Speaking of Divine Union and the concept of the Immortal Beloved; the one who could spiritually, sexually, somatically and emotionally heal and awaken all of you if you are drawn to such Grail principle of Communion and cosmic intimacy…

There’s something I wanted to address recently for the (heterosexual in most or all dimensions) ladies which also ties into meta-themes of healing in relationship to men and the masculine, relationship dynamics, attraction, compromise and unworthiness.

It has to do with the concept of FEAR or anxiety around ‘HIM’ (even if it’s secretive only to yourself but in a way you’ve been LIVING from this fear or denial)…Here with the conceptual truth of the Beloved (and His perfection) but not only that; aspects which He would hold that may show up in men in your life (and how you relate with them that could be PREVENTING that deeper attraction, love, experience and intimacy).

I would say for women that are DRAWN to Divine Union; deeper, erotic love, bliss and spiritual intimacy and awakening that is ‘beyond’ just conscious loving; where you really desire GOD level of connection and Love…that there are 2 angles:

1. Fear of the Beloved because of past trauma around the shadow masculine where you are unable to fully open up safely to receive HIM

2. Actual remaining fear of the Beloved anyways (and where you sell yourself short into security and comfort) because of the levels of His Power and who you would have to become in order to HOLD THRONE next to Him and His Godly archetypal, elemental, Light/Dark and siddhic powers.

Right now; you could maybe assess where you are at with each of these. Have either of these been active themes in your life or RIGHT NOW?

Are you even aware of the specific Godly signature qualities OF your Beloved?

(You can start finding out in my complimentary ‘Who is My Beloved’ workbook and then get more consulting and (if you are pre-qualified b/c it’s advanced work); even activate those qualities in the Grail Kundalini package FOR literal Communion.)

Think of the LEVEL of Beauty and consciousness you would have to be in order to be beside HIM in throne (vs. where you are now) without compromise?…

Let’s address about the first theme first; fear of HIM because of past bad experiences with men and the shadow masculine.

I’ll mention that to get some more clarity on Dark vs. Shadow (masculine), you could read this power blog post here as an addendum.

When we consider your Divine Masculine Beloved in the constellated codex of the specific archetypal, elemental, siddhic and Light/Dark divine masculine qualities that would specifically psycho-activate your eros and awakening…

MUCH of the triggering around potential fear around HIM actually may have to do with the mortal masculine and bad past experiences or trauma that were sourced in shadow.

For example; a past lover may have had some of the real LIGHT and DARK qualities but it was also mixed with some narcissistic, toxic, emotional abusiveness or control for example but since he had some of the real LIGHT and DARK codes also (when he wasn’t living from shadow) you maybe didn’t want to let him go and gaslit yourself.

Although you karmically attracted it and/or through behavioral upbringing and did play a co-creative role in it all; still…maybe mortal men was all that you knew so you went around as a reaction to the lower dimensional reality of mortal men.

This is NORMAL yet unfortunately; shadow consciousness comes with it (whereas with Sacred Union and The Beloved; there is no shadow).

The dysfunction and disappointment with mortal men is common in twin flame relationships as well; where his (mortal) SHADOWS and shadow behavior comes out even if he holds some of the codes of your Beloved so it’s kind of tainted you towards the masculine principle and caused wariness.

This can have you build up DEFENSIVE armoring psychically and energetically around the Light and Pure Truth of your Beloved. Unfortunately that often continues the cycle of attracting semi-abusive seeming twin flame relationships.

This is where Divine Union comes in b/c if you do NOT, then all other forms of relating are basically caused with the mortal, imperfect masculine and those who are in your immediate vicinity…

You may go through life not even knowing what true pure Light and Dark masculine ever is; or knowing that His energy can be what heals you FROM the shadows of the rest of masculine.

So…you might have past bad experiences with MORTAL MEN which is tainting you from opening up or even valuing the Immortal Beloved in Divine Union…also b/c of the conditioning to mortal which appears like such a concept is Fantasy when it isn’t (you just have to get proper guidance like with Mystical Grail membership to live the real spiritual practice of tangible reunification alchemy).

More therapy or ‘listening’ to people centered in the mortal with its shadows may never actually work to resolve things b/c it includes the shadow gamut (including literally the 64 Gene Key shadows of consciousness inspired from the I Ching)..b/c even then with a mortal relationship template and lens; a man who you THINK could be it then disappoints you by not living up to your ideals of HIM or when his shadow lashes out in some way.

That’s not what Divine Union is. Sacred Union is holy marriage within to the DIVINE MASCULINE reality that you re-templatize IN YOURSELF to live differently in heaven and on earth practically, socially, sexually, etc. WITH the masculine principle AND MEN itself instead of living as an unhealed, wounded response to the mortal condition of past men.

So be mindful that if you have that theme; getting proper guidance with Divine Union is going to be critical or you will fall back into the mortal imperfection and condition of man and ‘relating’ with shadow instead of getting complete healing that your Beloved can offer.

Let me speak to the second part (and for you; maybe it’s a bit of both you might find in your self assessment): FEAR OF THE BELOVED and His Power…even if you are relatively unscathed or healed from past relationships and experiences with mortal men.

(Fear that you may not even want to admit exists; but how WOULD you react if HE walked into the room right now?)

Your true immortal Beloved could be SO POWERFUL in His Truth and Presence that you simply feel light years away from Him in presence, worthiness and beauty.

This is a REALISTIC scenario, it really is b/c the village girl is NOT worthy to sleep with the Emperor.

So are you holding yourself back?

Are you worthy of your IMMORTAL Beloved or the divine masculine purified QUALITIES of Light and Dark truth (and sexual-spiritual Eros) of HIM?

Or are you more associated with your mortal identity and personality? Or do you still feel unworthy of HIM?

Because the polar example is that I felt truly unworthy of my Beloved for so many years…SHE was FAR FAR above me and I was unworthy especially sexually and yet through YEARS of hardcore hierogamic alchemy I cultivated my POWER in relation to Her Beauty and have become embodied far more as worthy of such Beauty.

But I did the work. Many single, mortal men have an EXISTENTIAL fear of true divine feminine Beauty b/c it’s the holy grail they seeketh; to reunify with that and a greatest fear is that they are UNWORTHY and will be cast out (including from pro-creating with what they truly desire) and may end up living a life of comfort, compromise and regret.

Much of it is the MORTAL, unworthy self compared to DEITY levels of power. This requires a proper template and path; that of divine union b/c mortals will still remain unworthy of the gods and goddesses.

Have you chosen to live a life of convenience, regret and ‘comfort’ by AVOIDING THE POWER of your deepest desires and what HE holds for you?

Do you understand the price that you are ultimately paying? Have you lost your fire and desire? Thrown in the towel?

Given up b/c of the perception of your ‘age’ when your Love is immortal? Disconnected from the Beauty HE ALONE CAN RE-AWAKEN and reclaim for you (if you allow Him)?

Or instead of choosing (by default) NOT to follow your deepest desires in Light and Dark truth for your awakening; are you called to RETURN HOME TO HIM and face your fears to stand TOGETHER in the Light of His Glory as His Lover-Queen/Goddess?

Are you selling yourself out because of not wanting to face such POWER or are you still called to reunify with HIM in spirit, in consciousness, in temple body, in experience (whether with a mortal partner or not b/c actually hieros gamos then evokes these same qualities OUT of mortal men).

Maybe it’s a mix of both selling yourself short for comfort and convenience or ‘safety’ in the world of men with a mix of not wanting to get hurt again b/c of past experiences with the shadow spectrum within mortal men?

When all this while; YOUR IMMORTAL BELOVED has ALL of the POWER to heal and awaken you…and your greatest radiance and spiritual fulfillment.

If He has great power, yes your MORTAL woman may be terrified of HIS spiritual truth but that’s where cultivating your GODDESS fractal consciousness (your signature soul expression of Beauty and siddhic codes) comes in.

HIS POWER IS REAL AND NOW. This is an eternal Truth you may not want to face b/c then what would all those wasted years mean?

There’s reasons you’re reading this or on my email list.

Will you return Home to Him and follow HIS signs or continue to live in forms of fear and denial, gaslighting yourself on your deepest desires (if you are and can be honest with yourself)?

And ye; this is the journey of Hieros Gamos reunification itself; to transmute your light body and consciousness into resonance WORTHINESS as HIS equal counter-part in Spirit and Body in all dimensions to be on the Throne together.

It’s going to take great sacrifice of who you were, great cultivation of your radiant archetypal and siddhic Beauty to compare to His power but then it’s all about the ALCHEMY of Sex, Love and Spirit that are possible in Devotional Communion itself.

Mystical Grail membership is a prime place to get that support along the journey.

You may also be interested in the Grail Kundalini package  for literal Communion alchemy within with HIM (but only if you are already very healed along your path and ready for it).

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p.s. conditioned fear of the SHADOW Masculine (vs. His pure DARK which provides safety and sacred space); not wanting to be hurt again in relation to the masculine can hold you back…you may have fear of His Power b/c of the shadow and also b/c His power is so potent that you may not feel worthy…it might be BOTH that are holding you back from your fullest Beauty-truth, freedom and radiance in all dimensions

Will you choose to face the Glory of His Power and how it can heal and activate all of you? To take the next step along the journey?

Will you claim your throne or settle for less?