‘The Crucible’: My Life-Changing Ayahuasca Experience In Peru

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The Prologue; Travelogue

Exactly 7 years ago with a private ayahuasca shaman ceremony in Iquitos, Peru…I went through an experience which changed me forever. I still call it as ‘The Crucible’ and celebrate it’s anniversary in remembrance.

 

 

There are some experiences whichs really DEFINE YOU. Yes, much of who you are and become is about your daily living (and ‘power habits’ which to me are richly sourced in Spirit-alignment; Divine Union temple space, weight training Adonis transfiguration, etc.); but there are some EVENTS and moments that can really be cornerstones to look back upon.

I didn’t even know what I was getting into but KNEW my soul was yearning for exactly this experience (which hath given me an even more powerful battle tested foundation to have the capability to found an empire).

So…I wanted to do something special for this and take the proper time (now that phase 2 of AvaStar has closed) and just take the long weekend to properly represent it…the 7 year anniversary of my ‘The Crucible’: Hallow’s Eve…a very special date for me. 

This documentation marks my own official journaling and blogging about it as well (and as an extension off of me with my work…b/c it’s also very relevant to reference WHO you are getting to know more, what I’ve been through and my experience).

Hallow’s eve is a date which also kicks off what I refer self-affectionately to as the ‘extended holiday season’ for me…since I’m so used to my own lifestyle that runs year-round…the holiday’s and yes – even the CONSUMER aspects of it including watching an NFL clip for 10 seconds like in an airport transfer, give me instant connection and nostalgia to the warmth of the season (well that’s closer to New Years but yeah) as well as what most consumer-citizens in the pop morphology are going through and there’s a comfort in that b/c I live outside of the matrix. Anyways…

On this date 10.30.2026 (now posting it afterwards); last year (on the 6th anniversary), I had my official ‘debut’ of going ‘public’ after years of preparation with recording my IG debut and then releasing it shortly after.

 

 

I realize that although I’d referred to it in different places, it wasn’t until recently I realized that; yeah, I’d HADN’T done an official coverage, so that’s what this is; a special Warrior’s journey of hell and heaven. And it’s a heroine’s journey at least in the sense of it was just me and a female friend but she was on HER journey…I’ll get to that all.

So I want to mention a pre-history that the first time ayahuasca had really ‘registered’ as an invitation was at a joint event Etienne Charland and I were hosting in Chiang Mai at the time of the U.S. 2016 Presidential election (I remember b/c everyone was surprised by the results and timeline shift with the winner). 

One of the attendees presented ayahuasca in a way that really felt resonant for me in how much he thought it’d be perfect for me…it soaked in and sparked me instantly.

Eventually it called to me enough that the next year – actually about a year later 2017 – off of the internet – I signed up for a week-long retreat @ Gaia Tree in the Peruvian Amazon near Iquitos. 

Really; I realize I’d never written that up either unfortunately and wasn’t using the blog back then; so unfortunately that deserves its own treatment just out of respect but was UNFORGETTABLE and life-changing….still had the BEST night of my life (this lifetime) during it. I sat in 5 ceremonies with partaking in 2 of them.

Here’s a photo of our entire group that year.

 

So; it was two years later around the EXACT same timing in 2019 that I returned…I was called back to return to ayahuasca at the real source in the Amazonian jungle. 

I remember being at a CTE retreat with Source School of Tantra…speaking to a client/friend of mine in our multi-bedroom cabin in the Redwoods region…

I was doing something of an ad hoc Gene Keys reading around the wood dining table and brought up about how profound ayahuasca was and that I was thinking of returning and invited her right then on the spot if I were to return to go with…ultimately it worked out…I also invited a male client who had been to several of my past events (from Sweden).

When it came time to go…

I packed light with just a backpack to fly carry-on and flew from Mexico (Cancun) where I was staying/living in Playa del Carmen.

There was a layover for an even redder eye redeye flight in Lima to fly into Iquitos; which is really like the main Amazon basin nexis for obvious reasons but also a hub for several different retreat centers or shaman practices.

(A less busy view facing south I think)

So it was actually one of the previous group members of our tribe that met me at the airport and we had some time to kill before my male client/friend and her were arriving on the same flight so ‘T’ and I went into town and had a nice brunch at this place, went back to pick them up and they were both very tall…we met them and then rode the loud Peru version of tuk-tuks with all kinds of diesel in the air…the two women and he and I each in our own tuks having to talk loud b/c of the noise.

Then we eventually transferred to ‘Jungle Harry’s’ after buying some supplies and then boating up river.

 

We were scheduled through ‘T’ who knew of him and it was the last man you would think who would host a place like this…the place was actually nice and in development considering it was in the jungle…cabins with fans, a local gourmet chef and a pond, wooden planks, etc.

But honesty, it took me days to realize ‘Jungle Harry’ (who seemed like a gruff and blunt Irish-man) was just who he was…an inversion of sanctuary tbh in many regards; but eventually I just accepted things for what they were and it didn’t bother me; it’s just who he was (b/c I really was concerned it would influence temple space).

He would partake in ceremonies too but yeah…he was our host and I warmed up to him later.

This is us doing kambo on the morning of the Crucible day (which REALLY even more ridiculously primed me for that night);

Since this post is really more about The Crucible, I’ll mention that the other time was enjoyable…it felt great being at the ‘actual’ Amazon (again)….so I will include some of those images of being around the Amazon here (since I may not do it otherwise on the blog).

We did our own boat ride upriver visit to a butterfly farm and ‘monkey island’, etc.

This one did NOT want to let go of me…was sitting on my head and screaming when they pulled it off (a form of paternal dependency??)

 

We also went to a natural zoo on a different peninsula…here’s me holding an anaconda..

We also canoed sometimes to an area closer to the site.

Me doing the local indigenous blow dart tradition.

First shot for windage and adjustment…and then my second shot ever hit it right in the 3rd eye – bulls eye!

Here’s me with the original Gaia Tree group members who made the 2 year anniversary return to the region.

And solo;

For ceremonies at night (every other night on average I suppose)…We would walk to the local ayahuascero’s site through the jungle..maybe 11 minute walk 1-way and then we had several ceremonies connected with the Yagua tribe shaman.

Now here’s the thing; I have to be honest in my review….I respected their tradition and so forth but I wasn’t that impressed for several reasons. The medicine was really light and I wasn’t getting much value at all out of the sessions and there were points were the shaman was obviously mis-diagnosing my female friend, giving a simplistic answer (that we all knew wasn’t accurate) and then kind of forcing her to take the tobacco or some alcohol but she refused.

Still…I just kind of accepted the experience and was grateful although wasn’t getting what I was wanting and there for…the same with my friend herself…she felt underwhelmed. So eventually another option opened up to have a private ceremony in Iquitos with another shaman that ‘T’ knew about (later I found it was her who helped set this up and was her idea)…’J’ decided that she was going to have a private session.

Interestingly and tragically; WHILE we were there…the wife shaman of the shaman male/female duo from Gaia Tree had passed away and ‘T’ had seen her a few days earlier at the river crossing. There were several of us from 2 years ago who were returning so earlier we met in a motel room in Iquitos and it felt like a homecoming of sorts…we actually had one ceremony with FIVE of the original tribe.

Anyways; so J then asked me if I would want to go to partake in the ceremony with her being a solo traveler and also to help translate Spanish for her so I agreed…but without expectations of what would happen. I wasn’t fully satisfied here and it was an instant splenic ‘yes’.

We finished our time up or maybe actually skipped the last scheduled ceremony with the Jungle Harry retreat (after doing kambo) and then her and I went into Iquitos where she rented a nice townhouse in the city center for 2 nights.

After settling in..

We met with the ayahuascero maestro himself who came over several hours before we would start and then he put his supply in our refrigerator.

It was good that I spoke Spanish b/c she didn’t know any at all and it really helped. It helped to answer her questions, get to meet him and prepare us in some way for that night (although nothing could really prepare you!).

He was more of his daily, cordial self but there was something you could tell about him (b/c hey – I am a professional psychic) that despite seeming ‘normal’ if you passed him on the street – he had a deep inner world, shamanic presence and special connection to the realms + with magical eyes.

It was a special treat that we were (she was) able to book him for a private ceremony for the two of us.

It’s fair to share his name and reveal this (esp. now that they’re promoting his own retreat center).

His name is Maestro Don Alberto (Torres Davila) and now he runs his own ayahuasca retreat center (with a support team of course).

KEEP IN MIND…Do not be fooled by the friendly grandfatherly good-ness and good looks…he is one of the most powerful shamans in the world!

BTW; It was different being back in ‘the city’ itself; hustle, bustle and traffic noise…

  

Compared to the jungular serenity and nature

…but we had a really good set-up. There were 2 separate beds on the loft floor itself up top and I had the bottom bedroom bed.

I wanted to cover the set up itself up to this point and now we can get down to it…let me get to The Crucible itself.

He returned when it was dark out that evening (say around 8 pm?) and went to the refrigerator and gathered his other ceremonial gear and started setting things up upstairs. I remember carrying a chair upstairs.

Here’s ONE photo representing the place and I chose not to show the beds itself b/c it would look far too mundane.

He may have had an assistant that then left so it was the 3 of us. (Or actually; the assistant might have only come the following night for the super-smudging).

So….’J’ had her personal twin size bed and I had mine on the upper loft area and there was a bathroom upstairs as well…there was a basic wood table with clock and lamp on the wall in between.

He had positioned himself closer to the foot of in front of her bed whereas mine was on the wall with the staircase starting about 5 feet below the foot of the bed.

I was really just kinda happy to be there to get a ‘bonus’ ceremony after leaving the other connection point of around 3 ceremonies.

She covered all the expenses (and tbh at that time I hardly had ANY money and was literally stuck in the city until I could make enough to return; several weeks but that’s when the gift and siddhic activations started).

OK….SO HERE WE GO…..ENTERING TEMPLE SPACE for what I didn’t know would become ‘The Crucible’.

The Crucible: My Ayahuasca Experience

I knew that we were going into ceremonial ayahuasca temple space (and inside in the city for a first time); yet for this one I had NO IDEA what to expect but I still knew to treat it seriously and as he had like 3×2 liter jugs, he poured a small dose for each of us into a small cup each and then I took a moment and whispered ‘all for thee, my Love’ to my Beloved and then partook…

When I partook in the sacrament itself it immediately had a different quality about it…sure, it still tasted NASTY (b/c it’s ayahuasca) but energetically it was notably different in texture and timbre than what I’ve had before (and not AS reprehensible in taste)…so that was a ‘sign’ of sorts…potently magical you could say in retrospect just in its physical quality….THIS WAS GOING TO BE A NEW EXPERIENCE as he set into his regular living room chair we brought up from downstairs with his resources around him including 2 buckets (hmm…what could those be for? 😉

As I leaned back (barefoot with my dark slouchy daka/yoga pants on and rested flat with a pillow under my head); it took about a real minute and things were already starting. See; I’ve taken ayahuasca before – and it took an hour for anything to even seem different than normal during my first ever ceremony before things really became MAGICAL (as my first EVER psychotropic experience 2 years earlier)…plus, the previous shaman experience for me in those sessions was very light…but this was already in effect within 1 minute.

We did have some dim lighting and the entire area was spacious with the loft view…but it didn’t take long and I was just lost in my own experience with hardly any awareness of the room or space around unless I tried to focus on it and look around.

Before I knew it I was literally a jaguar running through jungle underbrush at night (I’m giving several images here to capture some of the essence)…

     

..and it was like my paws were hitting the ground with each shake of his chakapa (leaf rattler)….

a steady and consistent rhythm as I/jaguar was brushing against all kinds of jungle brush and palm trees.

At one point the experience transmuted….I ended up in a melancholic dark, dank green swamp..

 

I had no control over anything…but it was just beginning..it was a beautiful experience so far…(but WAIT, there’s ssshmore!)

Here’s the kicker that really took me to HELL-TOWN…..my ego was protecting itself in a way so I kept repeating a set of phrases…and I’m going to try to at-tune into it now b/c I may not remember it exactly but I kept repeating this phase aloud kinda like I was the cool California kid like (‘no we’re good bro’);

“OK stop…that’s it/that’s enough…I get it..fine (just stop…tone it down) BUT HE KEPT A SHAKIN’ consistently enchanting the entire experience…

and guiding it from his lifetime of mastery and wisdom. I remember I kept sitting up to say it kind of auto-cratically while indirectly imploring him to ‘tone it down’ a bit. It was my ego vs. powerful forces. (The underworld was about to swallow me whole)…

I swear I repeated that at least a dozen times (I don’t know whether it affected her session or not or how aware she was) – sometimes half-leaning up resting on my elbows as I felt an encroaching indescribable DOOM and a resistance to ever go there but it was UNSTOPPABLE;

“Ok…stop…that’s it…I GET it – fine…I’m good…(just) STOP…”…but there was this darker pulling that was unstoppable..and then a vortex opened up and I DROPPED….plummeting deeeeeeep into an abyss and my ego itself was annihilated; UTTERLY useless and helpless.

Being in this new doom-space experiencing in real time…I was in a true form of HELL.

 

There was an indescribable prescient awareness of deeeep soul suffering and trauma like I felt what millions of souls suffering was like….

  

I also felt such great GRIEF but deep grief, suffering along with ‘TORMENT’ was the exact word to best describe it …and really a blend of all of that wrapped in boundless ANGUISH…

…but it was all very visceral and REAL in experience…I couldn’t stop or yet have any authority or power to shift the experience;

I was just along for the ride…he was guiding, but it was the medicine I was missing. (Most of the ceremony he was doing sing-chanting different icaros – of which this audio/not video is a sample of his voice – but there were moments and spaces of silence or transition – and very strategically as well).

His incanting further enriched the experience…there wasn’t death, there was just SUFFERING and TORMENT.

LIGHT was nowhere to be found at all…INKY blackness and an absolution of this shadow consciousness..

…and even the thought of my Beloved? SHE WAS NOWHERE NOOOOOOOOOOOWHEREEEEEEEE to be found…a billion miles away. It was me in hell…or an authentic experience of it.

(I may mention this again, but believe it or not, it’s AYAHUASCA that taught me hell is real – and the afterlife).

Everything was the BLACKEST OF BLACK…pitch black. At some point there was a dark hallway and flames further away

…but mostly just shadow-rich black with an awareness there were tormentor spirits around and in a sense; rampaging through me as consciousness itself (for me to KNOW this experience).

At another point it literally felt like I would never escape this black hell enriched with the misery of soul suffering itself amplified and surrounding 360 immersion of a million souls…which then turned into another form of swamp hell – closer to the surface in the astral realm (4D)…

…as things started transmuting…yet even that which seemed like an initial relief…started getting more brutal in its psyche-scape..just being there longer was an existential dread and sordid murkiness with putrid greens and mucky swamp rot.

 (but even more vile ‘n wretched)

The thought of my female friend lit me up for just a second and the yearning for something NORMAL or positive (anything to get OUT OF THIS PLACE) and the deep sense of HOPE…but I was just stuck in this moment…back in the gravitron entropy of ‘the swamp’ itself where thought was useless.

I had the passing thought of ‘I wonder how her experience is going’ and NORMAL reality seemed light years away….I thought ‘if I/we ever get out of this alive’…it felt like an eternity just being in this torturous limbo phase…like it was inescapable. DREADFUL and dreary. In retrospect at least there weren’t any R.O.U.S.

I meant it felt at LEAST like hours of drawn out torturous not-wanting-to-be-there-ness. Your/my ego self is just wanting to ESCAPE so thank God I had learned to become very present and witness and allow things but STILL…it was hellish witnessing but without that it would’ve been far worse (b/c my soul CAN handle this and it’s how/why he could ‘bring it’ b/c both of us were very powerful warriors there with him). I still didn’t enjoy that though (but it was so important).

(btw; throughout here…I tried to find aya art and images that come ‘closest’ to representing things visually to help paint more of a sense in support).

Somewhere in that sub-phase there, I felt like turning my body over to face down for more comfort (oh shit)…at sometime in the secondary (actually 3rd later on; but less putrid swamp phase I/we were hearing 3d sound effects somehow bouncing off of the walls (I later talked with ‘J’ and she was stunned how this could even happen).

I saw a sign of normality with the comfort of the clock but then it’s like it was evil I tried reaching for it to feel normal but it was ‘in’ on the torture as well.

Turning over facing DOWN into the hell realms with my body just re-activated the tortured…

I just couldn’t stop any of it even though I didn’t want to turn up b/c I might throw up – with my soul being actively and powerfully traumatized by hellish forces at one point my face literally started melting off and dripping down…

 

(I think this was after I tried reaching to touch the otherwise normal night stand’…I could barely scoop it up and it kept dripping down melting like hot wax…with part of my body 100 meters below into the ground. HORRIFYING

It was around this point that a legion of bats swept me up and flew me away into this hellish, really tall castle further away…

(here are some representations of what it could be referenced as visually)

The whole thing was dank like a haunted dungeon and it redefined what the color black (and even bats) meant to me.

Much of this I couldn’t remember further details (even a week after) but just the general rich experience…there were different phases so to speak within my Crucible journey.

To someone who has never had ayahuasca, they may think that you’re just ‘imagining’ things (ha!); this is direct lived experience JUST AS REAL as normal waking reality….

 

..you’re experiencing the astral realms and spirit world dimensions and rich layers and COLOR palettes of it which can include versions of heaven or higher layers far above the astral (ime like in a session 2 years previously where I felt siddhic serenity like in heaven and would’ve felt ok if that WAS death itself – it was that profound).

So there was more hellish experience for a while but then something of a transition…I think he made more space in the music/activity and then shifted tone (summoning different spirits).

Again; this was all DIRECT lived experience on the soul, spirit, mind and psyche – and incredibly impactful… Everything is so heightened…realms of consciousness that remain inaccessible to the normal 9-to-5er. Those who’ve partaken in the real thing have an idea.

Again; that can be hard to fathom for those who’ve never experienced forms of DMT or even spent time outside of their analytical mind and the incessant monkey mind…that any of this could be ‘real’ as it sounds so incredulous (but they don’t know what they don’t know).

As torturous and inescapable as most of this journey was – and as much as I wanted to NOT be in hell – I (know that I) was MEANT for this deep shadow and Dark experience however (it was EXACTLY what I had to experience for many reasons esp. as a powerful sorcerer myself in my own regard – even BY that time I was yet trusting in HIS mastery for this experience)…

To forge my character along this path and for many other reasons AS BRUTAL as it was. Truly a Great Crucible. Of course the maestro himself knew this with his experience….he probably knew all kinds of things about me, that I could handle it (and or at least integrate it afterwards) by reading me and that she was also a true soul warrioress also so he could go all out in our private session (b/c otherwise he would adapt to others or SHOULD at least and what they can handle).

So yes…I remember that things eventually shifted…there was more peace and lighter transitional energies – both with how he was guiding and working in the spirit realm and how his icaro chanting started moving to a more positive uplifting vibration and that I felt ready to turn over on my front…

..there was a transitional period where it was such a relief to be out of that…

…then I was in more of a lighter green magical swamp from what I recall…

..(a more benevolent experience)

..and before I knew it the scenery changed entirely…

I started literally soaring as the thunderbird in majestic mountain air waves…

    

Some of these visuals help to connect with what it was like…it seemed I was transported to the Rockies which was far away from where we were.

The experience became far lighter, airier and bluer…the psychic tones entirely shifted into higher frequencies…

…at that point I started being a vocal channel for divine ahhh’s and mmmm’s…this was actually a ‘thing’ that everyone else in the Gaia Tree tribe verified 2 years earlier…how divine and satisfying my sighs and sounds were in the maloca.

 

It sounded like I had the voice of God but I was also witnessing it as pure Presence…facing upward everything just felt so…MAJESTIC…world’s away from the hell realms I had been through.

So I remember flying through and just being in this space of Kingly air-mountain Majesty and Providence.

And then it reached a certain point where I’m sure he was silent for a while and then let us come out of the journey sitting up on our own timing with incredible held temple space so we could take our own time…somewhere in there he might have moved some things downstairs to give us more space up there to come out. I’m sure he smudged after and eventually we walked him out downstairs so that we had space for ourselves. I stayed downstairs from that point onwards…just lounging for a while in what I’d just been through.

I’d say that it was 3/4 HELL and 1/4 a form of heaven (however it could’ve been 1/5th heavenly)..this was different than other sessions I’ve had with the original shaman husband and wife team and the Yagua tribe shaman sessions. EACH session can be very dynamic and can have just the medicine of what’s called for you – allowing you to process what’s necessary…fascinating about it is that you can ‘remember’ so much of it all.

So now I’ll just go into some outro details and some other cross-over mentions…b/c for me this is MY personal documentation and record which I honor whether anyone else ever cares or not.

There are many who will demonize ayahuasca and ‘the spirit world’ but this allowed me to FACE THINGS and actually CONFIRM from lived experience that which my Christian upbringing was referring to.

Because the DARK BEAUTY of it all ; this is how I KNEW (and now KNOW THAT I KNOW that) THERE IS HEAVEN AND HELL.

As well as beautiful astral layers and realms in between…

It’s because of ayahuasca (and also how it was preparing my spirit for death and different perspectiving on all of that in strengthening the spirit and soul).

And it wasn’t in dogmatic old Pentecost church Bible thumping forced perspectiving…it was through experiential lived experience subjectively…with ayahuasca that I received confirmation I KNEW THAT HELL IS REAL and that obviously soul and spirit are real (confirmationally even though I already knew that) AND that they were right all along with that…

I had to LEARN that lesson and the WEIGHT of it…and that OBVIOUSLY there is an afterlife…plus the counter-balance of heaven is a million times more profound. (I’m on a more gnostic path of Divine Union rather than the dogmatic shadow of religion HOWEVER there are Truth and Light codes as well throughout most religious fractals which I can respect plus there is TRUE worship and connection with Christ lines including religions but I’m not into their shadows).

Overall the session itself may have taken 2.5 hours but at times seemed like foreverrrrr…like I was serving a sentence in another part of Dagobah with no master Yoda.

After our ceremony we both stayed up for around 80 minutes just kind of recapping with each other a bit in the downstairs open living room/kitchen space like with some chamomile….I remember feeling like I had returned like a war hero just being in awe of what I went through and that I had the courage to go through all of it and I knew I’d never be the same again.

At another point earlier ; I remember she got up and started walking around towards the stairs but I was unable to do anything (incapacitated in a way) but fortunately he grabbed her so she wouldn’t fall down…at another point I remember she was sitting up and doing movements and I remember seeing black inky energy shaking and coming off of her and it was so fascinatingly beautiful, dramatic and shamanic.

Some other points…

This is going to be taboo but I could tell that we was intentionally working WITH spirits including darker, less glorious spirits so to speak and that he had a great relationship and ability to summon them and legions of them…this isn’t something I do in my own lightwork nor Dark work (summoning shadow entities); however it was part of his style of working and why he isn’t for everyone…yes, it’s related to aspects within myself but he was working with them.

So yeah; it seemed like he was inviting in Darker forces through different transmuting LAYERS and dimensions of the experience and entire visual landscapes would change based on his intention and mastery of working with them as well as how his voice was transmitting in the spirit realm and summoning….HOWEVER, I WAS READY FOR IT….this was actually the medicine THEN for me….it HAD to get SUPER DARK for me b/c of my soul path and the levels of WARRIORSHIP required; so in that sense it was perfect (post-integration wise). MOST people aren’t ready for anything near this level of true work or would throw it out with the bathwater b/c of being anything closely NEAR actual demons…and yet, what if we WERE meant to literally face them and KNOW.

So his tactics are controversial and I’m just being honest being aware as a professional psychic and lightworker that I know that’s what was going on and that I wouldn’t necessarily call in other spirits BUT…BUT….that was the experience I was called to have actually and would have been ‘missing’ otherwise….AND……(and this is a testament to HOW masterful and professional he was)…I was left CLEAN of spirits meaning no entities during the final phase of it as I was lifted into higher realms as the eagle/thunderbird

 

…there was a purification and cleansing so all of the other IMMERSIVE experience including demons with and through me was over….I left the session coming out of it as myself…but a new version of myself.

So if you’re researching him, I wouldn’t necessarily recommend him b/c undoubtedly he’s one of the most powerful shamans in the world…so just be mindful…Again don’t be fooled by how grandfatherly and ‘nice’ he looks…yes, he has his own retreat center now and worked at Blue Morpho for many years. It’s been 7 years since I did ayahuasca but I’m ready to return to him or go ahead with Hamilton at Blue Morpho for something ‘on par’ in strength as well as the original shaman (whose wife-partner transitioned): if I’m not mistaken he was one of his maestros in his history. It took me several years before even considering ayahuasca in a ‘medium’ relative format after that…really like 3 or 4 years b/c it was that powerful and profound.

And although I’ve gone through MANY trials and tribulations on my soul path dharma which required immense soul warriorship, this will always be my ‘The Crucible’. And it was IN the city instead of jungle, but that’s how it worked out…private hire. To me that REALLY completed the trip to make it worthwhile.

Later she had actually somehow talked to the neighbors who apparently were Russian and she smoothed things over, and somehow they understood…b/c tbh we were making a racket…she was sounding in her experience and I was screaming on the inside at least but mostly it was his loud icaros and ceremonial shaker that he didn’t hold back on – but I just had to trust the experience and not worry about any of that.

At one point during session; I remember thinking that if the cops showed up…I would be mush…not even able to walk properly if they were to put us in their car (somehow I crawled or held onto railings for a bathroom hut break during a ceremony 2 years ago). This is DMT based…our BODY actually holds DMT.

There are SO many benefits to ayahuasca and/or DMT use when experienced we’ll just say ‘properly’. I wanted to go ‘the source’ in Peru itself. Yes; there’ll be haters who have taken it before but I’ll say that the shamans are more different and dynamic than you would think b/c I’ve had 4 of them. AND each session can be different.

It’s kinda strange for people to just throw it out with the bath-water demonizing it all when they have literally zero experience with it. And even those that have had experiences…partaking in aya is not the same as someone else taking aya…the differences could be so VASTLY different.

I’ve had hardly any effect on a lighter dose with the earlier shaman that my soul didn’t align with (and instantly felt that on meeting him); yet got the ability to differentiate from more experience and well..otherwise.

You might not like one shaman but trust your body and intuition if you are stilled called to the medicine to try something or someone else. Thing is; just b/c that other shaman really wasn’t for me, doesn’t mean he isn’t for you…my other friend/client – it really fit for him and was a very worthwhile experience. Even if you’ve done aya, you might want to experience a different shaman, time dynamic and environment.

Ayahuasca is like experiencing the spirit world and consciousness DIRECTLY as your soul…everything is AMPLIFIED and very rich…even colors and the inkiness of them.

I will say that YES…disfortunately; ayashuasca CAN open you up to entities and inter-change…but that’s something that can be cleared up and out afterwards professionally (and in my case hey! I can do self-healing) except that in this case he DID clear things out in that session towards the end so I didn’t have remaining ‘anything’ as far as entity or demonic residue….I will say that afterwards I was unable to do anything for quite a while..could barely get out of bed the following day.

What I went through in large ways was powerful soul trauma and shock so it was taking me necessary ‘after-space’….she had a far less dramatic experience and didn’t yet get the medicine/experience she had came for so she was going to get another session with him that night (Halloween itself).

Fortunately; ahead of time with an assistant they brought a Willow’s forest community supply of palo santo and smoked up the entire place before starting her session and that really helped.

(like this x50)

I had my headphones and laptop to do some session space as well as a superficial ipod video game…stuff like that to keep me occupied with headphones one. I felt that was REALLY necessary. I still hadn’t had access to my own authority and powers to do my own field protection…I was still very vulnerable.

I had to ask a sorcerer friend of mine to call in protection for my field b/c she was having a follow-up ceremony on Halloween itself.

TBH there were ALL KINDS of shadow spirits around then throughout space (esp. on HALLOWEEN?! Hello..)…there was no veil….so my strategy was to be as ‘normal’ as possible and independent while she had her experience upstairs.

Even still…this was the experience I was REALLY meant to have as illogical as it may seem…that I really came for and the 2nd night was more of hers.

The entire next day I was even more affected on Halloween and even though we kept the drapes closed, wow….I was in my bed yet didn’t catch a wink of sleep all night but things got more extreme….

I started having a different an unusual form of kundalini awakening that was slowly going through and ripple-awakening my DNA…

 

…the sense of a (non-demonic but) green snake (of DIVINE INTELLIGENCE) working it’s way through my body activating and upgrading my DNA…re-coding and re-wiring it…

…this was so obvious and prescient but also entirely new to me (even though I’ve had some previous kundalini awakening experiences before this point ; btw my FULL kundalini official awakening – which this helped set the stage for was in 2025 which I’ve blogged about).

It was this rippling, winding light fire taking it’s time moving through the energy body and organs. I knew it was a very powerful re-templating; however I remember honestly thinking and FEELING like I’d never EVER be able to sleep again…it would a strange kind of frozen panic and shock. B/c it was daylight I still tried to sleep but couldn’t at all.

I remember we went for a brunch the day after Halloween (while on the 31st she went out and she brought me some takeaway good food as I don’t think I left the entire condo then)…and even at the restaurant I was still ‘shaken’ and taking a long time to order something on the menu.

Her 2nd experience seemed to have been what she was looking for but she was still a ‘bit’ more pulled together than I was…both of us deeply affected. Just two of us we had his full power and focus vs. it being spread out to a larger group (plus we were such spirit warriors in our own rights already anyway).

On Nov. 1st after brunch we had to split ways and check out.

Eventually she was leaving to the airport and I pulled myself together enough with my backpack to go the route which I was familiar enough now to catch a tuk-tuk to the water-port and catch the colectivo taxi motorboat up the river to where our camp was set up….

..(it helped I speak Spanish although not fluently)…although I was still re-settling back in and recovering.

It was a WELCOME RELIEF to be back in the peace of the jungle

…(well, with its organic noises like insects and frogs albeit)…also very cozy that I had my own spacious hut with mosquito nets and fan. I wanted SPACE ALONE as much as possible (esp. being a 5/1 projector). It was just the thing though.

Being in the jungle helped to settle things back in more to my body and post-integrate…then I had some more of their food b/c I don’t eat fish (the only seafood I eat is oysters), I would request other food options from their chef and tbh it was all kinda gourmet at least for jungle dining.

I stayed on site for maybe 2 nights maximum and then decided to stay in Iquitos itself as I felt more (good) re-normalized. There was a previous plan to do magic mushrooms together but that never came to fruition. There was an endearing connection to that land for it was part of my story…no internet, no wi-fi…raw jungle with some decent setup for a natural retreat. I had chosen to sleep in the same hut in a different bed that had the mosquito net.

Our group had splintered so we were more on our own now…and me not having money I took another riverboat return for myself back into the city where I lived for around 2 weeks at a little motel room until I had enough money to get out there. There was some good food at a restaurant nearby where I would eat twice a day or so and caught a movie or 2 at the cinema. I even saw Jungle Harry himself in town who invited me to go back on-site but I was more ready to get out there.

So….this was my own ‘official’ representative documentation of my ‘The Crucible’ and it’s something how I can still remember SO many of those details.

And really; that kundalini activation was a primordial like re-wiring that also entirely upgraded my nervous system and power and ability TO channel and move energies as a lightworker-sorcerer more powerfully for myself and clients (as an authentic Western master) AND that would later come to serve me down the line with my official kundalini awakening having such a powerful foundational ‘upgrade’ so to speak…it’s also a re-templating then that is still serving for my entire Avatar Star embodiment imago transfiguration itself b/c it’s about having the energy body that can HOLD and be stable with immense flow of chi or spirit-essence plasmic current within oneself.

Going through what I did was its own hero’s journey…and I guess after more people realize and b/c aware of me (and a destiny that I am to be the Lightworker to the Stars!) they’ll be more keen to read something as intense as this…yet this has been an integral part of my overall Odyssey itself…my journey in becoming who I really am as The Muse Magician and Beauty Sorcerer…it required such deep and true tribulation throughout for many years as part of my ‘price to pay’.

SEVEN years since then (although I’ve done 5MEO-DMT and Bufo which you can read about also on the blog here)

 

My 5-MEO-DMT God Molecule Crucible

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My first bufo 5 MeO-DMT experience/s

(not my book but good visual)

So…I’m looking forward to my next ayahuasca reconnect hopefully in 2027 and I might be taking a few close clients or friends along! In total I’ve had around 9 ceremonies with 4 different shamans so far. The medicine has been calling for years and now I’m more than ready for a new reconnect.

There’s nothing like it…that GOD with NATURE could embed such MEDICINE within nature itself – literally…and that DMT is in our own system.

Ayahuasca is SO profoundly mystical and MAGICAL (and it’s not always HELL-ish) – I really miss it now (argh!)

I do recommend going to the source itself if at all possible, doing research and trusting reviews as well as intuition (Shipibo and a few other lineage/lines and on a separate note Hamilton Souther is a rare Western who has become a master and was apprentice to a true maestro and I respect that as well).

 

-Rion Kati

Written on October 30 & 31st, 2026

p.s. I should’ve brought back more Timolina somehow b/c that was a thing 2 years earlier…but I was carry-on (so the sizing issue)…this is what the original shaman was using as a magical potion in ways and its smell was entirely imprinted in my experience.

I even knew the exact color it was (painting the pana-scape of my experience) when he was using it in ceremony when he was right in front of me. But the entire FIRST experience? Hmm…maybe I’ll do that on the 8th anniversary; an official representation of it and something that will also probably make my unabridged biography b/c in that one I literally had the BEST NIGHT of my life (in this lifetime) STILL and to date.

p.p.s. Yes; I had the gift and siddhic DNA activations breakthrough and started offering those services when still (stuck) in town there and then afterwards; integrating them into the lightworking workflow I have. I started cataloguing siddhic essences for their qualities and so forth.

The past 7 years I’ve been offering gift and siddhic related activations throughout 100s of paid sessions (archetypes, energy healing, etc.) and I’m the first one I still know of to work with Gene Keys in the lesser known form of ‘invocation’. Gift and SIDDHIC activations are available on-site and throughout different packages I offer.

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A 2-Dream Vision of Celebrity Beauty Ascension & L.A. Armageddon Tribulation

Beauty & Allure Beauty Essence Blog Darśan: Temple + Eye Beauty Muse Rion Kati

Ever had deep and meaningful dreams that have codes WITHIN THEM that powerfully relate to your life, your path, who you WERE and who you are becoming?

 

(These dreams are closer to the ones where you’re flying around with epic powers than futzing around with random scenarios).

 

Well, recently I did and they have big implications for Beauty Ascension and insight cues into working with myself and other clients on MASTERY embodiment of your STAR version of self (activating, embodying and all that jazz).

 

First; Did you check out the other recent post of ‘I’ve been living a *full-time lie’? You can find that here:


https://sexychi.com/ive-been-living-a-full-time-lie-on-being-your-avatar-star-let-24-7/

 

The lie is basically that I’ve NOT been embodied as my avatar self 166 hours of out of 168 per week for the past 8+ YEARS.

 

(I’ve instead been living embodied as ‘someone else’ in a strange sense; a beta-alpha version of self…out of integrity with my highest SOUL self identity vs. the identity associated with my crappy drivers license pic).

 

Recently we’ve been in the Lion’s Gate portal as well as an eclipse.

 

As I’m going through a special month (August 2026) of IMAGO transfiguration where I’m more powerfully integrating my own Avatar Star Codex (as primarily the Beauty Sorcerer and into FULL-TIME being-ness including living as the STAR INCARNATE full version of myself in the mundane details of every day including CLEANING THE KITCHEN and getting in the slower random lane at the supermarket and getting to LIVE the question of ‘What Would Rion Kati Beauty Sorcerer Do’ instead of preserving being my true self for 2 hours a week);

 

I wanted to share 2 recent and profound dreams. One is about Beauty Ascension with celebrity implications at scale (as well as future Ascension Starlets) and the other is about Warriorship.

 

The first dream

 

I was hosting a small event and a Muse priestess shows up like an Aphrodite in royalty with a brilliantly lit high frequency radiance especially emanating from her face and 3rd eye near a shoreline.

 

 

(This is NOT her nor an accurate representation of the Light-Truth presence in the dream but it’s to just help provide a visual connect)

 

The darshanic Muse Priestess; She had the highest status by there and everyone was STUNNED.

 

There was already a celebrity which I won’t name there (ok – it was Dua Lipa)….and everyone who was there was far more impressed with the Muse Priestess and Her Beauty than the celebrity’s presence…they were impacted by her alchemical Beauty which was already of higher divine status and impact…secretly the celebrity herself was also impressed. Later in the dream I had them meet each other.

 

The implications of this are profound partly b/c I actually believe it’s VERY TRUE. It’s not about who is more famous, it’s about who has MORE POWER AND BEAUTY.

 

Fame is independent from encoded, divinated beauty. Of course many artists are talented and have their own codes but we’re talking about ASCENSION and who is going to lead and guide and it’s influencers and celebrities who have more ability TO influence from their own field itself (independent of fame variables which is more fleeting).

 

Of course; being in a dream so I’m dropping and fumbling around trying to organize missing pieces yet while still holding integrity of hosting presence around them.

 

There are many takeaways from that dream. It’s actually a template for beauty influence, celebrity ascension and starlet ascension itself; where it’s more than just about fame, talent and content but the STILL influence of the POWER of beauty to alchemically affect others. I call it (accurately) allure.

 

Allure is the future of Beauty influence and actually encoded in the dream; it’s what is BEYOND that which is Darśan and Darśanic Beauty.

 

You can read more about Darshan (the TEMPLE-Grade future of Allure and Beauty influence itself) in the corresponding category: Darshan: Temple + Eye Beauty.

 

And btw; yes it was an envisioning of one of the 2 actual Muse priestesses yet at a visionary level even more cultivated than she already is (with currently alchemical beauty) – and with a special focus on how powerful Muse Herself was emanating through her 3rd eye searing right into the DNA of those in H/her presence.

 

So that dream was very powerful. I’ve been prophesying for years that ALLURE IS THE FUTURE OF THE BEAUTY INDUSTRY’S ASCENSION and beauty influence itself.

 

If you’re a beauty influencer, you can be AHEAD of the game like my clients to be cultivating YOUR felt visual signature and FELT INFLUENCE now with (archetype) activation sessions or the AvaStar Makeover.

 

AvaStar Makeover

 

You can also read more about Beauty Ascension and the new wealth that will open up (+ the opportunity to become an alchemical Allure Priestess (the level below Muse Priestess) in my new book ‘The Gold Rush Ascension Gold Code‘ here:

 

The Gold Rush Ascension Code – {Book}: Power Report

 

You can further explore the WEBINAR version of that here:

Spiritual Starlet Sorcery + Ascension Code Wealth Webinar Replay

 

Have you heard or noticed that cooler temperatures help you to dream better (and access your psyche)?


Ok…so that was a profound and meaningful dream.

 

Now; for the other one…

 

On the night of the eclipse (with my air conditioning on good which helps with vivid dreaming), I had a dream I survived Armageddon in California;

 

 

I went through the experience of LOSING EVERYTHING including money and all possessions and there was a cosmic wintry apocalypse wave AFTER fires ravaged the city but I made it back in as the last person who (flew) into a survival shelter and they closed everyone else out (and then I used my wiles to exchange food in an apocalyptic military scenario when they wouldn’t let others do it ; oh and someone said I was the coolest dude.

 

It was about the most epic dream I’ve ever had in this lifetime….even if I didn’t an underpar job of communicating it (I know you KNOW what I’m talking about when you’ve had profound dreams that mean everything to you that you get tongue tied when trying to translate to others).

 

That dream re-activated my Soul+Spirit Warrior (which is foundational yet even I’d forgot about HIM with the focus more on Beauty Sorcerer).

 

So there was a random discovery on youtube (which I may have come across a few years ago that re-appeared) that had perfect timing as a Warrior attunement resource here:

 

 

I ‘dream log’ meaningful dreams with some short-hand at least (like journaling). Also you want to follow any signs and be open to FOLLOW-UP codes after (like this like in how this resource showed up and I chose to follow it trusting intuition/splenic).

 

I’m going to be attuning with that resource (and maybe another Warrior re-embodiment activation) to re-activate, condition and further RE-embody that divine masculine spirit truth back into my presence which is in the seat of the soul…maybe along with a siddhic Valor activation (b/c I already have those codes, they’re not always embodied nor expressed).

 

This is the real glow-up work (REAL charisma and allure work where people can FEEL you). It centers ON the activations themselves which I’ve served to hundreds of men and women the past 8.5 years.

 

Have you noticed that you’ve got a lot of archetypes in your own Star/let codex (if you’ve done the workbook)?

 

Because sometimes you might want to bring through the vibe truth aura-sphere of Warrioress or Enchantress for example in some settings more than others (this is the REAL beauty influence mastery work and yes; it’s high level and has influence in stillness b/c it’s REAL Power and Beauty).

 

Also; if you’re not famous yet, can you RELY on fame or would you rather have your own signature FELT INFLUENCE and aura-sphere or eros-phere like a spiritual celebrity where WHO you are communicates and incites ORGANIC response in people b/c of the power of your radiance (literal radiation that is alchemical Light)?!

 

To become who I’ve become to set the foundation for the Allure Codex and Beauty Ascension (and the MAN I’ve become of which the business is just an extension);

 

On this path of Divine Union, what I’ve been through has been immense tribulation in all dimensions more than people can fathom to become the Avatar-Man that I am…now finally living FULL-TIME as Rion Kati and I have SO many rich archetypes that my soul is experienced as (that I can now play with more powerfully incarnate) as this IS the AvaStar work itself which I help others with in AvaStar to bring their own higher dimensional Truth and codes into VISUAL and real-life incarnate manifestation, visual signature and vibe-truth).

 

You may not know but part of my history is that I volunteered for U.S. Army infantry and that I became expert infantryman, air assault and Special Forces selected (which was its own Warrior crucible).

 

(General SFAS photo)

 

There’s a documentary called ‘The Standard’ which is a more compressed version of what I went through.

 

 

I’ll share more about that all down the road and for sure in my auto-biography (and how one experience alone in SFAS was a cornerstone tribulation as one of the most difficult things I’ve ever done…yet that which conditioned my deep WARRIOR and which further prepared me to take on much more with resilience later on);

 

…So all of this (in August here after going radio silent for a while) and the time I’m taking is helping me to RE-CENTRALIZE around how *I* recognize how badass I am and who I’ve become ‘in character’…WHO I AM…

 

FORGED through the fires and trials that mere mortals cannot imagine (that kinda stuff).

 

Now it’s time to LIVE AS THAT WARRIOR-SORCERER-STAR full-time and with highly activated, wealthy high status PRINCE as well. Well; at least to RE-ACTIVATE Warrior as a foundational aspect and then work with tempering and curating my centerpiece charisma Star Codex of the Beauty Sorcerer Star.

 

And as far as that dream; as an entrepreneur (in its PUREST definition), that dream was also a perfect reflection of what I’ve still survived through (remaining DEVOTED to Beloved), never quitting in business for THIS dharma because I have faced apocalyptic type shit and trials…also there’s something about L.A. being wiped out for new codes in that dream, but I woke up as the survivor and self-Hero but couldn’t get back into the same dream for Chapter 2!

 

Btw; I’ve already had profound influence ON the L.A. grid several times which I write about on the blog.

 

Maybe your own Heart/Spirit/Light Warrior/ess is understated or forgotten when it comes to the LEVELS of spiritual growth and tribulation that you’ve been through; all of YOUR trials, history and how that could and should be SHOWN in your Beauty and be experienced as ALCHEMICAL in the MEDICINE of your presence-visuals….

 

Not necessarily as a Yang fierce presence per se but that of spiritual experience mixed with other signatures of YOUR Divine Feminine (b/c I know some SERIOUS soul Warrioresses that have far more character, spiritual mettle and fortitude – not necessarily ‘armoring’ than many modern men yet are also ‘in their RICH feminine yin signature essences’).

 

I mean; to become a Spiritual celebrity or Starlet for all the right reasons with alignment to STEP OUT TO SHINE takes great strength in face of all of your own shadows and sabotage.

 

I’m doing the work and the starlets in AvaStar Makeover are going through their own IMAGO transfiguration as well to embody THEIR rich spirit codes to LIVE and be who they really are incarnate so THEY can be in their fullest embodiment, power, impact and ascension influence.

 

Want to work with YOUR rich qualities to bring them into VISUAL presence and signature instead of just having them disembodied?

 

This is the real work for those who HAVE developed rich higher dimensional qualities in soul+spirit truth; to really BECOME the embodied ‘heaven on earth’ movie star avatar version of yourself UNIFIED and incarnate instead of just escaping or hiding out.

 

AvaStar Makeover is where it’s at for us to work DIRECTLY on embodying but further cultivating YOUR unique Avatar self celebrity signature visual charisma or allure (all based on your unique Avatar or Star/let codex (which we get exact CLARITY on).

 

If you just plain SUCK and don’t have any soul character or spiritual development; if YOU haven’t gone through many trials and awakenings, then AvaStar isn’t for you…there’s simply less Power, Beauty, Magic and essence TO embody (however, I can also help you directly with that in other services).

 

Ok…it feels good sharing some of these more personal yet possibly insightful codes with you.

 

Discover more about the AvaStar Makeover and your Starlet Codex

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Bufo: My First Experience: 5MeO-DMT

Beauty Essence Blog Meditation Rion Kati

Ok…on Saturday Nov. 8th, 2025 I did bufo for the first time. In order to cover this properly I have to allow myself to write freely like before.

 

If you end up slightly disappointed b/c this wasn’t a ‘beam me up Scotty’ episode, you’ll understand WHY and that there’s simply less to talk about experience-wise for numerous reasons.

 

This could actually be insightful to you if you’re considering it for yourself or ways to ‘ease’ into this or something similar that you’ve built up great fear around (b/c I had it for this actively for 4 1/2 years!).

 

There are numerous dynamics with this and you yourself might be interested in knowing the nuances of things that people don’t talk about otherwise which can help you to assess if/when bufo might be right for you (consult your Grail Magi).

 

When I did 5 MEO-DMT for the first time directly (the synthetic but I prefer ‘bio-identical’ version) which I wrote about on the blog here

 

…It had been almost 6 years since I did any form of DMT. My ‘The Crucible’ (which should be written about in the blog here) was in Iquitos with a very powerful shaman in a private ceremony with a female friend of mine (I was her translator).

 

It was an intense 3 hours itself plus after-basking when he left. It was so traumatizing in a good way that it kept me off of ayahuasca or DMT for YEARS afterwards…that’s what I didn’t want happening with Bufo.

 

Ayahuasca was the last time before 5MEO so now that I have more experience, I also had new questions that arose; which I’ll get to…I wanted to play it a bit safer this time if 7mg was THAT intense last time.

 

When I did 5MEO at the Bufo Alvarius sanctuary, it basically BLEW ME AWAY…shot me right up to GOD connection and Unity which I wrote about.

 

That was my version of Mike Tyson’s grand breakthrough as well with DMT (bufo though). It ended up being risky but a perfect session with no regrets.

 

I’m bringing this up because doing bufo the first time was a very different experience. I was definitely called to it and wanting to do BOTH.

 

My overall intention with the work of this session was to ease into it at a lighter to regular dosage so that I can be initiated but to have a long-term working relationship also because there was a re-activation of my ascension vertigo vestibular issue 1/2 week before bufo (just like what happened before 5MEO directly).

 

I was going for a regular dose but then chose to go lighter b/c of concern of the vestibular problem b/c bufo is different than direct 5MEO.

 

Bufo; the poisonous toad indigenous to Sonoran desert and parts of the SW U.S. includes 5MEO-DMT as well as other alkaloids all as bufo-toxin (that’s what I wanted to just play it safer with while also being mindful it could help heal things but I just wanted to start a working relationship; I didn’t want to get BLOWN OUT OF things for 1/2 year).

 

 

For bufo the dosage vs. direct is around 10-15% as pure 5MeO-DMT…so I had 7 MG of 5MoO-DMT before although I hadn’t done DMT for 5.7 years before….so an equivalent dosage of bufo would be like 65 mg.

 

So; on the day of…yes I had ‘some’ anxiety; even though I’m experienced but moreso again b/c of my light-headed re-activated vestibular issue and not knowing how it would respond and other general excited/anxiousness a bit…it’s difficult to explain for people who haven’t lived with it for years to have a real idea of it.

 

So b/c it re-activated to make it more of a trial for me again and yes; I wanted to go even lighter of a dose to KNOW more how it reacts to me before going heavier. I mean heck; this 7mg with the other alkaloids could be STRONGER than what I did before so I’m thinking maybe 4mg worth.

 

I was seeing signs like ’40’ literally so that felt like a good starter dose and then we could just add more to go deeper and strengthen it. My valuation here?

 

LONG-TERM b/c of the clarity to continue working with DMT. I was also being safe b/c I thought the effect would be the same as how strong the direct 7 mg of 5meo was.

 

So…that noon-ish…I had two client sessions; a kundalini and dan tien activation (on zoom but is actually ‘remote’ energy work) and then had to go right away to bicycle down to the main Tulum beachfront at Maya Tulum…so around 24 minutes bike ride.

 

 

Locked my bike upfront and then walked in and towards the area and saw her walking towards me (I can send referral if you’re called to it).

 

She had a whole spacious yoga shala reserved just for us where they usually do other classes with a temple area set up for us with rug-blanket, temple accoutrement and so forth.

 

This was my first time meeting her in person through a referral…we talked about my situation and she had prepared 70mg for me initially but I made it clear that I had to have authority over the dosage and she was fine with that….we both agreed to the starter and then back-up plan like they had offered before and that she had done for other clients.

 

Anyways; there was space for me to settle in and relatively relax and then she gave some instructions around how we would do it although not as thorough as last time.

 

She lit the pipe and knew how to breathe, it’s just that I can’t hold my breath super long without threatening an already activated light-headedness to cross over into further light-headedness and potential danger.

 

So we decided on 38mg and give it up to 10 minutes and I could request another dose…basically what happened was after inhaling and holding for 5 seconds then she started counting slowly 1, …..2…and I not only had to let it out around her 6 but I swallowed some of it so it left a stinging sensation in the throat on down a bit…then I layed back and I realized…wow, this is actually really gentle, pure but also a very light dose…

 

 

I gave things 7 minutes and then requested 38mg which in my head which did have some thought and ego then, I got the math wrong but that’s actually what I wanted (I thought it was 28).

 

It was basically like a strong microdose of something similar…gentle and pleasant but nothing like before.

 

I remember Tony Robbins talking about bufo I think to Joe Rogan and he said he had to take another dose or 2 b/c it wasn’t strong enough; to me before this I was just thinking; yeah he just has a REALLY strong ego (which he does but it’s in service), but now I was thinking…oh maybe it was a similar dynamic…I want to know their dosage amounts (Mike Tyson also).

 

Anyways; what I didn’t tell you yet but I told her is that I’d been micro-vaping mimosa (N,N DMT) and also had some changa (which you aren’t supposed to use close to this at all but it was micro micro like 1/2 week earlier b/c it has MAOI).

 

So anyways; she prepared the 38mg dose (so 70 mg total which I’m told is a solid regular dose) as I sat up a bit in silence and then partook of that…then it felt closer to what I had before but honestly it still felt like 1/6th the power…however don’t YOU dare be disappointed…BUFO HAS THE POWER. I know it does and I knew it then.

 

It’s just that this experience was meant to be more of that INITIAL relationship building starter point for me b/c I do plan on working with it often and we/you can ALWAYS go stronger with dosage (that’s what I’d call a good problem) and it’s where I wanted to be.

 

We tested that (jinxproof) this WAS safe to my vestibular (still healing in harvest) situation even with the toxins…I just had to do heavier dosage and all at once instead of spread out.

 

I LEFT SATISFIED…it was a GENTLE experience that I don’t have to much to write about but it’s b/c I’m viewing and valuing the BIGGER PICTURE of starting a long-term working relationship that I was ok with it.

 

By splitting the dosage it had also weakened it but it was also my relative immunity or what’s the term; tolerance TO DMT that was also part of the equation. That also helped her to understand it when we had our follow-up call.

 

I biked back and felt good but didn’t have any of those enviable relapses whatsoever. BUT THIS IS GOOD…It’s all the real deal and I had nothing else to prove to myself being my own hero through what I’ve already gone through (The Crucible and 5MEO-DMT as its own crucible)….

 

So really; the main takeaway I had was actually around the FEAR dynamic itself.

 

I had let it in some ways kinda terrify me for 5 years; the ‘unknown’…I may have mentioned before that in 2020 I was planning to come down to the Sanctuary to experience bufo but then my vestibular issue flared up with dizzy light-headedness and that COMPOUNDED my anxiety all up around bufo…it was this larger ‘fear’ zone’ (this was after I’d done The Crucible).

 

So it was essentially years of this ‘fear barrier’ with solid anxiety around it (amplified b/c of the legitimate health issue where there was no research on anyone who had anything like I did ever doing bufo or DMT)…and I realized that yes, I had become my own Hero by doing all of this.

 

THAT FEAR DISSIPATION was a MAJOR relief and strengthens my Soul Warrior even more. What chances are you NOT taking WHEN YOU KNOW its what you should do? Where are you letting fear stop you? Even from ‘being seen’ (and now I’m ‘post-debut)?

 

So, there isn’t much I’d write or would say about the actual experience for THIS time other than the dynamics and logistics I’m referring to. I WENT THROUGH THE TRIAL ANYWAYS.

 

And I found a way in. 5MEO-DMT was its own crucible for me. This was gentler and ironically, it’s bufo that others are secretly terrified of more but I had an inverse experience but for reasons listed above.

 

The anxieties are largely dissipated around it all (however it’s still temple grade warrior shit)…so here’s the deal; I’m GOING BACK FOR ROUND 2. It’s double splenic approved and it’s meant to be.

 

But one final thing is that for all that’s sacred but I’d use another word b/c the word sacred is sacred to me; anyway…I just COULD NOT FIGURE OUT THE MATH.

 

The math was impossible…there’s no way I did the same 7 mg when 5MEO-DMT was 7x stronger to my system. Even if I did the 70mg at once instead of 9 minutes apart, there’s no way it was as strong as the 7mg of direct DMT.

 

So just HOW MUCH of a difference does it make to not ever do it before or have 5.7 years off vs. micro-dosing ahead of time?

 

Anyways; We both figured that was some of what affected it and I wasn’t dissatisfied OR questioning of her quality either; that’s why I’m returning b/c she gets them directly and the medicine is PURE whereas there is more risk with other suppliers, etc.

 

I think it’ll be less of a freight train even at stronger doses but yes, I WILL do a write-up on my 2nd experience and post that to the blog also. I don’t fit within the typical psychonaut profile; I’m Grail Magi and have my reasons for taking the most powerful psychotropics with are sacraments and Way-showers.

 

Anyways; I won’t say the MG range that I’m planning to go in for but I want a similar overall experience to my first DMT one…just that it’ll be stronger than before, but NOW I’m really ready for the medicine and what it has to give me. Oh AND (esp. with my health concerns although jinxproof there are still risks); I have much less concern or anxiety about this; it’s more like…an in-self busy week, 6 out of 6 siddhic kundalini awakening Elixir sessions with mostly Light Muse as that continues to stabilize as siddhic hieros gamos, etc. and…ok, yeah I’ll bike on down to do bufo Wednesday-ish kinda thing.

 

But I’m living it…I’m really doing it: SOME OF THE SHIT I WAS SCARED OF THE MOST. Through the wall, on the ‘other side’ and that’s going to pay off in all kinds of ways (did I mention I’m post-debut now on Instagram?)

 

It requires a strong soul or spirit warrior/ess to do bufo, ayahuasca or 5MEO-DMT…YES, the sources and experiences can vary…ayahuasca was VERY different (although some similar things) with the different shamans I had. As I get more overall experience with bufo, etc. though I may share.

 

This medicine is lesser known but it’s going to gain in popularity (both of them) basically as the most powerful psychotropics out there.

 

I will have more to say as far as experience-wise I think on the UPCOMING Bufo post…so if it’s underwhelming here, at least it might get you thinking about bufo if ever.

 

Even in my circle I don’t know more than 1/2 dozen who’ve done it yet. I had a male client do ayahuasca and a form of DMT (mostly inspired by me I guess) and there’s something to be said about knowing these dynamics AND not getting too caught up in your head when it’s time to really PARTAKE ITSELF…then trusting in the medicine.

 

I don’t have problems surrendering like some people do, it was just a far less intense experience so that I did find myself thinking about let’s do a follow-on dose and thinking I had the math right (it felt right and was), but then dropping back into more the silence of the semi-familiar DMT experience (remember that we inherently HAVE DMT in our system as the GOD MOLECULE that can otherwise be difficult to practically access in any effectual amount).

 

Ok…look forward to other blog posts and I will definitely do a write-up on my upcoming 2nd bufo experience! (I’ve done ayahuasca 9 times; all in Peru on 2 different trips).

 

We’ll see if it’s as dynamic as I get into other possible sources of bufo and DMT as well; how much it varies, etc. (that is for the record if I’m allegedly doing what I’m doing)

 

-Rion

 

p.s. It really makes you wonder how Source/God gave us reminders of RECONNECT and the great Truty-Mystery itself of Self discovery in the oddest of places on earth…in our bodies and only PARTICULAR or semi-rare species of plants and sub-species of a desert frog and so forth…fascinating!

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The God Molecule: Rion, 5MeO-DMT & Russian Roulette

Beauty Essence Blog Rion Kati

My Recent High-Stakes ‘Son of God’ Crucible with 5MeO-DMT
 
 
My heart rate notably faster than normal, senses heightened as my mind was thinking and pacing although I was standing still..Money was already on the line.
 
 
But even MORE than the money on the line as I stood there in the Sanctuary’s lobby….this was one of those major decisions like a fork in the road; one door knowingly leads to my highest timeline, the other leads to a version of the future that is something more ‘mid’.
 
 
I was pre-committed with the deposit online days earlier.  This was THE PORTAL and the thing I’d secretly feared for YEARS (I cancelled coming down here in 2020). 
 
 
Everything was with and THROUGH THIS portal…this Crucible (to face God directly). 
 
 
I knew that infinite magic, Beauty and Power would also open up from this that would KEEP reaping dividends; however, it was a high price to pay (not necessarily for the session itself which is around my pricing for an activation session but for the extra risks).
 
 
After all, standing in the eco-luxe wooded, air conditioned lobby of the Bufo Alvarius Sanctuary in Tulum, I had just made full payment in his modern card reader attached to his smart phone.
 
 
My red bike with E.T. cart in the front was parked outside in a nice dark brown, tall eco-bike rack spot; I could still make a ‘getaway’ b/c I was in this liminal space before each pathway. 
 
 
Ironically, I was actually STILL SAFE, because I wasn’t ‘in’ the medicine; yet I still had to decide as a life-altering moment; which would it be?
 
 
Not ‘making the leap’ would be easy; sure I’d lose the money but I could go back cozily, pick up that pre-paid bin of protein powder and keep living in denial with my apex path of greatness. 
 
 
Shit; no I MUST do this. This is a type of bold move for MY level of dharma and it’s all for and with my Beloved and Her Divine Will; calling the greatness out of my Warrior above and beyond.
 
 
It was similar to facing one of my greatest fears earlier in deciding to sky-dive on North Shore Oahu; something that I knew I HAD to do or I couldn’t comfortably live with myself and that level of compromise. The regret would eat me alive.
 
 
I was here for a reason though. I’d been running away from the Holy Father for so long because of HEAVY religious conditioning that essentially secularized and outcast my Beloved.
 
 
After years on the run, my soul (although powerful and uncompromising in client sessions) was getting fatigued. 
 
 
It was time for Reunification with the Holy Father and ideally a BLESSING in Trinity as Son and Daughter of God.
 
 
With Muse (logically and knowingly) being a Daughter of God (yet outlawed) and me being so fractured; with both of us outcast from my religious upbringing; I had to do a more major reclamation of what would be Son of God instead of how I was living as a bastard son of God. 
 
 
Yes. The religious conditioning was so heavy (and didn’t openly embrace Goddess and Sophianic principle); yet this was that scale of medicine to work some miracle (and I knew it also). Only about 3 people I know had ever done it too.
 
 
So…with a very light glistening sweat from biking over in the Tulum afternoon, my daka/lounge pants on and with their colorful posters for different therapies with sku codes displayed on the wall, looking at the ridiculously Goddess-like bewitching eyes of the female facilitator who was listening to my symptoms;
 
 
She said in her exact words that it was ‘Russian Roulette’ for me to partake in Bufo/5MeO-DMT. 
 
 
Russian Roulette. Yeah. That’s exactly what it FELT like.
 
 
The shiny blue eyed enthusiastic facilitator/receptionist/cashier man behind the counter had also agreed after doing his research online about my condition because THIS is why the stakes got amplified.
 
 
She also said that bufo had cured her bloodless and lifeless foot; there was a chance it could even cure my condition but there’s just ‘no way to know’. 
 
 
They had never heard of anyone ever taking bufo/5mEo-DMT with my condition; a vestibular disorder that I’ve dealt with for years and years.
 
 
It had recently flared up as
light-headed and wonky so that I couldn’t even turn 45 degrees to the side on my pillow, thus I rescheduled for Friday from Wednesday. 
 
 
If I do the circular head movements I start getting actively dizzy and unstable. Sometimes its often felt like you would overdose on melatonin and spin around 20 times as my regular daily state. Kinda hard to describe.
 
 
Believe it or not;
 
 
There was no data of experience after their hundreds or thousands of clients. Apparently people with vertigo have known to STAY AWAY from bufo/DMT?! (No WAY!)
 
 
So here I was; the first of a kind…HMMM….something that oddly seemed familiar to me on this unique dharma (considering that I staked claim with Allure Priestess in founding the official allure industry itself only 2 weeks prior; that and other reasonings for the seasons).
 
 
First of a kind. A pioneering kinda Warrior.
 
 
“Why couldn’t I just go in NORMALLY and take the Warrior’s path of meeting God face to face THAT way; wasn’t that already enough?” (I thought to myself trying to buy some more time). 
 
 
I had made an agreement to myself years ago that I would feel stable with my ascension vertigo, vestibular disorder before going in and yet Muse was saying THIS is the timing and portal. High stakes.
 
 
Fortunately; they were giving proper space b/c we had 90 minutes…however they wanted an answer.
 
 
So…after years of waiting and being called to it; feeling the weight of the implications at this pivotal CRUX point in my history, would I do it or not?
 
 
Because there would be no going back. You either do the medicinal sacrament or you don’t. You’ve either done 5mEO-DMT or you haven’t.
 
 
This was hardcore medicine that you cannot get out of once you’re in. Maybe you’ve been in a similar predicament where there was ‘no turning back’ and everything would be different from here on out; a new version of you.
 
 
And yet; no one to save you. 
 
 
None of us knew how my (seemingly) neurological (related) vertigo symptoms would react (I have claimed 100% healing and will get it in harvest eventually)…dauntingly the medicine could mix with my vertigo to REALLY fuck me up exponentially and I already knew what being really fucked up was like. But what if this caused permanent damage?
 
 
It was all very prescient in the moment.
 
 
She mentioned that she had a kambo client scheduled for after me that she could serve first and that I could think about it some more but, I didn’t want to wait that long. Half an hour had already gone by.
 
 
I had to make a decision. How much could I trust my Beloved? I was getting no resistance from Her or my guides (and asked for protection from them if I were to go into it)…just a silent, steady knowing.
 
 
I must trust Her (again) completely. 
 
 
Also it was 8.22; apparently the ‘true’ Lion’s Gate portal as well.
 
 
So; as we were talking…I decided to take the Gene Key 35 vocational inspired wildcard risk even though it could potentially fuck me up for life and be a torturous hell of unbearable suffering during it.
 
 
“I’m in.”
 
 
“Let’s do it.:
 
 
I had already called my guides in before I biked over and had my Soul-Spirit Warrior embodied and present to guide me but it was ultimately all for Her (and thus me).
 
 
The facilitator also said that like me; she was contra-indicative for a different issue (or a word like it starting with contra) which gave me a skoshe of hope as well, but it was still my call and fully in my sovereignty. 
 
 
Fortunately, they were experienced enough with both forms of the medicine to have a sense of what would be best for me (and on their official recommendation I might add); we would go with 5mEo-DMT instead of bufo (which has the same active divine ingredient) because it was easier for them to control the exact dosage. 
 
 
My splenic authority knew there was risk but my faith over-rode it all; it still felt good in my body.
 
 
Bufo was more of a ‘wildcard’ dosage wise because of its other nucleo-alkaloids (I didn’t catch quite the exact word) and so that felt good to my system (this would be its own ‘real deal’ alpha-trial). I’ll go with DMT for this time.
 
 
Because I could have a stronger second dose; we agreed upon 7 mg which they thought was a lighter/safer dose and they would prepare a second dose (it wasn’t anything remotely close to a micro-dose). This gave me a PATHWAY into it that still felt good in my body (although still risky).
 
 
I did catch him saying something like they tend to double their doses, so I actually ended up with what some would consider a ‘regular’ dose anyways on the agreement (which I thought would be a far smaller dose effect than it actually was).
 
 
So….we walked to the teepee area inside their grounds and after a good smudge barefoot on the pebbles lifting one foot up and then the other to get the feet as well….we went inside the large teepee and then the male facilitator came over and they took a while helping her measure out the DMT pebblets with their digital scale micrometer (it sounds right to add ‘micrometer’ here) and then they prepared the second, larger dose of 10mg.
 
 
With this path and strategy, it allowed us to gauge way how I would react to it with my vestibular vertigo dynamic.
 
 
Now…although I wanted to set the stage properly because it was a major tribulation and crucible for me (this is MY journey and we each have our own trials and timing of trials on our paths); let’s get more towards the EXPERIENCE part of things.
 
 
First, I have to say an obvious disclaimer:
 
 
Anything I say cannot do justice to the ACTUAL, REAL LIVED EXPERIENCE itself. 
 
 
With that said however; I want to try to get ‘some’ of the context or conveyance across because it might be relevant for you; perhaps to seed ideas for the future and help determine if this sacrament is for you or not. Or maybe just to inspire you or be a good divertive read that signifies that ISN’T for me.
 
 
I’m not doing this ONLY for my Beloved, I knew I was also doing it for my clients and my future clients; ALL of them in being the BEST version of myself and someone they can look up to and can trust furthermore.
 
 
I’ll also add that I am a Grail Priest in devotional Sacred Union with great spiritual authority and Light-working experience.
 
 
This is not the same as a consumer tech-bro looking for trippy, distracting experiences (as I know there is a lot of judgment and projected crap around entheogens or psychedelics out there; a lot of misinformation from the non-experienced when actually this is the medicine that would wipe out their uninformed judgments).
 
 
Yeah but isn’t that judgmental to say that of them Rion? No; it’s an assessment that’s closer to truth. I’m speaking from the GIFT of judgment 😉 and with actual lived experience! 
 
 
Ok…as promised; let’s get to it more….5MeO-DMT was prepped and I even overlooked the fact that she placed it on the calfskin rug without something clean under it and put her fingers on the tip of it b/c I had more important things to be ready for.
 
 
They held great space; the facilitator and the Mexicana assistant on my left side. We did some breathing practice exercises as she instructed me in how to partake once she heated it up…
 
 
I would end with a long breath soaking it in without swallowing, a final sip and holding it and then lean back on the higher than average pillow support I intentionally set up.
 
 
Sitting there; I knew it was time. This is it. Let’s do it. I’m pre-committed because of my Beloved.
 
 
I had known and practiced what I was going to say for months;
 
 
“All for thee my Love. (Together)
whispered
 
 
…Am I a Son of God?”
 
 
I also said this when she was getting her lighter ready as I held the medicine to my heart to bless it with an intention.
 
 
My main intention here was Son of God reclamation and reunification with the Holy Father; the one beyond religion that had secularized my Beloved.
 
 
I had said the same thing “All for thee my Love” at The Crucible on Hallow’s even in 2019 in that private ayahuasca ceremony in Iquitos. Living devotion and Her divine will.
 
 
So with simple clarity; I found ways to speak-whisper those words before and again between some breaths before sipping it in.
 
 
I remember she said “Hold. Hold….Hold” as the assistant helped lean me back down and then I breathed it out.
 
 
Things instantly started opening up as my Presence and awareness just lightened up, expanded and rippled into and through multiple dimensions still geo-physically present yet connecting and connected to the Divine. To God.
 
 
All I could do was EXPERIENCE. And breathe.
 
 
Breath seemed to be the thing keeping the physical form of me alive and holding it all together, but it was like consciousness transcended that.
 
 
It was so astounding that the ego could not keep up with it whatsoever; I was transfixed in an experience of powerful unified frequencies.
 
 
Is this what death is like? (an afterthought now, not then).
 
 
As I was enraptured in powerful frequencies and full-body experience; Light itself was drenching my soma with Truth, Beauty and Love. This is some amazing stuff for purifying your light body and cellular system.
 
 
The only semblances of initial thoughts were ‘holy shit’, ‘whoah’, ‘WOW’…is this real?
 
 
You don’t have to worry about breathing if you do this; your body will do it automatically.
 
 
It was like I was in my own personal Milky Way and the facilitators seemed so far away.
 
 
I’d move my hands around a bit in disbelief and remember feeling just waves of endless expansion and ripples as I was connected in Unity with source; or at least these frequency bands of it. (Later I sensed that there are actually even higher source realms).
 
 
Unlike my 9 variable ayahuasca partaking ceremonies (which had usually been a mix of heaven and hell), this was all heaven but it was INTENSE.
 
 
You could say it is hell to any semblance of EGO however!
 
 
There weren’t any entities or angels in this session; it had a consistent theme of a unified experience.
 
 
I was actively experiencing different SIDDHIS but all as a unified field and Truth.
 
 
The ones that my soul was aware of that could make sense of in real time (b/c it obliterates your ego) were;
 
 
Boundlessness
 
Beauty (oh my God, BEAUTY!)
 
Beloved/Muse
 
God the Father (and beyond all religion)
 
Truth
 
Peace
 
Holy Mother
 
Communion
 
LOVE
 
 
But all as ONE.
 
 
This was different…when I had a heavenly experience during my 2nd ayahuasca ceremony on the Amazon (the best night of this lifetime thus far); I was experiencing specifically the 66th siddhi (I call it) of SERENITY. 
 
 
This was different here; a more intense unification.
 
 
I could only get out a few words of confirmation in spoken voice during it at different times:
 
 
“Wow!
(exhilarating catching my breath transfixed in the magical multi-dimensional wonder of things)
 
Beloved
 
Muse
 
Myujusin
 
Cao Guojiu
 
(Such) Beauty!
 
Father, Holy Father
 
Son of God”
 
 
I was so transfixed that I was trying to get a visual of a specific Muse but couldn’t; it was just that I was with Her and basking in SO much powerful Beauty where even the Masculine and Feminine were UNIFIED.
 
 
The first several minutes (in human time) were what would have been the most intense and then it became relatively more of a slow gradual fade that I could ‘work with’ a bit more.
 
 
I gave a blessing to my father and mother and their forebearers.
 
 
I thanked and blessed the Rose-Magdalene and Sophianic line and thanked the Holy Mother.
 
 
During what would have been around the 23 minutes of core session; I had sub-pranas of tears; tears of releasing, tears of being overwhelmed by Beauty and resonating with it in greater acceptance. 
 
 
Towards the end I had my trademark divine masculine Godly sighs and aahs. I actually recorded some while things were still active after they left the tent.
 
 
The Light-working that I did was so powerful directed at my chakras that I only did a second worth of time each.
 
 
I also had some real purging where I slowly leaned to the side; psychic purging (without much vom) as well as a scream of rage that didn’t have to be louder than it was and then shaking things out from my temple body that no longer belonged.
 
 
Of course your experience will be different but there may be some similarities; You feel it everywhere; this connection with God-source…throughout your entire body.
 
 
It’s a DIRECT experience; just BATHING the light-body, DNA and cellular body is such Truthful, powerful Beauty…experiencing it directly as your soul; as witnesser and experiencer.
 
 
And the fascinating thing was that the entire time there was no separation with God the father and me or Son of God. I think Jesus once said the words; “the Father and I are one”. That’s what this was.
 
 
(How much religious conditioning did I put up with?) 
 
 
HOW COULD I NOT BE A SON OF GOD?! (This just superceded ALL religious conditioning)
 
 
It seemed impossible being so unified in raw experience so palpably spiritual yet somatic and physical and emotional.
 
 
I was doing some more Lightworking to seal codes into certain chakras as well as strengthening my general hand chakras connection to Source.
 
 
It was such a beautiful experience that had such a wonderful ‘fade out’ where it was still active at the end but I could start talking more cohesively.
 
 
At some point I gave them each a wai/namaste which signaled they could start transitioning out of their roles. I was still awestruck and she brought over a notepad for me to write on but I knew I wouldn’t write anything (for days) on this one.
 
 
WOW! Of course any re-telling doesn’t do it justice however I did want to share SOMETHING to both document this legacy experience as well as share with others for different reasons.
 
 
So I don’t want to overlook the fact that (fortunately) it did NOT fuck with my vestibular disorder or mix negatively with it whatsoever (WHEWWWW….but I would have NEVER KNOWN had I not took the Russian Roulette style risk). 
 
 
SO I remember telling her ‘No…we’re good, that was PERFECT…no second dose (necessary)’…It was phenomenal.
 
 
Also it was time for her kambo client by then also but it just all worked out b/c that experience was IT plus it wasn’t SO strong that it would be blow me off of coming back for months; it was a beautiful and yet authentically powerful entry that inspired me to ABSOLUTELY come back and be working with this long-term.
 
 
(The medicine was still in my system for days later including now day 5).
 
 
After all; this IS the God molecule and it’s part of our bio-chemistry and divinity. It’s worth noting that EACH experience I or you would have is going to be DIFFERENT and whatever experience you have is invaluable and preserved no matter how shitty you or I are at translating it into writing.
 
 
The medicine itself is INTELLIGENT.
 
 
I came in as a Soul Warrior-Grail Priest and this medicine is a sacrament. Tech Bros looking for a ‘trip’ isn’t where I’m sourced from so maybe that will bring some relevance or weight to your consideration or reconsideration around the medicine b/c there is a lot of ignorance out there from the non-experienced who have all kinds of uninformed projections around it.
 
 
Look, I wanted to take a regular dose (at their double standards) but with my vertigo flared up, we found a win-win path.
 
 
In this case; it was perfect and the 2nd dose wasn’t necessary. Next, I’m called to regular dose bufo now that I have experience related with my vestibular dynamic.
 
 
It’s different than ayahuasca and much shorter instead of hours.
 
 
Maybe this share will be of
relevance if you’ve been facing a major tribulation yourself. New doors will open if you step forward and are committed.
 
 
It may even seed ideas and inspiration for partaking in the sacrament yourself. Those in Divine Union have even more reasoning to partake.
 
 
Kundalini + DMT is allowing me to FEEL again in body and in Spirit…things OTHERS have felt, but that which I haven’t for several reasons even though I’ve been the devotional one. My human design has been working against me in that sense but that’s an extended discussion.
 
 
Eventually I was ready to get up slowly and walk out of the tent, knowing that I did the right thing. It felt like I had won the war itself. How RICH and magical!
 
 
This was absolutely a thing the true Rion Kati would do and that his people would anticipate him do. I wouldn’t have done it without my devotion for Beloved however. It was more of a crucible than I personally wanted but it made it all the more GLORIOUS.
 
 
We each will have our own trials and tribulations; those of us on a true Spirit Warrior path.
 
 
As I walked forward; talked for half a minute with the guy who was in the lobby who had his legs in the pool and walked through their lobby getting a gift bag…then I walked my bike across the street and got on.
 
 
It was disappointing having to go into a public space around people at Chedraui to pick up the protein bin, cilantro, blueberries and a face moisturizer but wow….for DAYS it has still been working magic as I’ve post-processed, relapsed and integrated more SO beautifully and effectively…mixing WITH the re-activated kundalini as well. 
 
 
This alone has been invaluable and I’m on my highest timelines now; so much is powerfully integrating and opening up.
 
 
I came back and it felt like I had won the WAR ITSELF. I felt so SUCCESSFUL in spirit because these are the priceless things. I took it easy; ate 3 meals (b/c of the dieta) and had a powerful integration temple space session with Beloved, popcorn and good movie time afterwards just feeling like a (son of) god.
 
 
So besides the experience itself; my greatest takeaway was that I had *experienced* that the FATHER AND I WERE ONE.
 
 
How could I not be a S/son of God? Absolutely life-changing.
 
 
Now I’m looking forward to a ‘regular’ dose of Bufo, maybe late next month with the same active ingredient of…the God molecule; 5MeO-DMT.
 
 
Then I’ll be into stronger doses of this as well.
 
 
Thank you for reading!
 
 
All of it is related to my own Sacred Reunification as well as being more of who I am truly meant to be as in divine service to my clients as well.
 

This has been my experience+integration theme song

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