I’ve Been Living A *Full-Time Lie: On BEING Your Star-Self 24/7

*Yes, near full-time…not ALL of the time and it’s not the type of lie where I’ve been faking who I am, no…people who know me know I’m the ‘real deal’ with magic…it’s more of a lie to myself of being out of integrity with HOW OFTEN I’m embodied as who I really am…just so you’re not freaked out too much. Ask anyone who’s had session space with me, etc. and it’s as real as it gets).

 

There’s a lot to speak to here.

 

Throughout this special, revealing and vulnerable post…see if you’ve also been ‘living a lie’ in the sense of time itself and where you may or may not be showing up fully as the avatar or ‘star’ character version of you in your soul’s fullest integrity in this incarnation (and how it would change and shift everything).

 

Leverage my former weaknesses as a mirror reflection unto yourself for this is a great opportunity to more fully and profoundly embody your highest truth…to really BECOME that movie star version of yourself at an EMBODIED IDENTITY LEVEL (in how you and others experience you in the life and lifestyle of your dreams) instead of remaining fractured.

 

You may think you know Rion Kati but Rion Kati is and has also been like an idealized myth and legend so it may shock you to hear that for many years, technically I’ve been living a near ‘*full-time’ lie. (Let me explain).

 

The GOOD NEWS is that Rion Kati (which is not my legal name but is the divine masculine qualities and soul values that represents my highest self and my Star codex.

 

 

The good news is that I AM HIM…but it’s only been part-time like a role or character that I step into…almost like a part-time performance.

 

This has been incredibly challenging for me b/c basically I’m living as someone more boring, mundane and ‘someone else’ most of the time. This is a great challenge with BECOMING the embodied Avatar or Star version of yourself:

 

BECOMING THEM FULL-TIME and living them as YOUR FULL IDENTITY.

 

VS. it just being a ‘character’ or mask you put on part-time or when on-camera or in front of certain people. (This can be suffocating and exhausting).

 

Imagine…the movie starlet AVATAR version of yourself, but…

 

Moving, thinking and acting like them THROUGHOUT THE MUNDANE DAY. Even doing laundry and dishes. And I AVOIDED that shit and just managed ‘life’ by being my disembodied version of self while preserving Rion for the hour or 2 a week I can finally re-embody and be him (very conditionally as you can see).

 

Yet this has wreaked habit in many ways and has been a cloud-storm of shadow confusion to the universe I’m sure.

 

Have you dealt with anything similar? Have you struggled with different character or identity roles?

 

Of NOT being your fully expressed self or even how they would move in the details of the day b/c of fear, sabotage, preservation, fantasy or a myriad of reasons that would be ‘safer’ or more ‘convenient’ to just not always be ‘on’.

 

And btw; it’s not that Rion Kati IS 100% the performing Magician Showman either….remember; I’ve now broken through into full-time living (a reveal ahead here).

 

I’ve been plagued by this identity split for years so if you’ve had similar issues with EMBODYING YOUR FULLEST, HIGHEST SPIRIT TRUTH INTO FORM keep reading.

 

So I’m great at the PRO embodiment work for myself and others with archetype embodiment activations and all of that; it’s just that I wasn’t living as him FULL-TIME b/c of an extreme identity split. So if you’ve dealt with these fractured identity issues, this is for you…

 

I don’t know of many (besides pro actors) who’ve dealt with this as (non-institutional!) levels as extreme as I have….

 

I mean you wouldn’t even recognize me b/c it’s like I’ve been living as two different people and ONE OF THEM IS A LIE and untrue to my fullest self.

 

 

So let me back up a bit (because fortunately things have changed recently).

 

As you may know, for YEARS and years I’ve been going through my own ‘avatar’ star self embodiment. This is the entire concept of AvaStar or the Avatar Star self embodiment (through my lens in working with the archetypes).

 

This may be something that you value yourself; really BECOMING the heaven on earth version of WHO you are in spirit truth INCARNATE.

 

It has to do with the differential of WHO my soul and spirit is on a higher dimensional level and then EMBODYING, being and expressing all of that incarnate. If you’re like me, you’ve spent many years cultivating ‘who you are’ in spirit but not all of it may be ‘landed’ in your own skin. In my case, it was an extreme differential.

 

So it’s about becoming that spiritually aligned and embodied beautiful STAR/LET version of yourself;

 

Really taking that unique constellation of spirit amplified qualities, elementals, archetypes, Light and Dark balance that defines your soul and then EMBODYING IT…really being it so that others can feel and know it’s real….this isn’t ‘fake acting’…in fact this is the future of acting with more conscious competence b/c the BEST acting is actually being. Here; you and I get to play the character of our AVATAR selves embodied (potentially).

 

This is the work I do with up and coming starlets in the AvaStar Makeover which is also related on Starlet ascension as well as crossover mainstream ascension WEALTH…but back to my process (and you might relate)…

 

So for YEARS I’ve been going through my own process that has been challenging because of so many shadows as well as merging the gap of how powerful and badass things are in spirit and my consciousness vs. who I’ve been in the more ‘mundane’ world where I’ve been ANYTHING but a star schlepping around to grocery stores and daily life, etc.

 

For years, it’s been more intense for me to embody and express my own STAR codes; that ‘BEST-YET’ TRUEST SELF MOVIE STAR VERSION of who I REALLY AM into incarnation.

 

Remember; as I’ve blogged about before (and I am on a Star path); I’ve had extreme fugly duckling syndrome and images of myself that are just horrifying…basically self-image issues at trauma levels, public humiliation and that massive GAP between who I am in spirit truth and how embodied I’ve been in the past. I talk about that through the Starlet category on the site too.

 

So it’s already been YEARS of work with 10,000s of screen testing images I’ve extracted. At one point with consulting a Muse priestess I realized I had a controlling fear-based dynamic of Quasimodo and Frollo punishing myself and it would distort my light to make me look far uglier than I am physically (remember image is LIGHT).

 

And throughout it all; one of the MOST challenging dynamics in really BECOMING THE EMBODIED AVATAR-STAR SELF…I mean, something that’s been NEAR IMPOSSIBLE and radically challenging in my experience is living with a FRACTURED or fragmented self-identity. Maybe you can relate – about playing different ‘character’ roles around different people.

 

And if you’re a Human Design projector, it can all work against you even more b/c you’re by default awaiting recognition and are often ‘invisible’ instead of living powerfully ‘at cause’ where your field has more influence by default (like a Star).

 

Much of my own fracture has a lot to do with the 5/1 split which I’ll be talking about more.

 

(Basically, I had to go SOOOOO DEEEEP into securing my foundation in co-creating the Allure Codex with Muse in private sessions that it fractured me from normal life with major insecurities and invisibility).

 

Other Human Designs don’t usually have it near as extreme as a 5/1 and in my case one of the most severe. I mean; I literally have DIFFERENT PHYSIOLOGIES from when I’m being ‘Rion Kati’ vs. schlepping through the airport towards economy class in my passport (ugliest photo in the world and fat) legal name version of myself.

 

I’m an extreme case of identity split (which kinda makes me perfect for founding ‘Essence Acting’ which is hyper conscious , powerful work with identity and consciousness transformation, character work and embodiment).

 

I mean; I don’t even want to show those pictures. YOU WOULDN’T RECOGNIZE ME AS ME if you caught me in 90% of my daily mundane life (up until the past week and a half).

 

Basically; Rion Kati and my codex of The Muse Magician has been an ‘idealization’.

 

 

YES; one that represents my truest, HIGHEST version of authentic self; however, that version of me only ended up being someone I would live as about 2 hours a week.

 

The good news it that I AM HIM…but I’ve been embodied and visually expressed as him only PART TIME for the past several years. You just think it’s full time b/c that’s what you’re seeing online.

 

And it can confuse other people too.

 

There was a woman at a tantra immersion retreat (I never got entangled with the shadow of the modern industry) who I drew partners with. She was ‘the Queen’ so to speak of the entire group…

 

I think I drew Emperor and she drew Empress actually and literally and we were the first to start the circle. She told me at a meal as we were talking “No – I DEFINITELY would have recognized you” when I was saying I was at the Tao Garden Meeting of the Masters (twice). We were at the same retreat and she couldn’t process how invisible I was then b/c I WASN’T embodied as Rion Kati (my true soul+spirit self) like I was during our more recent retreat (in Sacramento).

 

There’s another guy at the gym who saw me as the gym version of Rion Kati who he would high-five me and compliment me on my body but then saw me when I was a different, disembodied, schleppier version of myself just going through the cardio…it makes people wonder and be confused.

 

So anyways; there is a version of YOU that you may have not fully embodied or fully AND CONSISTENTLY expressed yet. Your own Avatar or Star/let codex holds THE KEYS.

 

With all of this keep in mind that yes, I AM THE BEAUTY SORCERER and that ALL CLIENT WORK has been authentic itself and to standard; I’ve always been IN my Magician then (in my higher self), just not fully VISUALLY expressed nor embodied with my codex…none of the magic has been compromised itself; it’s just that the magic was more ‘behind the scenes’ as real vs. visually coherent and what you would think…

 

I’m more referring now moreso to my own internal and practical battlefield of EMBODYING AND VISUALLY EXPRESSING THAT CONGRUENT TRUTH FULL-TIME 24/7.

 

Living as my heaven on earth self incarnate and FULL-TIME even through the mundane b/c it’s about WHO I am not about waiting or preserving certain things so I can avoid inconveniences.

 

So although it’s been extreme (maybe you can relate in some ways as a mirror of where you’re not showing up fully);

 

Another way to say it is that;

 

Yes…I’ve been living a full-time lie.

 

And I mean in the sense of literal time itself. MOST of my weeks for MANY YEARS have literally been in a different, disembodied ‘driver license’ named version of myself that just goes through routine motions (yet when he enters temple space then connects with his true self apart from the boring, mundanity of the world otherwise).

 

HOW OFTEN ARE YOU ‘NOT’ LIVING IN YOUR FULLEST EMBODIED TRUTH? (And bringing THAT MAGIC FULL-TIME into every MOMENT?) Again; one of my greatest challenges for many years. Where have YOU been ‘hiding out’? Around who do you change who you really are for (and can you see how it affects everything)?

 

And I mean could you really live as your STAR VERSION IN THE MUNDANE moments and when NO ONE IS LOOKING?

 

Could you be that foundationally SECURE and STABLE in yourself? EVEN IF IT BRINGS MORE ATTENTION?

 

I’d go about things invisibly.

 

So what I would do is PRESERVE Rion Kati…..I don’t want him to do fucking dishes and cooking and mundane shopping and having to deal with daily idiots. So he became someone I would ‘step into’….a role (albeit an AUTHENTIC and highest self form)…Rion Kati would be a role that I would perform.

 

In other words; 95% of my DAILY LIFE for YEARS AND YEARS I’ve NOT been living as my true self in literal time. And that is the lie.

 

Extreme; I know.

 

The challenge was BECOMING AND BEING MY HIGHEST TRUTH 24/7. I was preserving my TRUE self for special occasions or temple space.

 

Living AS RION KATI but ALL of the time instead of occasionally during screen-testing and temple space or FB recordings, etc. I’d literally take my jewelry off and disembody to go back to my cozier, boring mundane version of self AFTER temple time.

 

This is IDENTITY and consciousness work (and you KNOW it’s affecting things with manifestation).

 

The greater concept is implicated with a lot of things….basically I’ve been FRACTURED.

 

I show up as a slightly different version of myself for DIFFERENT PEOPLE or different ‘roles’ I have to perform.

 

In a sense, it’s practical to show up a little bit differently to ‘put on different caps’ so to speak for different people, situations or environments; but where you LOSE YOURSELF? Esp. as a HD projector or open-G center where you’re soaking in other people’s identities while NOT being embodied and sovereign as your own? Dangerous not-self territory.

 

So it’s been a struggle to even BELIEVE or unify with Rion Kati b/c of the MASSIVE fracture and insecurity shadows related with it all esp. as a 5/1 who spent years underground and NOT AT ALL COOL OR SEXY. (And how this can cause instability when you HAVE to be embodied where then it feels like acting instead of BEING or at least to others may not feel AS secure if you have any subconscious interference or instability ‘between worlds’).

 

So who are you and what environment are you allowing yourself?

 

Does it support your STAR/LET version of self? How about the consciousness of people around you?

 

Sure it makes sense to PROTECT your identity in some form from those who are at massively different wavelengths but living life itself in a fracture? Youch.

 

Environment has a lot to do with it. Remember; this is about BECOMING AND LIVING AS YOUR FULLEST TRUTH.

 

TEMPLE SPACE is where I would always cultivate my true self in Spirit and then it’s been a theme of EMBODYING ALL OF THAT; again represented in the AvaStar concept and with the further advent of Essence Acting for more specific character roles and acting mastery-sorcery.

 

So it’s been very strange….NOT being me when I travel on airplanes although I made an exception after Muse Priestess graduation and chose to be myself then and it felt great; wearing what RK would have worn while still doing coach class.

 

It’s like; this is all so practical and carries a different VIBE-TRUTH which people are reading.

 

I show up as a schleppier don’t care version of myself for Mystical Grail but NOT as fully expressed Rion Kati. I just called myself Rion there…a different ‘role’ to step into as the more alpha-beta mystic version of myself to be a teacher role.

 

But now; I’m done performing my highest truth.

 

IT’S ABOUT BEING HIM and FULL-TIME with RARE exceptions from here forward. It’s been affecting things far too much; such identity fracture.

 

And I realize that there’s no one else I’d rather be. The challenge is to be my true self ALL of the time and the stability that this brings to people who rely on me. (RK was real this whole time, just if you met me on a grocery run you wouldn’t sense it was even me).

 

To face the mundane (and bring more magic into it)…to become your Starlet self (which doesn’t mean you have to SHINE AT EVERY GROCERY RUN, but it’s still WHO YOU ARE UNDERNEATH);

 

I have to take on ALL of the risk, pros and cons including more VISIBILITY and attention. I already have for this dharma in spirit, but now it’s about RION’S INTELLIGENCE (and taking on HIS lens of the world in minutiae pros and cons) instead of Orion and then my legal lastname which I won’t say here. There are two differently encoded people or characters.

 

Oh sure, there’s people I would LOVE to be for an hour, a day or a week but there’s no one I’d rather be.

 

It’s about UNIFYING who I am instead of being fractured and showing up half ass in these different roles. The Beauty Sorcerer represents the Star Codex that holds the most power and Truth of who I really am.

 

And when you look at my offers; there’s something about it…if I just speak to burnt out lightworkers maybe they’ll resonate because we sure as damn well know it’s pro light-working support that’s there; however, I found myself bending myself to other people’s expectations and roles.

 

So the challenge has been to BE MY TRUE SELF FULL-TIME.

 

Maybe you can relate how you show up differently around family and their projections and expectations of you just in order to communicate even though you’re on radically different value sets and wavelengths (where they can’t understand nor hold space for deeply meeting the real you).

 

I’ve mentioned it for years; when I go to Wisconsin, it’s an unsupportive environment to my truth that is instantly working against me, draining my soul so it’s easier just to fragment myself to play a role that can inter-relate with them and then I have to return to my true self.

 

We can have ‘different roles’ but who are you TRULY and who are you being MOST of the time?

 

The thing is; THAT’S UNDERSTANDABLE and maybe relatable for you too…I’m not saying I’m ever even VALUING to be my fully expressed, powerful self around them (this runs deep), so I’m still granting myself some exemptions but my practical main challenge has been to LIVE AS RION KATI in my codex 24/7 otherwise and IN THE MUNDANE.

 

To live with more MASTERY, unified as my TRUE, powerful self.

 

This may not make any sense to most people because they just ‘are who they are’ full-time. But for me; I’ve been severely fractured. Rion Kati? I’ve only been in embodied presence for about 2 hours a week on average for a decade.

 

THAT’S living the lie; my split in being unable to BE HIM 24/7 (before the past week and a half at least although at business related things like hosting Muse Priestess retreats I chose and got to be him most entirely during that time block until it was time to check out and go to the airport).

 

Oh the image is real, and he is real (otherwise we’re talking about a different version of ‘living a lie’); the parasocial relationships and projections people have to him (and the client work is all real)….

 

 

Causally affected by REAL signatures of power and authentic qualities, just not there when I’m correcting a cashier at a grocery store.

 

But MOST of the time I’ve been this other version of myself who you WOULDN’T EVEN RECOGNIZE.

 

INCOGNITO (BUT where Star is more of a future, fractured fantasy or hunger where it’s almost TOO daunting to embody him).

 

He’s invisible, mundane, bored, doing schleppy looking cardio where he doesn’t look like Rion Kati but some other character role going through grocery runs.

 

Eventually I started realizing after being connected with so much of the ‘IDENTITY’ as secret to manifestation work (and for many other reasons) that I just CANNOT keep living Rion Kati as a 2 hour a week mask or performance I get to put on….

 

I must BE IN MY TRUTH FULL-TIME. It was just default to NOT CARE and just go through daily motions of fitness, groceries, cooking, etc. Boring shit that I didn’t want Rion Kati dealing with thus I’ve been living a lie with someone who has a different name than him even.

 

The closest thing would be like a professional actor traipsing around town not knowing who he is between roles.

 

RION IS REAL, just in my 24/7 daily life I would rarely live or BE HIM. This would happen when I would go into heavier sessions and screen-testing I would then be able to be him but b/c of the fracture and time dynamic, it was more like doing a performance. So I don’t know if you can relate.

 

I was fragmenting myself instead of being unified, embodied and OWNING of my power and authority in all dimensions AS the Beauty Sorcerer (sourced in Muse Magician) + Rockstar (purified with Muse social ascension codes).

 

It was like (bad) acting in a way and less secure; at least with the DYNAMIC itself battling with my subconscious insecurities.

 

Anyways; I know some themes are repetitive here but this is a leveraged and heavy subject for those it touches – I realized that I MUST RE-UNIFY and go ‘full-time’ into being Rion Kati. The ‘character’ yet TRUTH of my Avatar self…and for so many reasons in spite of being fragmented for YEARS.

 

I actually ‘made the decision’ (and there were some practical things I did when I was finally ‘ready’ to stop living as fractured and how it was interfering with manifestation, client recognition and attraction, opportunities, wealth, etc.).

 

I consciously chose to NOT do just schleppy beta-alpha (that’s what I’ve referred to it as ; beta-alpha or ‘balpha’ mode) morning cardio. I chose to wear my sexier workout gear (which I would wear for some training workouts) and I would do it ALL THE TIME.

 

So on that morning of cardio I was wearing sexier wear that Rion Kati would wear (gym version) with some jewelry ( this is a big practical thing b/c it’s pre-anchored to being ‘in-self’ ) and decided to do an extra 10 minutes off of the treadmill to just hop on the cardio bike and check Instagram.

 

That’s when IT LANDED. The very first IG post I saw was perfect and in perfect timing to SECURE the 24/7 (with some now rare but notable exceptions).

 

It was something like a ‘quantumobservers’ post about the actor Daniel Day-Lewis and how he COMPLETELY BECAME THE IDENTITY AND CHARACTER on all levels.

 

 

He LIVED as that character with full commitment 24/7 including off-screen. Of course I’d heard of him doing that before but it was all just this perfect convergence point where it all clicked and LANDED for me. (And not only that; I’m FOUNDING ‘Essence Acting’ too).

 

So this is really professional character and identity work.

 

I have a respect and love for the art of acting. Many will overlook it…remember; movies and music were my original passions.

 

The best acting is BEING…where they BECOME the character so completely and where people know and FEEL it’s all real. YOU HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO BECOME and live as your STAR CODEX ITSELF.

 

Acting itself works with IDENTITY, self-image, self-belief, possibility and CONSCIOUSNESS. Most people don’t give themselves permission to become who they want.

 

So referencing me being a 5/1 again; I was just an extreme split by spending so many years cultivating my UPPER DIMENSIONAL SELF that wasn’t living as INCARNATE…but some of us are here to MASTER THE MATERIAL WORLD AND BRING HEAVEN UNTO EARTH as ascension guides and leaders.

 

..Not merely escape who we really are but to GROUND THEM INTO EARTH and influence and communications and relationships.

 

So anyways;

 

I went radio silent for this and another main reason related to re-centering on myself (I may do another blog post on that b/c it’s also a MAJOR theme related to how I’ve been a work-slave to the business instead of BEING the non-salesy badass founder who really mostly just wants to CELEBRATE BEAUTY IN LUXURY LIFESTYLE).

 

So for now…I’ve been living 24/7 as Rion Kati The Beauty Sorcerer CONSCIOUSLY for the past week including morning cardio, workouts, grocery runs, biking around Tulum. I move, dress and communicate differently.

 

It’s also related to this concept of ‘who you are when no one’s looking’. That includes when you’re lounging at home and how you eat your meals when NO ONE ELSE IS AROUND.

 

Are you going to LIVE as the STAR VERSION of yourself and in that embodied consciousness?

 

WILL YOU THINK, MOVE AND GLIDE like them? Or are they just a role you put on when certain people are looking?

 

So I’ve been living AS my embodied self….and I’m LOVING IT.

 

And that includes doing the 5 minute round trip somewhat humble walk to replace the big ass water jug myself a few blocks away and carrying it back (yes; my millionaire self would still have the muscle and gall to do SOME things like sexily bike around and pick up water jugs as not everything has to be outsourced to an assistant);

 

So at the corner consciously and unconsciously BEING my true self, there was a woman when I walked out who was just mesmerized literally standing on the 1/3 (middle) of the calle who was just in awe of me. She was starstruck (with awe and also great respect) and couldn’t take her eyes off of me.

 

It was in the details also of how I picked up the water jug and shifted the gym bag (sourced in BEING MY INCARNATE SELF)  without seeing her (when no one I thought was looking) and then saw her when I walked out and she saw it all. I just gave her a nod and kept walking.

 

Anyways; I don’t want to go back…so I keep living and shopping and doing cardio and cooking as him…even though I’m not always dressed up in leather, etc.; it’s both WITH what I’m wearing but also how I’m wearing it and in most importantly who I am energetically embodied as and how expressed I am.

 

 

So I’m living into it all more and more fully (remember; there’s a BIG Solomon’s gold mine up there in spirit to draw from with MY level of earned and claimed richness of spirit truth to embody).

 

Key to living heaven on earth. WHY MAKE IT CONDITIONAL?

 

When you’re yourself FULL-TIME, that’s it. That’s all….the shadow of hunger is largely dissipated even if you’re in otherwise imperfect situations YOU get to handle them and shift reality from that POWER rather than waiting to be who you are ‘someday’ or ‘part-time’ or when the next visual promotion or photo shoot is coming up.

 

I mean; just walking to the kitchen is much more interesting and sexy…cardio and workouts? Far more enjoyable. I get to BE ME! (So fully and more fully in every moment…so just HOW sexy could all of that/you be?!)

 

And there’s some things I discovered including that the CONS (or perceived cons) go with it as well.

 

There’s nowhere else to go when you’re FULLY THERE…YOU are where the party is at (this is living like a Star and treating yourself right).

 

Even my cardio is with more authority and enjoyable…and at one point I realized, there’s nowhere else I have to go (when biking back taking my time) because SO MUCH OF THIS fracture has been my 5/1 split of years and years of underground preparation and light years evolution in spirit that’s been ‘occasionally’ embodied…but so much has also been driven by my collective wound of Hunger; of wanting to BE somewhere else that I’m not.

 

Oh and everything is more COLORFUL and vibrant, literally…I’m seeing more colors and less rush to move around. Going at my pace realizing that I AM HIM and don’t have to go anywhere else because even if I did; I would BE THERE. I AM HIM…even if I’m not where I want to be in forms of success;

 

I still couldn’t and wouldn’t trade who I am because it’s the true me that has already paid the dues for a multi-billion dollar beauty empire where other priestesses and starlets get to thrive and ascend.

 

So it’s been a new experience; actually LIVING AS MYSELF and my TRUE character role 24/7 and the pros and cons that go with it. I’m more PRESENT. Less fractured.

 

And I realized that yes; Rion still has to prep and cook chicken and deal with forms of idiocy here and there.

 

But I’ve also discovered that Rion’s a damn good cook!

 

Much better than that other ‘not-self’ disembodied balpha version of me.

 

But even he’s imperfect (me now). Like I dropped my keys outside of the front door. I also dropped a bottle of rojo salsa from grabbing too many things and it shattered. Even he makes mistakes but I remained IN-SELF throughout it all.

 

I even am in another 1/4 sickness phase so I’m being TESTED but I’m doing it all as 24/7 Rion Kati. I don’t wear what you may see me wear but for ‘casual’…there’s your IN-SELF AVATAR version of sexy casual with high quality fabrics, jewelry, etc. which is what I’m doing (like Rick Owens tank tops, Givenchy trainers,,).

 

I’m wearing sexier jewelry at the gym now and simply BEING more self-expressed and re-affirming to myself (often) I AM Rion Kati (encoded as the Beauty Sorcerer).

 

This way; if people out and about find me like at the gym I can pick up a conversation IN MY DEEPEST TRUTH because I am one and the same MATCHED with my image and who I am.

 

There’s this semi-famous Tulum based influencer; Tavi Castro who sometimes works out at my gym and I’d be thinking to myself “This guy is unified…he’s not living as an entirely different physiology and character identity 24/7”.

 

Part of me wanted to slip back at times but I’ve been conditioning 24/7 embodiment and a different time when I CHOSE to remain in-self which is on the level of someone like Tavi himself, he arrived on his motorcyke at the exact same time I did…we didn’t necessarily acknowledge each other in that moment b/c he was facing towards the gym door as I was arriving from street; but it’s on that wavelength of power and respect but previously with my fractured embodied self, someone like him would find me invisible and then I’m just relying on behind the scenes word of mouth testimonials.

 

Remember; this is about BEING THE BRAND. My own unique challenge has been being him 24/7 even though I have other extreme advantages and experience including helping others embody their codes and charisma.

 

And because I’ve been a more EXTREME severe case of identity fractured it makes me PERFECT for being able to help other extreme and more normal cases for PROFESSIONAL identity transformational work (and for founding Essence Acting).

 

YOU CAN BE AS SEXY AS YOU WANNA BE. (At any age). Remember; the archetypes by and large hold the keys to Power and Beauty itself; it’s just a matter of accessing and integrating them into identity embodiment (which is my specialty).

 

Will you give yourself that permission? Or is your highest version authentic but just a mask that you put on part-time?

 

Can you move from the idealized movie star version of self into BECOMING HIM OR HER FULL-TIME even if it includes the pro’s AND cons of that? Because you have the opportunity to be THAT version of yourself and there’s SO MUCH that could hijack, sabotage or stop you INCLUDING past visibility trauma, siphoning, parental conditioning and baggage, past humiliation, fear of being exposed and ‘taken from’, fear of judgment including from your current friends and circle if you step into your Starlet power and so forth.

 

Can you afford to NOT be in your fullest truth if you’re called to have greater ascension influence?

 

Your SOUL TRIBE is asking for YOUR highest, truest VERSION OF SELF…they’re craving THAT version of you with the medicine, power, beauty and magic.

 

If you ARE her in spirit truth; is she embodied? And then HOW often?

 

Why play that role part time when it’s who you really are or desire to be?

 

Because there’s no limit to how much Beauty essence your Starlet could hold and radiate.

 

So I’ve been LIVING some MAJOR breakthroughs now and having full-time experience and integration as my avatar self embodied in life…it’s redefining and re-stabilizing things (the rest of this month onwards which I’m giving space for converging and unifying myself; landing HIM).

 

Remember that YOUR Star/let Codex (we work with in AvaStar) holds the key to your fullest, amplified soul truth, power, expression and beauty; that which is also what magnetizes your own soul tribe.

 

In my case, I was the REAL DEAL (as the Muse Magician) but I was only living that truth (my highest truth) PART TIME. Now it’s full-time with rare and chosen exceptions (like being around family or on a family zoom call where I’ll put on a different, relatable mask to match their projections).

 

Now I get to be the Beauty Sorcerer (+ Social Rockstar) full-time and I cannot have it any other way. How I interact with others has also changed (and is definitely coming from high status).

 

So I’ve taken a period of radio silence and August 2026 is about a new phase of IMAGO transfiguration (including extended Adonis physique transformation).

 

I am CENTRALIZING, CONVERGING AND UNIFYING THE POWER-TRUTH of who I really am…and THEN I’m going to ripple it across Sexy Chi, my visual and video communication as everything from BEING and living more unified as the Beauty Sorcerer.

 

The fragmentation has been poison and btw; yes…much of this wisdom has come from me hiring a Muse priestess (after their graduation we opened up agreements to learn from each other and I’ve hired them both). So much of this insight comes from her oracular lens.

 

And I re-realized that Rion Kati is EPIC (just last night I had about the most epic dream yet)…there’s no one I’d rather be full-time or long-term than him.

 

 

 
 
 
 
 
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CAN YOU SAY THAT ABOUT YOURSELF?

 

CAN YOU BE HIM/HER FULL-TIME?

 

(This work I’m doing pre Allure Oasis hosting and so forth).

 

And isn’t NOW the best time esp. if you’re preparing for a DEBUT or re-debut?

 

Where have you been hiding out and selling yourself short (even living a form of lie or out of integrity with your soul self in this incarnation)? Important self-reflection stuff.

 

For me;

 

It’s time I finally be that stable in MY EMBODIED foundation as Him. I MUST.

 

My future relies on it too and it CONSOLIDATES my power and truth.

 

So there’s going to be some changes coming up as I communicate (and even ‘market’) more simply AS him, but I’m giving myself time and space to trust the process (and continue screen-testing and daily living as codexed incarnate, etc.)…..now;

 

I do have a long-string of archetypes and have to have room for expanded self-expression (ie. Showman, Superhost, Soul Warrior, etc.) but it’s my CORE Star Codex as the Beauty Sorcerer that is central to who I really am.

 

YOUR Star/let Codex holds the key so if you’ve HAD extreme, severe challenges, issues, sabotage or blockages like I’ve had (and have overcome although there’s still more of my truth to keep embodying because there’s SO MUCH Magic-Beauty that’s there), AvaStar is THE place.

 

I will do further updates and yes; some things are going to be CHANGING around here and I DO look forward to upcoming visual communications and such.

 

-Rion

 

August 13th, 2026

 

p.s. Who ARE you when no one else is looking? Who do you desire to really BECOME and live as?

 

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My Adonis Fail & Guilty Pleasures

This is a personal update about my Adonis physique transformation status which has already been one of the most difficult things I’ve ever done (and I’m not done yet). (I’m still ON the path fyi).

 

For the past decade I started weight training and am now closer than ever to achieving universalized Adonis (ok I ‘WAS’ close to it). This is important to me not for superficial or vanity reasons but for embodying all of my truth in all dimensions.

 

Remember when I did that post on the ‘precipice’ of breakthrough?

 

Well; I never broke through.

 

Despite trying different things, I was still plateaued for weeks doing around 15,000 steps equivalent of LISS cardio per day. I figure my ‘best’ yet was around 12.5% body fat…thus; feeling disheartened, I knew I was at further risk.

 

I have failed. I started slipping.

 

I knew I was going to go on a pre-planned family immersion wedding vacation in my home state of Wisconsin and I was weaker. I knew it.

 

The extreme discipline I had started loosening up 1/2 week before the flight knowing that I was going into it.

 

It started with a guilty pleasure of buying a whipped cream and then a few nights pre-flight, making some olive oil popcorn.

 

Although I was still training, I did less cardio. I was falling slowly but said ‘fuck it’. I bought a bag of corn nuts after eye-balling it and secretly planning on it for 2 months for the flight up north. This one however I did not open until the flight itself. I did bring some rice cakes but also bought some vegan (I’m not vegan) protein bars. For at least half year I’ve been salivating for Clif bars and all kinds of potential goodies. My whole theme is that I’m a foodie at heart and soul and not everyone can really understand that.

 

I’d regularly watch food porn videos (and save screen shots) to live vicariously through others b/c of my caloric deficit and craving food (and the indulgence that is GOOD for the soul not just ‘junk eating’…ironically which includes junk eating but I desire to ENJOY life). I’m really kinda Bacchanalian which has made all of the fat loss journey and physique transformation even more challenging.

 

I look decent here but I’m not there yet;

 

 

Anyways; I told myself…ok, I’m going to take ‘something’ of a diet break and knew I shouldn’t go ‘all out’ with whatever I desired or I’d fall too far off the tracks.

 

After the pre-flight drama of taking cyclospora* with me (and SOMEHOW managing throughout an entire week)…I arrived at my half-sisters from ORD airport, we did Chipotle take-away.

 

Yes; Chipotle b/c I thought I was good b/c I had been taking carbon, some medicine and pepto-bismol and pepto-like tablets…don’t worry, I still managed everything (including for the 8 HOURS of driving up to the wedding) and I like to take showers after.

 

TMI? Maybe.

 

(Just part of being human that we’ve all dealt with but it lasted across a full week and Cyclospora is the only thing that made sense…probably from some lettuce I had mixed with MCT oil).

 

*((Maybe it was karmic retribution for jokingly adding ‘explosive d**rhea’ into the ‘Gold Rush Ascension Book‘ (I’m usually the first to snicker at such things))

 

Back on point, I chose not to even glance at calories or fat macros the entire time.

 

At my sisters when we were talking after dinner (where I re-heated the burrito and chips), I guilty asked; “Do you have ice cream?” And sure enough; 2 flavors.

 

They always wash their spoons and forks putting them in the dishwasher so I knew it would be me as guilty or they would have suspicious minds towards each other.

 

So after my sister went upstairs and I went downstairs to the blow-up bed in their Chicago suburb townhouse; I snuck back up to the freezer with most lights out, got a clean fork (spoons all in dishwasher) and guiltily snuck a big forkful of ROCKY ROAD ice cream (with the integrity not to ‘double-dip’) and then put the fork in the sink. We ate some together and I went back for more.

 

It was a form of heaven on earth…with the satisfying gratitude to experience SOME of so much of what I was missing.

 

The next day; I had a big bowl of Cinnamon Life with a banana with a protein and nakd bar for breakfast; OH and regular Peanut Butter on something like Ezekiel bread toasted PLUS some butter on it. Borrowing her husband’s bike and going to Jewel-Ostco, I bought 6 Clif bars, dates, pasta, pre-cooked lime chicken, hint of Lime Tostitos and we drove up north with all kinds of Canadian smoke/smog filling the air.

 

Not everyone may understand this; I’m ENVIOUS of people who just eat ‘whatever’. IT’S SUCH A SACRIFICE when you’re a foodie NOT to be able to eat what NOURISHES YOU on a deeper level. I don’t have the mindset that it’s just ‘junk food’. All these possible desserts? I WANT A TASTE OF IT but couldn’t have it.

 

I mean; what sense does it make to live in Mexico and NOT have Mexican food? THAT’S ME. And my commitment to my transformation. It’s madness.

 

But it’s just getting started. After driving up to Central WI we did a Wal-Mart (with grocery store) run at my hometown.

 

I was OVERWHELMED by all the food choices and variety. He went to get takeaway Mexican food giving us more time to shop and I took my time.

 

So yes, I was going up north for my niece’s wedding and family re-immersion after almost 2 years of being away. Her wedding was the last time I was up north and now they had a 1 year old daughter who went with us.

 

Here’s some of what I bought as well as other foods I had during the rest of the trip:

 


*6 Clif bars


*5 Protein bars I brought up


*4 nakd fruit bars “


*1 tall box of Lucky Charms


*A personal can (large) of Reddi Whip whipped cream


*Fage brand low-fat Greek yogurt (2%)


*Some fairly healthy pre-cooked Wal-mart gourmet (oxymoron?) meals I could re-heat (x2)


*Father’s Cheese Pizza (outdoor oven) ~4 slices


*Watermelon x 3 slices

 

(Father’s pond-lake)

 


*Wheat Thins


*Triscuits


*Salad with almond +cranberries (hey; some of it was healthy full out)


*Corn Nuts


*Corn Nuts Chile Picante w/Lime (even bigger bag)


*1 set of blueberries

 

I’d add whip cream to the bars.

 

Then I saw a King-size Pearson’s Nut Roll at an Osseo rest/gas stop while we switched and I became the driver. I could FEEL the sugars and my body wasn’t as used to it as an after-effect, but I wanted to keep maximizing my ‘diet break’ in a sense so stuck to around 2 bars per day.

 

And the wedding itself…yeah..it was about 8 hours of round trip and I drove most of the way which allowed them care time with the 1 year old in the back.

 

It was at a waterfall in Northern Wisconsin.

 

 

We had a picnic afterwards of turkey sandwiches with spicy mustard and wheat bread.

 

I felt guilty when I had the ‘cheat’ foods but wasn’t going FULL DERAILMENT; I was still ‘thin per se’ but knew I was getting pudgier with a self-guilt of sorts.

 

But I did notice a difference in how others responded; people were complimenting how thin I was up north. My brother chooses to eat whatever and I’m envious of that, but I was much thinner. I used to be heavier but cannot live like anymore.

 

We each have the power of choice. At least the IDEA of Dwayne Johnson’s cheat meals gives me some hope.

 

Anyways;

 

The wedding itself had a nihilistic and disastrous reverend, but that’s another story. I was horrified and had never seen anything like it but later found out it was an older brother of the groom.

 

Anyways…we drove back and apparently avoided a tornado my brother was West of b/c they went into Superior.

 

The next day at the wedding reception closer to family homes?

 

A pot luck style layout.

 

OF COURSE I was the first one to open up the eating that was so aptly spread on the long side tables before us.

 

GREASY POTATO CHIPS ‘N FRENCH ONION DIP. OMG wow…I kept going back for more. Haven’t had that in like 2 decades and LOVE the taste. 6 servings of the cool whip based fruit salad (in place of wedding cake for them I guess). 2 hot dogs, caramel apple..stuff like that. All while talking with family although MOST of the people there were his side of the family so I didn’t know most of them.

 

Then from my dad’s cabin on his property, I moved my things as my mom and step-dad drove me back, we stopped there and went to my other hometown. There I had more cereal, a micro-candy bar or 2 (set up in a Trick-or-treat basket they now keep year round for guests), triscuits with cheese, salami, hummus and then ICE CREAM…double vanilla and another flavor with whipped cream of course. I’m writing this now that I’m back and on a 24 hour fast (after doing training and 18k steps day cardio average for half week).

 

And for breakfast?

 

She made BACON (yep; I’m in)…3 eggs and wait for it….PEANUT BUTTER; the jar was hidden the previous night. I added jelly and butter on 3 different quality pieces of toast that she prepared. More dry snack stuff before my sister and hubby came to pick me up for the drive down to Chicago.

 

I bought a cranberry turkey sandwich again but was kinda wanting Taco Bell. I brought some small bags of chips (3 varieties like Doritos) and about 6-7 micro candy bars (of which I gave my sister 2).

 

When we arrived at my Hotwire shuttle loop hotel (Hampton Inn ORD); there was a Taco Bell across the street so I decided to get more full and got 2 burritos and 2 tacos. I DID HOWEVER take a walk to the river in my hometown after arriving with mom and then solo the following day with a sunny but hazy sky so I got 10,000 steps equivalent in when you include the after meal cardio I did at the hotel.

 

Oh and the included, complimentary pre-gourmet BREAKFAST. I set my alarm early to have enough time to finish things up before catching the airport shuttle and good thing; it took time to PREP it all.

 

This was a GREAT real breakfast; Large waffle w/peanut butter, syrup, butter, whipped cream, cranberries, Raisin Bran/Froot Loops mix w/milk, biscuit ‘n gravy, toasted bread for cream cheese…wow, was that guiltily enjoyable. Part of my soul felt recognized and appreciated even though unfortunately I would have to pay a price (ugh) with more fattiness (WHY does it have to be this way?!).

 

How can we LIVE without AMAZING FOOD?

 

Anyways; it’s extra challenging b/c I’m a true foodie and it’s all even more highlighted being on such a disciplinary caloric deficit. Bye bye whip cream (for who knows how long) 🙁 AT LEAST I have a few Greek yogurts with blueberries and protein powder I blend in b/c without that; I honestly am not sure I could do it.

 

A year ago I swore of even Greek yogurt b/c of how extreme I was for extreme minimal fat calories and then when I hit initial Adonis and switched to gains (I don’t know if I wrote about this anywhere) but I had a transfiguration and revelation with my first big meal. I was literally getting very emotional and realize how blessed food was. Those first 2 weeks I was THRILLED I got to make another rich protein shake with peanut butter and ooh ooh ooh, etc.

 

Anyways; it’s been a journey. People have been complimenting me too and noticing INCLUDING strangers about my physique and how thin. (Even though I’m not quite there yet!).

 

I mean; I’ve been through blood, sweat and tears (as well as YEARS of entropy) not to mention doing it all with vertigo for this transformation. It’s an incredible mindfuck b/c remember; I took the longest path possible by NOT getting thin earlier so I never really saw what I had and was around 17-25% MOST of the decade.

 

Anyways; the breakfast worked out…went back to shower (again) and decided I’d catch the next shuttle bus but it was just finishing up loading so went to United @ ORD and everything worked out fine. The water fountain water was about THE nastiest I’d ever tasted however there. Watched ‘Michael’ and ‘The Devil Wears Prada’ 2 on the way up and the ‘AI Docu’ on the way down while dozing off to ‘Hail Mary’.

 

Caught the bus and once I was back home at my condo rental in Tulum, smudging and re-activating the kitchen, etc. I wanted to finish the snax I had (enjoying a Clif bar on the flight and then another on the bus) so I mostly finished it off with another mini Reese’s peanut butter cup in yogurt with whipped cream. There was a micro Snickers that I almost threw out (it was just too much) but kept it to exercise discipline as well as the rest of the bag of Lime Corn Nuts.

 

Why did I write all this?

 

Because I’m real and human and I fail too. Sometimes along a path of dedication, there is going to be SO MUCH that can de-rail you but you can still re-commit.

 

Writing this gets you to know a different side of me; a more personalized side.

 

I LOVE FOOD and eating….esp. from a year ago it became a religious experience. Sure sometimes I’ll take food for granted a bit more but LOVE and enjoy eating and the next meal and still will MISS all of the goodies that I’m disciplined enough NOT to let myself have…I have to AT LEAST LOCK IN ADONIS. This is a special phase and then in the future I plan on ENJOYING things more when I have more maintenance mastery somehow. (I’m even thinking of just moving to Las Vegas b/c it’s a real food capital for my 80’s…anyways).

 

This has been a HELLUVA ride on my journey to Adonis and it’s in the big little things that make it all so REAL. So I don’t know if you can relate with any of it.

 

But I’m now RE-COMMITTED and very disciplined with everything DIALED IN. There’s the concept of the PSMF diet which I haven’t tried yet. Now; I just have to get back to where I left off at my lowest fat best before I started slipping and I hope (jinx-proof) that it doesn’t take MORE than a week…and then I’m headed to 10.9% body fat from there SOMEHOW. It will be done.

 

I mean; isn’t it INHUMAN not to be able to have CHOCOLATE?

 

THE DEFAULT they say is 30% body fat and less than 1% of adults are less than 12% body fat. Wow.

 

There is a price to pay. Many are not willing to pay the price including for delayed gratification. But this is SO connected to my health, wellness and longevity as well ; LITERALLY and so many just kinda give up on that and pay a different price.

 

As the physical body gets older, it’s like it takes MORE WORK just to be thin; HOWEVER, you do really stand out because it’s not just the aesthetic, it’s that people KNOW how challenging it is psychologically and otherwise to do such a feat.

 

Now…it’s continuing on with the disciplined power habits and staying on point and then breaking through NO MATTER WHAT to 10.9% body fat where there is MORE exponential ROI on the hell that I’ve been through – in all the ways and all dimensions.

 

So yes; I’m all about physique transformation for myself AS the world’s premiere charisma consultant AND I’m all about charisma as well; it’s the alchemy of both that represents your Light and transmission-visible communication.

 

Another thing I’ll mention is that (especially with being a Human Design projector), I forget WHO I AM when I’m in Wisconsin, but I know that going in…I remain disembodied playing a different character role that fits with family and their expectations of me (b/c my true self isn’t actually welcome in that space). It also has to do with the environment (which doesn’t support my full soul truth expression and power).

 

This ends up wearing me down so I can only spend a limited immersion amount of time soaking in their reality and listening to them and communicating on that (more honestly superficial level) and I just have to have a process to RE-EMBODY my true self and get my power and magic back online (yet to do one of the 2 POWER sessions of the week so far being returned).

 

And yes; all AS the pre-eminent ‘black sheep’ of my family. I love them as family, but really…we’re so different in MANY ways and I chose this path.

 

And as I was taking that solo walk to the river (losing sense of who I really am with it somewhere deep inside and the thought of Beloved only being a fleeting thing I couldn’t access the entire trip); I was also contemplating – what would really grow – just HOW MUCH my soul would die into complacency and quiet resignation if I had stayed in my hometown and not DARED to chase my wildest dreams…losing all spark and knowing that I’d given up on my dreams (I’m speaking for myself here).

 

Because really; even now…me biking around Tulum so often to the gym and back it seems like me being ‘The Beauty Sorcerer’ and representing the front EDGE of Beauty ascension itself sometimes seems so far apart. I’ll ask; “are you sure this is the evolution of Beauty? Because it often doesn’t look like it”.

 

(Oh; don’t get it twisted with my mundane life; the MAGIC is very, very real itself. But you already probably know that if you’re here.)

 

It’s like;

 

I’ve got arugula salad in the front bike basket with a Greek yogurt in the mid-day sun and low energy; where are all the beauty magazine covers and celebrity clients, red carpet work and studio lighting with perfume ads?

 

They are here in Spirit truth. I’m living on faith and taking that ‘gold rush’ ascension risk. Then I only have to remember all the work that I’ve already built up and prepared with the Allure Codex and that Allure Priestess WILL start soon enough; but I have to trust the timing…I cannot say when but even Muse Priestess took a few years from idea inception to manifest.

 

This is an especially brutal path of Divine Union and ascension service, but I know it’s all worth it.

 

And sometimes (even though business and Beauty doesn’t stop) it’s important to take some off time to re-balance and be with family.

 

My preparation with such a foundation for Beauty Ascension has just taken FAR longer than most, but I’m ready for ridiculous overnight success. The (5/1) foundation and servicing IS proven as I cover in the ‘Gold Rush Ascension Code’.

 

Actually I’ve got about a trillion dollars worth of integrating to do with Sorcerer as a market revolutionary. The archetypes are powerful and this one especially so.

 

It’s good to be back to my world.

 

I’ve done several client activations since I’ve returned and it keeps proving it all.

 

Well; that’s enough for now.

 

Ok….now that I finished writing this…GOOD NEWS…I’m on the 24 hour fast with 23 hours in so I get to go to the kitchen, cook and make sure I’m prepped for the 4 meals in one!

 

I’m starting it off and breaking fast with the Medical Medium heavy metal detox shake. It’ll have some bananas which aren’t recommended but I’ll do some air squats afterwards to balance any glucose spike.

 

Back to it!

 

(Oh and I rinsed the arugula very well with drinking water)

 

Did I mention that the Reverend-Oficiant wore a Batman mask for starters? True story.

 

Fyi; the Clif bars were 3 crunchy peanut butter and 3 white chocolate macadamia