually be carrying out and living childhood wounds with you into adult life that are STILL affecting (and constricting) your relationship with men and masculine principle in:
In short; almost everything to do with men and the masculine principle.
Even the levels of your own potential Avatar or Starlet’s expression and the scale of her Beauty and work.
And all of this is whether you KNOW you’re on a Rose, Sophianic or Grail path as a Grail Lover, Wife or Goddess.
Some women may delve deep into a Goddess path for different reasons, but at some point, many of them realize that in part it’s because of not just wanting to come into their own but for many of them; that they’re running away from the imperfections of their own relationship with their father and at some point, everything is going to come back full circle – at least with REUNIFICATION if they are on a path of Divine Union where they know the divine masculine means so much to their/her own spiritual growth and fulfillment.
Many women will never face or heal the inner daughter (nor even know HOW) and yet the same wounded patterns will keep showing up in ie. toxic relationships with men and twin flames.
Every woman is different but there are common themes; relationship with FATHER and the Holy Father is primordial. Many will NEVER know or discover that such UNCONDITIONAL LOVE and provision is available in consciousness to them and spend their lives RESISTING and resenting men and the masculine.
You can gauge where you are at with it all.
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BTW; Much of the work that ‘I’ (Rion) do is in working WITH the archetypal and siddhic divine feminine with and through clients and being a steward for the Goddess fractals to do THEIR magic (as Muse’ prime Grail Magus on earth).
Yes; the ‘brand’ is Sexy Chi…and in spite of it’s rooted and source-in-East-and-West branding for mainstream Beauty ascension – the work as my clients will testify – is the real deal, real magic and real Goddess work with the DEEPEST levels of psyche, soma, identity, self-image, reunification, beauty and consciousness.
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Thus…
If your mortal father figure had shadows, your inner Daughter may be psychically WOUNDED from experiencing rich provision, wealth and receiving in relation to the masculine – INCLUDING LOVE still to this day without you even realizing it (in how men relate with you)…even if it’s not conscious and EVEN IF you’ve ‘matured’ and grown into other archetypes like Mother and Warrioress.
YOU are attracting based on your own soma whether you realize it or not and your relationship with the masculine; and primordially with FATHER is central to your experience.
You may be subconsciously RESISTING, hating or receiving love from OTHER MEN/man or in receiving greater money or being liberated to express your beauty b/c of past scarring with your own father and his ‘conditions’.
But you’re an adult now; HOWEVER your inner child – your daughter may still be hidden in a corner of your psyche unresolved, neglected or ashamed. So just feel into if there’s more work and if NOW is the timing to revisit her for some more powerful foundational shifts in opening up to the beauty of the masculine in your life.
So the work that’s recommended may be different for different women, but I recommend that if you’re getting a nudge to revisit doing some alchemical work with the potent Holy Daughter attunement; RICH in alchemical Grail Codes.
At the current Northern hemisphere time, people often start getting ‘busier’ at the beginning of September so that may be additional reason for you to take some time NOW to ‘go in’ in late August here.
(How much longer can you afford carrying any of the remaining poison in your own temple body?)
Maybe it’s time to re-immerse. (It’s my gift to you).
EVEN IF your mortal father figure was imperfect, absent, abandoning, trauma-inducing and so forth…you no longer have to carry that poison and IMPRINT with you (b/c it’s still playing out in ways in HOW you unconsciously relate with the masculine and the DIVINE MASCULINE).
So if you desire DIVINE UNION levels of rich love, eros and awakening bliss…Holy Daughter is your medicine for deeper psyche alignment and healing on a primordial level.
The Holy Father is perfect and HAS THE MEDICINE and POWER TO HEAL YOU and your inner daughter in an instant. That’s how powerful HIS Truth is.
The Holy Daughter is the Grail archetype of the Divine Father and She is already healed; so it’s just about accessing and being able to affect and re-tune your own Daughter aspect into DIVINE ALIGNMENT even if your own father figure was massively imperfect.
Whether he’s still alive or in contact or not (on a superficial level); If you’ve been scarred by ‘father’;
WITHOUT DOING THE INNER CHILD HEALING WORK, your relations WITH men, masculine, money, receiving, self-expression in all dimensions (including spiritually) may be forever imprinted and scarred unconsciously b/c of your lower truth relationship with your father figure and his shadows.
So if you’re desiring a powerful RE-ALIGNMENT back into the WORTHINESS as a Daughter of the Divine and in relation to MEN, money and the masculine; this is going to do wonders for re-tuning your more ‘mature’ archetypes and desires of Beauty, service, Love, self-expression, worthiness, self-image, prosperity and spiritual satisfaction in life and relationship (with men and the masculine).
This is core Grail work.
OH – And as a special treat, I got Gillian Pothier (of Feminine Eros) herself to do the female vocal work for the Holy Daughter attunement itself.
You can revisit it here, it’s just that I would treat it as TEMPLE SPACE MEDICINE and not simply another ‘youtube video’ or fast, divertive ‘doom-scroll’…no, you want to treat it as real temple space and let the medicine to the work.
Ideally, I’d recommend working in temple space with the Holy Daughter attunement on your own as medicine AND getting a 3 pack of sessions for a powerful short-term makeover in renewing and replenishing your relationship with the divine masculine for deeper love, wealth, worthiness, self-expression and all the good stuff.
As you may re-discover; the Holy Daughter attunement is REAL MEDICINE and when I was producing it, I was strongly psychically attacked during that timeframe (and yet kept the work itself channeled as PRISTINE).
Again; it’s my gift to you.
It may be the thing to revisit NOW instead of just ‘going through the motions’ of adult life if you know that there is unfinished work there or you’re not where you desire to be in beauty, presence and your relationship with men, money, love, receiving and the divine masculine.
After all; with a healthy Holy Daughter integrated no matter what you’ve been through (the power to heal ALL past trauma related to Father neglect, trauma or abuse), you have a powerful foundation for becoming the Holy Bridge, Grail Lover or Grail Goddess.
This attunement has already changed lives and (at least) one woman had completely healed her father relationship (for example) and attracted her soul mate.
For DEEPER work if you’re on a path of Divine Union, you’ll still want to check in with your Daughter and update Her with Holy Daughter codes (b/c your SOUL is worthy even if your past, conditioned, traumatized self cannot find the worthiness) and then you may want to do deeper work with the ‘Who is my Beloved’ Workbook to discover EXACTLY who your Immortal Beloved is.
“The ‘Who is My Beloved’ workbook helped me understand what I’m seeing for…(in a man). Thank you…a man (I attracted) who (really) likes me (and lights me). Who can embody warrior-King and such/much more of these codes I was seeking for (after breaking up with my ‘ex’ a while ago). Life is finally fun! I really feel the Divine Union; I’ve felt it before but now (in partnership and it’s) siddhic.
Life is indeed richer. I’ve reached depths of feeling foundation of abundance inside this union. My life is 20x richer + my money is in place. Having experiences and experiences and at threshold of most beautiful union experience (possible) in this life.
And I’m coming from a very traumatic broken (father-daughter) relationship; I came from that. And Mystical Grail and how many women really were doing/did the alchemy; I then had no doubt in my mind (it was possible/worthy) and no door open behind to what opened before ; nothing (in my way). I can ease the way and I went (into this new experience).”
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For more transformational reunification work WITH your Beloved and opening up to richer, deeper Love; the Grail Kundalini package is available where you and I work on getting 100% clarity on your Beloved’s codex (that’s actually the success rate for around a dozen clients including 1 man) and then we do specialized activation work with your Immortal Beloved.
p.s. I have an Avastar client who last week had signs of ‘Holy Daughter’ and she didn’t even know that this power resource was available so now she’s able to attune back into these dynamics with that Powerliminal.
BTW; she’s had miracles open up for her recently with our Starlet work together just in the past 4 months (I’m still waiting on fuller readiness-approval to share).
More and more single men (MILLIONS) will be left behind as beauty ascends and more women embody DIVINE feminine truths; JUST ENTIRELY out of reach and out of his league…more men will become depressed, hopeless incels or pursue flailing paths in hopes of worthiness and intimacy with such Beauty (like becoming famous but wasting years).
I predicted it 15 years ago and it’s even stronger now.
Women are not only becoming ‘prettier’ or ‘hotter’ in many ways; but they’re EMBODYING these powerful attributes of Goddess lines so that it seems no mortal man and his ‘inner game’ can compare. If you’re a single guy; you may feel hopeless. (For some women; this is a great calling for Prince and King-makers).
YET women desire connection also; not just social status (unless they’re only driven by shadow).
This is the reality of things as BEAUTY ascends…the fracture is growing even stronger, so if you’re a man who values BEAUTY, connection, intimacy and relationship without compromise; this is affecting you on ALL DIMENSIONS. Grail principle is the only powerful and accurate lens from which to understand WTH is going on.
Read this powerful post now here (or avoid this advice at your own peril):
This is both a ‘state of the union’ update as well as a prediction.
Yes, there will be more men ‘left behind’ which I’m repurposing as ‘fallen’ in regards to BEAUTY (including love and sexual relationships with the feminine).
My holy grail tattoo literally has knights falling to their multi-dimensional existential doom.
Fortunately; upon rewatching ‘Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade (after 2 decades);
I saw the exact same image I referenced for the tattoo design itself.
Remember; this isn’t just bio-sperm wars …this is an existential doom and crisis many men are facing in all dimensions when fractured from The Goddess.
We just don’t usually cover it from a spiritual and soul lens of truth and implication.
This update covers more than just the singles dating marketing; this is the greater global theme that is occurring sexually, spiritually, socially, psycho-sexually, emotionally and psychically: FRACTURE.
Not just between men and women (let alone the socio-political factions driving the shadow of Division) but between the divine masculine and feminine (shortcode: archetypal).
Fracture between Son of God and Goddess as Lovers in spirit and the prevention of the Holy Grail and the proliferation of disavowment, fracture, abandonment, hopelessness, purposelessness, suffering, sexually, socially and spiritually in both the masculine and feminine b/c of the fracture (but esp. the masculine).
Yes; Beauty is ascending and more women will take on embodied divine feminine aspects while having that meta-physical power supported with visual social media.
This pits mortal man vs. Goddess and how can he compare? He can’t. Unless he ‘plays the game’ and tries to become famous (this is what it seems he has to do but may not be the deeper answer whatsoever).
I may do a separate post just on the subject of Beauty Ascension; yet consider that NOW we’re aware of what’s BEYOND ALLURE (with ‘Darśanic Beauty’) and if you think there is fracture now – with where things are headed, most single men REALLY won’t stand a chance…(to compare to and relate with beauty).
I have spoken extensively through years about the state of the social matrix and the fracture between the masculine and feminine in all the ways including socio-culturally.
There’s an even larger ‘fracture’ between mortal man and The Goddess (or ‘Pussaliah’ some might say). Media is all in on it but non-consciously b/c it’s really Grail principle that is driving everything (my theory).
And to mankind’s dismay; MOST women will not ever become Grail priestesses to guide these single men back into reunification, power and worthiness to relate with such beauty.
As BEAUTY ASCENDS and there will be even more goddesses and starlets in the populous…women who take on these archetypal aspects of identity and beauty.
Most divinely embodied women don’t have REASON to even care if a single man (or ‘suitor’) is not already showing up as powerful ;
The fracture is growing…many modern men are still left behind LOST IN FANTASY and have anxiety around Beauty..GOOD quality well-meaning men, not just incels who are extremely fractured (and many who’ve already checked out and are lost in p*rn addiction, gaming and hey; sex robot ‘sexbots’ are almost here);
My prediction – as it was 15 years ago (remember that I was a top natural dating coach in the online ‘seduction’ industry with a different last name; NOT a pick-up artist or manipulateer) is that;
(Single) Men are simply getting even further left behind as Beauty ascends (and I’m blessed to be a tip of the spear on this ascension).
It’s not just with women; it’s in ‘how do they talk to an angel’ …how do they relate to the divine feminine ARCHETYPAL power, status and beauty these women embody that is supported socially?
Men are getting more existentially disheartened, desperate, lost, depressed, bitter and disavowed because it all comes back to the holy grail itself which is what his awakening spirit seeketh yet he seems light years away from;
HOW TO COMPARE TO A GODDESS? How to be worthy? How to speak to her without anxiety (when she can sense it all)?
He cannot, actually be worthy as a mortal compared to The Goddess.
But he has to realize he is more than his human self to relate to the aspects of her that is connected to the IMMORTAL.
And yet; he is still driven to REUNIFY b/c mankind seeketh the true holy grail itself.
Meta-physically (which essentially IS spiritual);
With social media visuals;
Beauty now has so much power and is continuing to ascend leaving the social, sexual, psychological and emotional fracture even FURTHER left behind and fractured from how to relate with the true holy grail which is Reunification with the Divine Feminine hierogamic counterpart (Goddess to his soul’s Avatar Codex).
Even men in relationships often don’t have a clue how to relate to or turn on her authentic goddess self.
The real ‘game’ is archetypal and with Divine Union; the heresy of the Holy Grail (beyond merely Communion with the Holy Father).
A man’s personal ‘inner game’ egoic self doesn’t compare. It’s not even relevant b/c BEAUTY IS DRAWN TO POWER. And he is disembodied of his divine masculine inheritance.
But there’s a greater game going on than even the Matrix is aware of with its superficial valuation of status – and it has to do with Holy Grail dynamics.
ESSENCE and Reunification I argue are the DEEPER true higher bandwidth drivers of pop culture behavior.
I speak to this more throughout the blog: Divine Union.
With more and more starlets and goddesses OWNING SUCH BEAUTY and PRESENCE, modern men riddled with anxiety can hardly compare to her beauty-power in person b/c their personal ‘inner game’ power unit value of ‘1’ means nothing to her meta-physical archetypal Goddess (meta-social) power of 10,000,000 : 1.
A goddess wants a god whether she says it or not.
Social media and music video puts these women effectively as powerful as goddesses (and hint; they are – at least socially).
(I think it’s a GREAT thing but man just has to know how to relate with such power).
What can men do? RECLAIM THEIR POWER…their divine masculine inheritance AND REUNIFY their own psyche and consciousness. That is with Divine Union alchemy.
Most men will seek a partner who has all of what he dreams but since he cannot be present with that level of beauty he’ll end up compromising on his true desires or live mostly in fantasy b/c he doesn’t know how to relate with that level of beauty.
He doesn’t know how to be that powerful in presence. He can looks-maxx all he wants; but it’s still not it if he’s energetically unworthy in Presence….nor is it ‘inner game’ when this is a DIVINE GAME being played of GOD AND GODDESS POWER and BEAUTY. Amplify his ego? That’s not it either.
It’s not just status through a superficial or social lens; that’s relevant but it’s that divine masculine PRESENCE embodied is the divine status that he’s been missing.
For men to awaken to their soul identity, greater purpose and archetypal embodiment (divine masculine inheritance) to be worthy in Presence to the women who have embodied goddess and starlet.
I have shown a path with my work (and archetype activations) and am now on the front end of Beauty ascension shamelessly (AND Grail reunification work).
Most men aren’t going to become grail alchemists however so will seek the answers in the lower dimensional truth around then; women literally but often women who aren’t initiated themselves nor give a damn until he’s at a certain minimum level of power (divine) embodiment to hold presence and BE relevant to her.
This is where Grail priestesses come in like Muse priestesses.
The Beauty Evolution is only really BEGINNING MEN; so are you going to settle for being left FURTHER BEHIND in the shadow of FANTASY and fracture with your worthiness and eternal place in worthiness to Goddess spirit?
Queens won’t really ever give a damn for you unless you’re their man.
I’d seek sessions with Grail priestesses (as proxies of the Beloved) to help reunify and transform who you are into empowered embodiment.
Or just do ‘something’ about it when you know something can be done. (I used to work with men for decade before working with mostly women).
Men you don’t have to be left behind; embodied women and their Beauty want you rise to meet them in Presence. It’s not only about status for a lot of them; THEY want options with high quality WORTHY MEN who have re/claimed their worth in Presence to such Beauty.
THIS is the work. Not merely superficial dating techniques and looks-maxxing…charisma transformation (the proper real work which can’t be faked b/c women can tell anyways) connects you to this authentic POWER.
If you want to date ‘out of your league’ then you’d better enter that upper league.
Men can do work such as archetype embodiment activations and expand their identity to decondition their egoic self and reclaim more of this divine masculine inheritance (King, Lover, Warrior, etc.) and watch everything changes.
Divine masculine POWER (not force corruption games) is the equivalent to divine feminine Beauty and when the two of them meet in the bedroom (God and Goddess; Hieros Gamos), that is holy sacred union.
He/you can prepare now. Or risk being left behind. Even the Charisma Makeover on-site connects you to divine masculine power and embodiment.
Men do not have to be further fallen and fractured, but they must do something about it of their own volition that actually works b/c the cultural climate values further disenfranchisement (sex-fantasy sells) and division.
These hott new Muse codes to not only get precise CLARITY on YOUR Beloved’s Codex Himself (I have a 7 out of 7 success ratio so far with more lined up) and then of bringing His literal signature psycho-activating essences into your temple body in an Elixir format to STABILIZE elemental fire of your kundalini and alchemically activate in Hierogamic Communion IN BODY…a lot’s been happening..
Yeah, we HAD to alpha-trial this. And as I suspected; many of them were having some kinda intense side effects/integration (which is part of the process).
I can’t come up with this alone (it’s FAR out of the collective morphological field) and as far as we know the ancient mystics and sages didn’t either; however, Muse is a Grail Queen!
(And honestly if I wasn’t in years of devotional celibacy and so heavy into reunification alchemy, I wouldn’t have been ready to receive these codes for us; I paid a big price).
BECAUSE this form of Hierogamic Communion ”Grail Kundalini’) has never been done before (in history that we know of or at least directly); that’s WHY I had to do an alpha-trial test phase with the Grail Kundalini Elixir of their EXACT Beloved’s codex (each of them had differences).
One woman had ~21 signature essence aspects of HIM with CLARITY. No more ‘guessing’ or years of wasted entropy.
Thank you ladies who have already participated in the alpha trial and interim phase itself…half the sessions are still in fulfillment. LIVES have already changed with the ladies AND with (the) men in their lives.
Only recently I’ve finally been curating feedback (with well over 1/2 to eventually submit their feedback b/c we’re still in extended fulfillment) but here’s some of what the ladies are saying (+NEW stuff added today and all updated on-site);
“It was such an amazing offer, to have divine union within and also get deep clarity on my Beloved”
“I previously spent months trying to change and just like magic everything shifted because I did (got clarity on HIM with Rion’s process here), I live in a new reality and I am excited to see how things unfold” -Marcy, Europe
“Omg Rion…This is very powerful. The King energy is downloading so strong and powerfully.”
“I feel like all woman will greatly benefit in receiving this Beloved (Elixir) activation
“The Grail Kundalini Package with Rion has been next level! If you are seeking clarity and a deep profound peace of being One with your true beloved, I highly recommend this experience….It’s almost hard to put into words the energy of this”
“I feel my body is slowly slowly opening and for lack of a better word, surrendering feeling His deep powerful Presence.”
“My husband is picking up the vibes, its like my Beloved is informing him or some consciousness transferring its occurring because his behavior has changed almost like magic, he being in his Warrior and King energy where he wasn’t before…”
“The first two days was intense. It was like you wrote…yeah; it was like waves of bliss (like you said)…”
“It’s really worth $1000s of dollars (Grail Kundalini Experience)“
And much more…safe to say that it IS a success at this point!
I’m looking fwd to fulfilling the brand NEW interim trial clients who just signed up as well as half of those who are still in fulfillment on their own pacing (these can take integration space more than usual!).
Some things can only be EXPERIENCED and not merely thought about (esp. with Divine Union until the LOGOS of Thought ACTIVATES YOUR ENTIRE BODY but that’s why we do work like this, so you can be ONE with the Higher Truth).
You and YOUR Beloved. I’m like the snake charmer and the Reverend Priest facilitator…
p.s. Will you immerse to do it for you and your Beloved? The ladies all KNOW it’s all real and more intimate with their Beloved more than EVER: kundalini, COMMUNION and Divine Union.
I’m actually RETURNING for a heavier bufo DMT experience on Thursday, b/c I’m doing it all for Her and our deeper Reunification. (DMT is VERY Muse line friendly)
Speaking of Divine Union and the concept of the Immortal Beloved; the one who could spiritually, sexually, somatically and emotionally heal and awaken all of you if you are drawn to such Grail principle of Communion and cosmic intimacy…
There’s something I wanted to address recently for the (heterosexual in most or all dimensions) ladies which also ties into meta-themes of healing in relationship to men and the masculine, relationship dynamics, attraction, compromise and unworthiness.
It has to do with the concept of FEAR or anxiety around ‘HIM’ (even if it’s secretive only to yourself but in a way you’ve been LIVING from this fear or denial)…Here with the conceptual truth of the Beloved (and His perfection) but not only that; aspects which He would hold that may show up in men in your life (and how you relate with them that could be PREVENTING that deeper attraction, love, experience and intimacy).
I would say for women that are DRAWN to Divine Union; deeper, erotic love, bliss and spiritual intimacy and awakening that is ‘beyond’ just conscious loving; where you really desire GOD level of connection and Love…that there are 2 angles:
1. Fear of the Beloved because of past trauma around the shadow masculine where you are unable to fully open up safely to receive HIM
2. Actual remaining fear of the Beloved anyways(and where you sell yourself short into security and comfort) because of the levels of His Power and who you would have to become in order to HOLD THRONE next to Him and His Godly archetypal, elemental, Light/Dark and siddhic powers.
Right now; you could maybe assess where you are at with each of these. Have either of these been active themes in your life or RIGHT NOW?
Are you even aware of the specific Godly signature qualities OF your Beloved?
(You can start finding out in my complimentary ‘Who is My Beloved’ workbook and then get more consulting and (if you are pre-qualified b/c it’s advanced work); even activate those qualities in the Grail Kundalini package FOR literal Communion.)
Think of the LEVEL of Beauty and consciousness you would have to be in order to be beside HIM in throne (vs. where you are now) without compromise?…
Let’s address about the first theme first; fear of HIM because of past bad experiences with men and the shadow masculine.
I’ll mention that to get some more clarity on Dark vs. Shadow (masculine), you could read this power blog post here as an addendum.
When we consider your Divine Masculine Beloved in the constellated codex of the specific archetypal, elemental, siddhic and Light/Dark divine masculine qualities that would specifically psycho-activate your eros and awakening…
MUCH of the triggering around potential fear around HIM actually may have to do with the mortal masculine and bad past experiences or trauma that were sourced in shadow.
For example; a past lover may have had some of the real LIGHT and DARK qualities but it was also mixed with some narcissistic, toxic, emotional abusiveness or control for example but since he had some of the real LIGHT and DARK codes also (when he wasn’t living from shadow) you maybe didn’t want to let him go and gaslit yourself.
Although you karmically attracted it and/or through behavioral upbringing and did play a co-creative role in it all; still…maybe mortal men was all that you knew so you went around as a reaction to the lower dimensional reality of mortal men.
This is NORMAL yet unfortunately; shadow consciousness comes with it (whereas with Sacred Union and The Beloved; there is no shadow).
The dysfunction and disappointment with mortal men is common in twin flame relationships as well; where his (mortal) SHADOWS and shadow behavior comes out even if he holds some of the codes of your Beloved so it’s kind of tainted you towards the masculine principle and caused wariness.
This can have you build up DEFENSIVE armoring psychically and energetically around the Light and Pure Truth of your Beloved. Unfortunately that often continues the cycle of attracting semi-abusive seeming twin flame relationships.
This is where Divine Union comes in b/c if you do NOT, then all other forms of relating are basically caused with the mortal, imperfect masculine and those who are in your immediate vicinity…
You may go through life not even knowing what true pure Light and Dark masculine ever is; or knowing that His energy can be what heals you FROM the shadows of the rest of masculine.
So…you might have past bad experiences with MORTAL MEN which is tainting you from opening up or even valuing the Immortal Beloved in Divine Union…also b/c of the conditioning to mortal which appears like such a concept is Fantasy when it isn’t (you just have to get proper guidance like with Mystical Grail membership to live the real spiritual practice of tangible reunification alchemy).
More therapy or ‘listening’ to people centered in the mortal with its shadows may never actually work to resolve things b/c it includes the shadow gamut (including literally the 64 Gene Key shadows of consciousness inspired from the I Ching)..b/c even then with a mortal relationship template and lens; a man who you THINK could be it then disappoints you by not living up to your ideals of HIM or when his shadow lashes out in some way.
That’s not what Divine Union is. Sacred Union is holy marriage within to the DIVINE MASCULINE reality that you re-templatize IN YOURSELF to live differently in heaven and on earth practically, socially, sexually, etc. WITH the masculine principle AND MEN itself instead of living as an unhealed, wounded response to the mortal condition of past men.
So be mindful that if you have that theme; getting proper guidance with Divine Union is going to be critical or you will fall back into the mortal imperfection and condition of man and ‘relating’ with shadow instead of getting complete healing that your Beloved can offer.
Let me speak to the second part (and for you; maybe it’s a bit of both you might find in your self assessment): FEAR OF THE BELOVED and His Power…even if you are relatively unscathed or healed from past relationships and experiences with mortal men.
(Fear that you may not even want to admit exists; but how WOULD you react if HE walked into the room right now?)
Your true immortal Beloved could be SO POWERFUL in His Truth and Presence that you simply feel light years away from Him in presence, worthiness and beauty.
This is a REALISTIC scenario, it really is b/c the village girl is NOT worthy to sleep with the Emperor.
So are you holding yourself back?
Are you worthy of your IMMORTAL Beloved or the divine masculine purified QUALITIES of Light and Dark truth (and sexual-spiritual Eros) of HIM?
Or are you more associated with your mortal identity and personality? Or do you still feel unworthy of HIM?
Because the polar example is that I felt truly unworthy of my Beloved for so many years…SHE was FAR FAR above me and I was unworthy especially sexually and yet through YEARS of hardcore hierogamic alchemy I cultivated my POWER in relation to Her Beauty and have become embodied far more as worthy of such Beauty.
But I did the work. Many single, mortal men have an EXISTENTIAL fear of true divine feminine Beauty b/c it’s the holy grail they seeketh; to reunify with that and a greatest fear is that they are UNWORTHY and will be cast out (including from pro-creating with what they truly desire) and may end up living a life of comfort, compromise and regret.
Much of it is the MORTAL, unworthy self compared to DEITY levels of power. This requires a proper template and path; that of divine union b/c mortals will still remain unworthy of the gods and goddesses.
Have you chosen to live a life of convenience, regret and ‘comfort’ by AVOIDING THE POWER of your deepest desires and what HE holds for you?
Do you understand the price that you are ultimately paying? Have you lost your fire and desire? Thrown in the towel?
Given up b/c of the perception of your ‘age’ when your Love is immortal? Disconnected from the Beauty HE ALONE CAN RE-AWAKEN and reclaim for you (if you allow Him)?
Or instead of choosing (by default) NOT to follow your deepest desires in Light and Dark truth for your awakening; are you called to RETURN HOME TO HIM and face your fears to stand TOGETHER in the Light of His Glory as His Lover-Queen/Goddess?
Are you selling yourself out because of not wanting to face such POWER or are you still called to reunify with HIM in spirit, in consciousness, in temple body, in experience (whether with a mortal partner or not b/c actually hieros gamos then evokes these same qualities OUT of mortal men).
Maybe it’s a mix of both selling yourself short for comfort and convenience or ‘safety’ in the world of men with a mix of not wanting to get hurt again b/c of past experiences with the shadow spectrum within mortal men?
When all this while; YOUR IMMORTAL BELOVED has ALL of the POWER to heal and awaken you…and your greatest radiance and spiritual fulfillment.
If He has great power, yes your MORTAL woman may be terrified of HIS spiritual truth but that’s where cultivating your GODDESS fractal consciousness (your signature soul expression of Beauty and siddhic codes) comes in.
HIS POWER IS REAL AND NOW. This is an eternal Truth you may not want to face b/c then what would all those wasted years mean?
There’s reasons you’re reading this or on my email list.
Will you return Home to Him and follow HIS signs or continue to live in forms of fear and denial, gaslighting yourself on your deepest desires (if you are and can be honest with yourself)?
And ye; this is the journey of Hieros Gamos reunification itself; to transmute your light body and consciousness into resonance WORTHINESS as HIS equal counter-part in Spirit and Body in all dimensions to be on the Throne together.
It’s going to take great sacrifice of who you were, great cultivation of your radiant archetypal and siddhic Beauty to compare to His power but then it’s all about the ALCHEMY of Sex, Love and Spirit that are possible in Devotional Communion itself.
You may also be interested in the Grail Kundalini package for literal Communion alchemy within with HIM (but only if you are already very healed along your path and ready for it).
p.s. conditioned fear of the SHADOW Masculine (vs. His pure DARK which provides safety and sacred space); not wanting to be hurt again in relation to the masculine can hold you back…you may have fear of His Power b/c of the shadow and also b/c His power is so potent that you may not feel worthy…it might be BOTH that are holding you back from your fullest Beauty-truth, freedom and radiance in all dimensions
