My 2nd Time W/Bufo: 5MeO-DMT

Beauty Essence Blog Meditation Rion Kati

Ahh….bufo! (Like “Ahh, Venice…”).

 

 

Ahh….bufo! (Like “Ahh, Venice…”).

 

 

 

 


But that’s not how I always felt about it.

 


Yes, within the last week I had returned for a second ceremony of bufo @ Maya Tulum with my referral (through a client of mine). It was clear I was called to it and it was an obvious ‘next step’.

 


((BTW; I wrote about my first ever, recent bufo experience here on the blog ))

 

 

 

After doing ‘The Crucible’ with a most powerful shaman in the Amazon basin in a private ceremony in a loft in downtown Iquitos after being an underwhelming ayahuasca experience on the Amazon (I felt more for beginners), it had been about 6 months after and I was called to do bufo.

 


This was in spring 2020 and I was going to come down from Playa del Carmen to the Bufo Alvarius Sanctuary in Tulum…I started doing some research but then my vestibular issue (which I called ascension vertigo then) flared up and it created all kinds of additional anxiety around ‘doing bufo’.

 


Bufo of course being the 5 MeO-DMT experience with the Sonoran desert toad which carries this God molecule in its bufo-toxins (do these toads ever lick each other out there?)

 


So what happened is that I built up anxiety, trepidation and authentic forms of FEAR around it for 5.5 years before I went in during my God Molecule crucible which I wrote about on the blog here. We ended up doing straight 5MeO-DMT (which I didn’t really know about at all until I was talking with them) instead of bufo then while we were consulting around my vestibular issue which they said they hadn’t known anyone who had it who ever did this sacrament.

 


It was more accurate to get the dosage amount because bufo dosage was more variable (and unreliable), so I first had direct 5MeO-DMT ( a very strong 7 mg).

 


After that, I did get to finally doing bufo which I also wrote about on the blog but basically my 2nd experience here was what I thought my first experience would be like and my first 5MeO-DMT experience was what I thought the next (3rd) bufo experience would be like.

 


NOW? I don’t have anxiety around it…in fact, I LOOK FORWARD to continuing to work with it. Yes; we’re basically talking the ~most powerful psychotropic known to mankind.

 


Bufo has alkaloids that help rejuvenate cellular repair and growth neurologically and many other benefits in addition to being a host of The God Molecule itself.

 


“5-MeO-DMT, also known as 5-methoxy-N,N-dimethyltryptamine, as well as O-methylbufotenin or mebufotenin, is an atypical psychedelic drug, entheogen, and alkaloid of the tryptamine and 5-methoxytryptamine families.[8][1][5][2] It is found naturally in a wide variety of plant species, and is also secreted by the glands of at least one toad species, the Colorado River toad (Incilius alvarius, formerly Bufo alvarius).[8] It may occur naturally in humans as well.” -Wikipedia

 


For years; I lived with this anxious trepidation around the idea of it…like a dragon that had to be slayed.

 


There was something VERY REAL (at least in my subjective experience or ‘false evidence appearing real’) about the ‘terror barrier’.

 


It was a large and vast ‘unknown’…even AFTER doing regular 5MeO-DMT b/c I still didn’t know what to anticipate (remember I thought it was going to be even more powerful at the same dosage; not that it isn’t powerful, but they’re each their own medicine with different ‘ranges’ so to speak).

 


Granted, I had a legitimate health concern that AMPLIFIED my concerns, but it was finally time to ‘face them’ as a Soul Warrior and I found my own way with these sessions to become initiated and dissolve any terror barriers.

 


I overcame most of that and officially with my first bufo session but there was still more to be initiated INTO to really have the more integrated and priceless levels of Warriorship that would be relevant to other areas of living powerfully in-self with.

 


I’ve mentioned before, not everyone is called to it, but there is something authentic to not overlook about where in your life you may be ‘hiding out’ from things with terror barriers that you KNOW you are supposed to break through with (for some it could be facing the Beauty or Power of their Beloved and the threat of their own unworthiness so they keep living in denial).

 


Like; I’m not called to ibogaine (iboga) yet or ever. That’s just not my battle but I’ve gone through the battles and tribulations (many) that I knew I was supposed to. So where might you be compromising on something you know that YOU should be doing?

 


So yeah; back to our storyline…and similar to my previous experience with bufo; again the math didn’t really add up. I’m getting a little ahead of myself so let me digress…

 


So yeah; it was another lovely beach weathery day as I biked down with less anxiety….as I arrived and took off my sandals with a little concern of the light dirtiness on my feet (I may have to foot mop the floor with some bounty towels later) she had the ceremonial space set up in the yoga shala in a different area facing more southerly.

 


Relevant accoutrement, incense and altar area.

 


I was more grounded and embodied and less anxious than before until we moved into ceremony prep…I felt some good, healthy normal anxiety knowing it was going to be an experience (and stronger than last time) yet with a bit more confidence about how my system (still healing in harvest) reacts to it.

 


Actually I wasn’t as light-headed this time going in (things were relatively ‘normalized’) so that helped also yet still; holding the o-pipe with the medicine to my heart I felt that mix of excited, activated-ness with maybe 18% anxiety but otherwise prepared.

 


It was still a risk because of my vestibular issue that others don’t have to worry about.

 


But again; I knew I was called to it (for and with Beloved) and before I left I had called upon my Hero and Warrior into embodiment and guides to be with me throughout…even if there was ‘some’ remaining form of anxiety like before going into battle in the prescient moments before partaking; it was to do the right thing anyways.

 


You’ve either done bufo or you haven’t.

 


B/c remember; there are people who will jump out of perfectly good airplanes (oh; hey I’ve done that too..ok just 1 airplane so far) who wouldn’t dare touch this medicine.

 


We had talked also for 1/2 hour before me booking this one on zoom audio. This time I had for sure wanted to go stronger.

 


She was planning for me to do the full ‘starter’ breakthrough dose of 70mg (at once instead of split)…and I was like let’s talk about that (that was too light for me)…

 


I was previously planning and actually already thinking 100mg just to ensure a stronger experience (or even more than that like 125mg) but she felt 100mg should be the maximum for now and prepared it. It felt good knowing that she didn’t want to go further so that is our topline for now and what’s meant to be.

 


So I had the entire rug and sarong spread-set to myself with 2 pillows that I tested ahead of time (this is important to me).

 


And then sitting up we had the 100mg dose prepared…I was getting more used to things by now so she lit it and I did my best to inhale as much as I could (telling her beforehand I can’t hold my breath as long as normal b/c it can threaten my vestibular condition and put me in a danger zone)…there was a little bit of confusion if I was doing it correctly but I inhaled and held as much as I can and she promised to start counting faster this time instead of the big delay.

 


I think I made it to around 5 before I had to exhale and then leaned back.

 


Similar to last time, it was a gentle but obvious gradient into ‘the zone’; this time more significant of course. The ego was less active and it was generally an egoless zone.

 


Going into it I already sensed that it still might not be as strong as the 5MeO-DMT but that it didn’t have to be; eventually I would get there with bufo…that’s what made me enjoy this more.

 


It’s an obvious but magical zone of Unity that I was getting more used to and enjoying…again; quite gentle and manageable…with the ego subdued it allows you to experience more directly as your soul so it’s very purifying including alchemically as it works though the system.

 


It’s not like I blasted out; I was still there; I guess ‘in body’ but it’s just a different experience more directly connected to the divine where higher frequencies are saturating your energy field.

 


I did some lightworking during it but there was no specific theme…I whispered key codes again like ‘Beloved’ (of course I said ‘all for thee my Love, together’ at the start).

 


I also said “I AM….multi-orgasmic, multi-millionaire”…it’s basically a siddhic experience directly.

 


The ego being present enough to guide with key codes…there wasn’t too much releasing this time but there was some that I helped to support…at one point I could feel the medicine landing more and affecting my cellular body in the legs, reviving them (this medicine healed a previous facilitator from some weird leg injury btw).

 


The whole experience lasted I dunno around 13 human minutes with an obvious but manageable ‘fade-in’ and then it stayed kinda strong in a very slow gradient ‘fade-out’.

 


(I don’t know why more people don’t do this more often!). So it was very beautiful and I just accepted that it didn’t have to be my strongest experience with it (those are indeed yet to come) but that everything was working out perfectly with my intention of this being a 2nd initiation and bridge transition into long-term with the medicine.

 


It’s so beautiful and I guess it’s not normal for people to work with it as often as I’m going to but I just have a hardcore darshana and dharma.

 


I’m still going to see what it’s like with stronger future dosages to compare to a parallel with 5MeO-DMT while also fully respecting this medicine and my growing legacy with it.

 


After what seemed like the end of the experience-ceremony, it was a little bit jarring how vibrationally from where I was ; but she offered me another dose to go deeper. I had zero resistance to this and felt it was a really good idea if she’s offering. (She was concerned I didn’t fully properly inhale).

 


The number 60mg came to mind for a follow-up dose so she prepared that and then gave me re-calibration on how BEST to partake with some extra coaching.

 


See; the sanctuary facilitator lady ~3 months ago gave me perfect instructions thoroughly before and this medicine woman, she had instructed me and figured I was a little more experienced than I was but I’m still getting used to it…

 


I do remember last time she calibrated me between doses to do the faster inhale but with all that was going on this time I just didn’t remember.

 


I didn’t feel any shame or guilt towards myself (we still ended up with the original 70mg worth SHE intended at least!); I was breathing it in too slow but unknowingly.

 


She ‘could have’ reminded me pro-actively before to do the faster quicker inhale or it collects up before this first dose; BUT it was a micro-learning lesson for both of us.

 


I think it was really meant to be because even she said something to the likes of ‘whatever is meant to be is meant to be’ AND I was fully trusting my guides and her.

 


So then I followed her more precise instructions and calibration and actually was able to hold my breath the proper amount WITH the faster inhale to straw-suck it all in and then cover my mouth and she said ‘perfect’. (NOW, I REALLY have it down and won’t have to be reminded again).

 


Her concern was that I hadn’t taken the full 100mg initially, which is why she offered it in good hopes of wanting me to have a fuller experience (and value even though I was ok with things). So yes; I felt great about a 2nd dose.

 


And afterwards, because I did the 2nd dose of 60mg perfectly; I was able to gauge that the first dose was still a bit stronger so even though it was 100mg I at least took in 70mg worth+60mg. So technically, I’ve taken bufo 4 times!

 


In both these 2 doses, I reached a point of egolessness with only occasional hints of egoic thought which reminded me to ‘let go’ and ‘trust the fullness’ of whatever this is meant to be without expectation (and KNOWING that it still wasn’t as strong as the smaller 7mg direct or of future doses I’ll partake with bufo AND in knowing it still has that kind of power; we just have to calibrate the dosages to me)

 


In the experience, she had supportive music was playing (it wasn’t Saturday Night Fever’) but it’s like it fades away and in this format at least I’m hardly aware of it…It’s just this gorgeous pure state of egolessness.

 


Bufo ironically is and has been VERY GENTLE with me (so far at least); which is ironic in part because my experience with 5MeO-DMT synthetic (bio-identical) was the experience other people (like Mike Tyson) were saying they had with bufo.

 


I guess with more experience (and some different sources) and I will figure out more into why.

 


I know that I’m a powerful soul (and now with Son of God reclaimed); but even I had to kinda ‘ease’ into bufo to play it relatively safer with my still healing vestibular dynamic (so I’m glad the 5MeO-DMT was what it was)….again the math doesn’t add up but I’m ok with that. I had 3x the equivalent DMT this time vs. the first with DMT and that was *still* 3x stronger.

 


Go figure. But I respect each as their OWN unique medicine…they don’t have to directly compare whatsoever.

 


Also; one guy said he had done 5MeO-DMT and bufo at the Alvarius Sanctuary within 2 weeks and he said they were basically the same. Hmm…I didn’t partake both there but my experience is that there are similarities but they aren’t the same. When I do reach similar breakthrough dosage with bufo, then I’ll know more.

 


All of this can help YOU discern if and when you may be called to bufo – at least its on your radar now. She was saying there’s only been about 1 million doses total ever done like this. There’s actually no indigenous tradition of people doing it either; it came about within mere decades of discovery and usage.

 


So…I wasn’t only thinking about the numbers then; I was trusting the experience and am more active with it now in retrospect but again;

 


How I could have partook with only 7mg of bio-identical 5MeO-DMT (light to regular dose range) and how that blew me to outer space and my corner of the cosmos and how on the 2nd experience of bufo here (technically 160mg and equivalent of 2.4x the DMT would still be gentler than the 7mg?

 


I dunno….we both talked and figured it had to do with my tolerance b/c when I took 5MeO I hadn’t had DMT since ayahuasca 6 years earlier. SO BE AWARE that YOUR experience may not be anything like what mine is. Even the sourcing of the toad can be different…hers may not be the 15% DMT ratio…it might actually be 6%, we don’t know (but it’s amaZing natural medicine!).

 


That’s also why I’m going over the numbers so much because others DON’T and this helps my SUPPORTIVE ego tune in along with my intuition and guides to help me make the right shot calls AS moving into things with faith.

 


Ironically I shared some of this information and a client of mine decided it WASN’T his timing for DMT even with the advice that he could request a lower dose to start and have them prepare a follow-on dose (taking that advice could help you shave YEARS off of your potential initiation with DMT btw).

 


Anyways; I can refer her to you if you’re serious about things in Tulum.

 


Her source is very pure, attuned and hand-selected on the property she has or has access to (for the milking). Somehow I’m thinking that other sources of bufo may be more potent or something but I don’t mind at all; I just have to take a larger amount to reach breakthrough range dose (remember I’m kinda large too around 100 kg + with an enormous temple body space).

 


I think what’s understated still is how much I LOVE the medicine and how much I’m meant to KEEP working with it semi=actively and long-term….to ME, ‘her’ medicine (sourced) is very GENTLE and pure.

 


This is a beautiful thing. It wasn’t like the freight train experience that I first had with 5MeO-DMT…this makes it very friendly to experiment around with higher doses (relatively) safely, etc. which I would work up to.

 


My valuation for this session was to be open to whatever healing but most importantly it was to build a BRIDGE as a 2nd initiation into working with bufo for the LONG-TERM. Again; DMT (a.k.a. ‘The God Molecule’ is VERY Muse line friendly).

 


My greatest takeaway from this one was really that this was like a FRIENDSHIP BRIDGE and transition into working with bufo/DMT far more often than 6 years apart.

 


And all of a sudden I’ve done bufo 4 times already with more experiences already planned and I’ve got a lot of work to do with both micro-dosing AND breakthrough doses.

 


Remember that 5MeO-DMT is more like the ‘oneness with Source’ experience and N,N DMT which is what is in ayahuasca (with MAO inhibitors so it lasts a lot longer); this brings more VISIONARY experiences (like I literally WAS the jaguar striding through the jungle palms within 3 minutes during the Crucible, I WAS the thunderbird soaring above mountains, being IN an astral swamp, etc.).

 


It seems 5MeO is far less likely to be open to astral interference and entities which can happen a lot with ayahuasca but that can be part of the experience and journey (people criticize it but you just really have to know how to CLEAN THINGS UP afterwards).

 


Critical to be aware of is NOT to partake bufo (which lasts around 23 minutes) in tandem with MAO inhibitors (like ayahuasca or changa). Bufo and direct 5MeO-DMT doesn’t have the MAOI effect on the neuro-transmitters so it lasts much faster…she said there’s only been like 3 documented deaths with bufo and 1 of those was when someone did ayahuasca followed-up by bufo b/c the MAOI’s were still in their system. That is DANGEROUS and could be lethal.

 


This is all UNOFFICIAL, off the record advice (along with my experience) and you are responsible for your own research, decisions and consequences; I (and my source) are fully held harmless from any claims; but she also said that smoking changa for example (which is becoming more popular as a form of smokable DMT); you wouldn’t have to wait as long as two weeks b/c that MAOI doesn’t stay in the system nearly as long as when ingested with ayahuasca.

 


I think it’s very important to have experienced facilitators with the medicine and temple space to guide YOU and initiate you like I’ve done, even if you have a lot of spiritual experience like I do.

 


Ok….most importantly from here, I look forward to more extensive use with THE GOD MOLECULE itself. It allows me to be more in my true self, power and purity to get a lot of progressive heart, soul and consciousness work done while also receiving experience, blessings, saturation and codes.

 


I know it’s a key to my greater Heart Awakening as well as clearing up my ‘window to the soul’ and love channel circulation.

 

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Bufo: My First Experience: 5MeO-DMT

Beauty Essence Blog Meditation Rion Kati

Ok…on Saturday Nov. 8th, 2025 I did bufo for the first time. In order to cover this properly I have to allow myself to write freely like before.

 

If you end up slightly disappointed b/c this wasn’t a ‘beam me up Scotty’ episode, you’ll understand WHY and that there’s simply less to talk about experience-wise for numerous reasons.

 

This could actually be insightful to you if you’re considering it for yourself or ways to ‘ease’ into this or something similar that you’ve built up great fear around (b/c I had it for this actively for 4 1/2 years!).

 

There are numerous dynamics with this and you yourself might be interested in knowing the nuances of things that people don’t talk about otherwise which can help you to assess if/when bufo might be right for you (consult your Grail Magi).

 

When I did 5 MEO-DMT for the first time directly (the synthetic but I prefer ‘bio-identical’ version) which I wrote about on the blog here

 

…It had been almost 6 years since I did any form of DMT. My ‘The Crucible’ (which should be written about in the blog here) was in Iquitos with a very powerful shaman in a private ceremony with a female friend of mine (I was her translator).

 

It was an intense 3 hours itself plus after-basking when he left. It was so traumatizing in a good way that it kept me off of ayahuasca or DMT for YEARS afterwards…that’s what I didn’t want happening with Bufo.

 

Ayahuasca was the last time before 5MEO so now that I have more experience, I also had new questions that arose; which I’ll get to…I wanted to play it a bit safer this time if 7mg was THAT intense last time.

 

When I did 5MEO at the Bufo Alvarius sanctuary, it basically BLEW ME AWAY…shot me right up to GOD connection and Unity which I wrote about.

 

That was my version of Mike Tyson’s grand breakthrough as well with DMT (bufo though). It ended up being risky but a perfect session with no regrets.

 

I’m bringing this up because doing bufo the first time was a very different experience. I was definitely called to it and wanting to do BOTH.

 

My overall intention with the work of this session was to ease into it at a lighter to regular dosage so that I can be initiated but to have a long-term working relationship also because there was a re-activation of my ascension vertigo vestibular issue 1/2 week before bufo (just like what happened before 5MEO directly).

 

I was going for a regular dose but then chose to go lighter b/c of concern of the vestibular problem b/c bufo is different than direct 5MEO.

 

Bufo; the poisonous toad indigenous to Sonoran desert and parts of the SW U.S. includes 5MEO-DMT as well as other alkaloids all as bufo-toxin (that’s what I wanted to just play it safer with while also being mindful it could help heal things but I just wanted to start a working relationship; I didn’t want to get BLOWN OUT OF things for 1/2 year).

 

 

For bufo the dosage vs. direct is around 10-15% as pure 5MeO-DMT…so I had 7 MG of 5MoO-DMT before although I hadn’t done DMT for 5.7 years before….so an equivalent dosage of bufo would be like 65 mg.

 

So; on the day of…yes I had ‘some’ anxiety; even though I’m experienced but moreso again b/c of my light-headed re-activated vestibular issue and not knowing how it would respond and other general excited/anxiousness a bit…it’s difficult to explain for people who haven’t lived with it for years to have a real idea of it.

 

So b/c it re-activated to make it more of a trial for me again and yes; I wanted to go even lighter of a dose to KNOW more how it reacts to me before going heavier. I mean heck; this 7mg with the other alkaloids could be STRONGER than what I did before so I’m thinking maybe 4mg worth.

 

I was seeing signs like ’40’ literally so that felt like a good starter dose and then we could just add more to go deeper and strengthen it. My valuation here?

 

LONG-TERM b/c of the clarity to continue working with DMT. I was also being safe b/c I thought the effect would be the same as how strong the direct 7 mg of 5meo was.

 

So…that noon-ish…I had two client sessions; a kundalini and dan tien activation (on zoom but is actually ‘remote’ energy work) and then had to go right away to bicycle down to the main Tulum beachfront at Maya Tulum…so around 24 minutes bike ride.

 

 

Locked my bike upfront and then walked in and towards the area and saw her walking towards me (I can send referral if you’re called to it).

 

She had a whole spacious yoga shala reserved just for us where they usually do other classes with a temple area set up for us with rug-blanket, temple accoutrement and so forth.

 

This was my first time meeting her in person through a referral…we talked about my situation and she had prepared 70mg for me initially but I made it clear that I had to have authority over the dosage and she was fine with that….we both agreed to the starter and then back-up plan like they had offered before and that she had done for other clients.

 

Anyways; there was space for me to settle in and relatively relax and then she gave some instructions around how we would do it although not as thorough as last time.

 

She lit the pipe and knew how to breathe, it’s just that I can’t hold my breath super long without threatening an already activated light-headedness to cross over into further light-headedness and potential danger.

 

So we decided on 38mg and give it up to 10 minutes and I could request another dose…basically what happened was after inhaling and holding for 5 seconds then she started counting slowly 1, …..2…and I not only had to let it out around her 6 but I swallowed some of it so it left a stinging sensation in the throat on down a bit…then I layed back and I realized…wow, this is actually really gentle, pure but also a very light dose…

 

 

I gave things 7 minutes and then requested 38mg which in my head which did have some thought and ego then, I got the math wrong but that’s actually what I wanted (I thought it was 28).

 

It was basically like a strong microdose of something similar…gentle and pleasant but nothing like before.

 

I remember Tony Robbins talking about bufo I think to Joe Rogan and he said he had to take another dose or 2 b/c it wasn’t strong enough; to me before this I was just thinking; yeah he just has a REALLY strong ego (which he does but it’s in service), but now I was thinking…oh maybe it was a similar dynamic…I want to know their dosage amounts (Mike Tyson also).

 

Anyways; what I didn’t tell you yet but I told her is that I’d been micro-vaping mimosa (N,N DMT) and also had some changa (which you aren’t supposed to use close to this at all but it was micro micro like 1/2 week earlier b/c it has MAOI).

 

So anyways; she prepared the 38mg dose (so 70 mg total which I’m told is a solid regular dose) as I sat up a bit in silence and then partook of that…then it felt closer to what I had before but honestly it still felt like 1/6th the power…however don’t YOU dare be disappointed…BUFO HAS THE POWER. I know it does and I knew it then.

 

It’s just that this experience was meant to be more of that INITIAL relationship building starter point for me b/c I do plan on working with it often and we/you can ALWAYS go stronger with dosage (that’s what I’d call a good problem) and it’s where I wanted to be.

 

We tested that (jinxproof) this WAS safe to my vestibular (still healing in harvest) situation even with the toxins…I just had to do heavier dosage and all at once instead of spread out.

 

I LEFT SATISFIED…it was a GENTLE experience that I don’t have to much to write about but it’s b/c I’m viewing and valuing the BIGGER PICTURE of starting a long-term working relationship that I was ok with it.

 

By splitting the dosage it had also weakened it but it was also my relative immunity or what’s the term; tolerance TO DMT that was also part of the equation. That also helped her to understand it when we had our follow-up call.

 

I biked back and felt good but didn’t have any of those enviable relapses whatsoever. BUT THIS IS GOOD…It’s all the real deal and I had nothing else to prove to myself being my own hero through what I’ve already gone through (The Crucible and 5MEO-DMT as its own crucible)….

 

So really; the main takeaway I had was actually around the FEAR dynamic itself.

 

I had let it in some ways kinda terrify me for 5 years; the ‘unknown’…I may have mentioned before that in 2020 I was planning to come down to the Sanctuary to experience bufo but then my vestibular issue flared up with dizzy light-headedness and that COMPOUNDED my anxiety all up around bufo…it was this larger ‘fear’ zone’ (this was after I’d done The Crucible).

 

So it was essentially years of this ‘fear barrier’ with solid anxiety around it (amplified b/c of the legitimate health issue where there was no research on anyone who had anything like I did ever doing bufo or DMT)…and I realized that yes, I had become my own Hero by doing all of this.

 

THAT FEAR DISSIPATION was a MAJOR relief and strengthens my Soul Warrior even more. What chances are you NOT taking WHEN YOU KNOW its what you should do? Where are you letting fear stop you? Even from ‘being seen’ (and now I’m ‘post-debut)?

 

So, there isn’t much I’d write or would say about the actual experience for THIS time other than the dynamics and logistics I’m referring to. I WENT THROUGH THE TRIAL ANYWAYS.

 

And I found a way in. 5MEO-DMT was its own crucible for me. This was gentler and ironically, it’s bufo that others are secretly terrified of more but I had an inverse experience but for reasons listed above.

 

The anxieties are largely dissipated around it all (however it’s still temple grade warrior shit)…so here’s the deal; I’m GOING BACK FOR ROUND 2. It’s double splenic approved and it’s meant to be.

 

But one final thing is that for all that’s sacred but I’d use another word b/c the word sacred is sacred to me; anyway…I just COULD NOT FIGURE OUT THE MATH.

 

The math was impossible…there’s no way I did the same 7 mg when 5MEO-DMT was 7x stronger to my system. Even if I did the 70mg at once instead of 9 minutes apart, there’s no way it was as strong as the 7mg of direct DMT.

 

So just HOW MUCH of a difference does it make to not ever do it before or have 5.7 years off vs. micro-dosing ahead of time?

 

Anyways; We both figured that was some of what affected it and I wasn’t dissatisfied OR questioning of her quality either; that’s why I’m returning b/c she gets them directly and the medicine is PURE whereas there is more risk with other suppliers, etc.

 

I think it’ll be less of a freight train even at stronger doses but yes, I WILL do a write-up on my 2nd experience and post that to the blog also. I don’t fit within the typical psychonaut profile; I’m Grail Magi and have my reasons for taking the most powerful psychotropics with are sacraments and Way-showers.

 

Anyways; I won’t say the MG range that I’m planning to go in for but I want a similar overall experience to my first DMT one…just that it’ll be stronger than before, but NOW I’m really ready for the medicine and what it has to give me. Oh AND (esp. with my health concerns although jinxproof there are still risks); I have much less concern or anxiety about this; it’s more like…an in-self busy week, 6 out of 6 siddhic kundalini awakening Elixir sessions with mostly Light Muse as that continues to stabilize as siddhic hieros gamos, etc. and…ok, yeah I’ll bike on down to do bufo Wednesday-ish kinda thing.

 

But I’m living it…I’m really doing it: SOME OF THE SHIT I WAS SCARED OF THE MOST. Through the wall, on the ‘other side’ and that’s going to pay off in all kinds of ways (did I mention I’m post-debut now on Instagram?)

 

It requires a strong soul or spirit warrior/ess to do bufo, ayahuasca or 5MEO-DMT…YES, the sources and experiences can vary…ayahuasca was VERY different (although some similar things) with the different shamans I had. As I get more overall experience with bufo, etc. though I may share.

 

This medicine is lesser known but it’s going to gain in popularity (both of them) basically as the most powerful psychotropics out there.

 

I will have more to say as far as experience-wise I think on the UPCOMING Bufo post…so if it’s underwhelming here, at least it might get you thinking about bufo if ever.

 

Even in my circle I don’t know more than 1/2 dozen who’ve done it yet. I had a male client do ayahuasca and a form of DMT (mostly inspired by me I guess) and there’s something to be said about knowing these dynamics AND not getting too caught up in your head when it’s time to really PARTAKE ITSELF…then trusting in the medicine.

 

I don’t have problems surrendering like some people do, it was just a far less intense experience so that I did find myself thinking about let’s do a follow-on dose and thinking I had the math right (it felt right and was), but then dropping back into more the silence of the semi-familiar DMT experience (remember that we inherently HAVE DMT in our system as the GOD MOLECULE that can otherwise be difficult to practically access in any effectual amount).

 

Ok…look forward to other blog posts and I will definitely do a write-up on my upcoming 2nd bufo experience! (I’ve done ayahuasca 9 times; all in Peru on 2 different trips).

 

We’ll see if it’s as dynamic as I get into other possible sources of bufo and DMT as well; how much it varies, etc. (that is for the record if I’m allegedly doing what I’m doing)

 

-Rion

 

p.s. It really makes you wonder how Source/God gave us reminders of RECONNECT and the great Truty-Mystery itself of Self discovery in the oddest of places on earth…in our bodies and only PARTICULAR or semi-rare species of plants and sub-species of a desert frog and so forth…fascinating!

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The God Molecule: Rion, 5MeO-DMT & Russian Roulette

Beauty Essence Blog Rion Kati

My Recent High-Stakes ‘Son of God’ Crucible with 5MeO-DMT
 
 
My heart rate notably faster than normal, senses heightened as my mind was thinking and pacing although I was standing still..Money was already on the line.
 
 
But even MORE than the money on the line as I stood there in the Sanctuary’s lobby….this was one of those major decisions like a fork in the road; one door knowingly leads to my highest timeline, the other leads to a version of the future that is something more ‘mid’.
 
 
I was pre-committed with the deposit online days earlier.  This was THE PORTAL and the thing I’d secretly feared for YEARS (I cancelled coming down here in 2020). 
 
 
Everything was with and THROUGH THIS portal…this Crucible (to face God directly). 
 
 
I knew that infinite magic, Beauty and Power would also open up from this that would KEEP reaping dividends; however, it was a high price to pay (not necessarily for the session itself which is around my pricing for an activation session but for the extra risks).
 
 
After all, standing in the eco-luxe wooded, air conditioned lobby of the Bufo Alvarius Sanctuary in Tulum, I had just made full payment in his modern card reader attached to his smart phone.
 
 
My red bike with E.T. cart in the front was parked outside in a nice dark brown, tall eco-bike rack spot; I could still make a ‘getaway’ b/c I was in this liminal space before each pathway. 
 
 
Ironically, I was actually STILL SAFE, because I wasn’t ‘in’ the medicine; yet I still had to decide as a life-altering moment; which would it be?
 
 
Not ‘making the leap’ would be easy; sure I’d lose the money but I could go back cozily, pick up that pre-paid bin of protein powder and keep living in denial with my apex path of greatness. 
 
 
Shit; no I MUST do this. This is a type of bold move for MY level of dharma and it’s all for and with my Beloved and Her Divine Will; calling the greatness out of my Warrior above and beyond.
 
 
It was similar to facing one of my greatest fears earlier in deciding to sky-dive on North Shore Oahu; something that I knew I HAD to do or I couldn’t comfortably live with myself and that level of compromise. The regret would eat me alive.
 
 
I was here for a reason though. I’d been running away from the Holy Father for so long because of HEAVY religious conditioning that essentially secularized and outcast my Beloved.
 
 
After years on the run, my soul (although powerful and uncompromising in client sessions) was getting fatigued. 
 
 
It was time for Reunification with the Holy Father and ideally a BLESSING in Trinity as Son and Daughter of God.
 
 
With Muse (logically and knowingly) being a Daughter of God (yet outlawed) and me being so fractured; with both of us outcast from my religious upbringing; I had to do a more major reclamation of what would be Son of God instead of how I was living as a bastard son of God. 
 
 
Yes. The religious conditioning was so heavy (and didn’t openly embrace Goddess and Sophianic principle); yet this was that scale of medicine to work some miracle (and I knew it also). Only about 3 people I know had ever done it too.
 
 
So…with a very light glistening sweat from biking over in the Tulum afternoon, my daka/lounge pants on and with their colorful posters for different therapies with sku codes displayed on the wall, looking at the ridiculously Goddess-like bewitching eyes of the female facilitator who was listening to my symptoms;
 
 
She said in her exact words that it was ‘Russian Roulette’ for me to partake in Bufo/5MeO-DMT. 
 
 
Russian Roulette. Yeah. That’s exactly what it FELT like.
 
 
The shiny blue eyed enthusiastic facilitator/receptionist/cashier man behind the counter had also agreed after doing his research online about my condition because THIS is why the stakes got amplified.
 
 
She also said that bufo had cured her bloodless and lifeless foot; there was a chance it could even cure my condition but there’s just ‘no way to know’. 
 
 
They had never heard of anyone ever taking bufo/5mEo-DMT with my condition; a vestibular disorder that I’ve dealt with for years and years.
 
 
It had recently flared up as
light-headed and wonky so that I couldn’t even turn 45 degrees to the side on my pillow, thus I rescheduled for Friday from Wednesday. 
 
 
If I do the circular head movements I start getting actively dizzy and unstable. Sometimes its often felt like you would overdose on melatonin and spin around 20 times as my regular daily state. Kinda hard to describe.
 
 
Believe it or not;
 
 
There was no data of experience after their hundreds or thousands of clients. Apparently people with vertigo have known to STAY AWAY from bufo/DMT?! (No WAY!)
 
 
So here I was; the first of a kind…HMMM….something that oddly seemed familiar to me on this unique dharma (considering that I staked claim with Allure Priestess in founding the official allure industry itself only 2 weeks prior; that and other reasonings for the seasons).
 
 
First of a kind. A pioneering kinda Warrior.
 
 
“Why couldn’t I just go in NORMALLY and take the Warrior’s path of meeting God face to face THAT way; wasn’t that already enough?” (I thought to myself trying to buy some more time). 
 
 
I had made an agreement to myself years ago that I would feel stable with my ascension vertigo, vestibular disorder before going in and yet Muse was saying THIS is the timing and portal. High stakes.
 
 
Fortunately; they were giving proper space b/c we had 90 minutes…however they wanted an answer.
 
 
So…after years of waiting and being called to it; feeling the weight of the implications at this pivotal CRUX point in my history, would I do it or not?
 
 
Because there would be no going back. You either do the medicinal sacrament or you don’t. You’ve either done 5mEO-DMT or you haven’t.
 
 
This was hardcore medicine that you cannot get out of once you’re in. Maybe you’ve been in a similar predicament where there was ‘no turning back’ and everything would be different from here on out; a new version of you.
 
 
And yet; no one to save you. 
 
 
None of us knew how my (seemingly) neurological (related) vertigo symptoms would react (I have claimed 100% healing and will get it in harvest eventually)…dauntingly the medicine could mix with my vertigo to REALLY fuck me up exponentially and I already knew what being really fucked up was like. But what if this caused permanent damage?
 
 
It was all very prescient in the moment.
 
 
She mentioned that she had a kambo client scheduled for after me that she could serve first and that I could think about it some more but, I didn’t want to wait that long. Half an hour had already gone by.
 
 
I had to make a decision. How much could I trust my Beloved? I was getting no resistance from Her or my guides (and asked for protection from them if I were to go into it)…just a silent, steady knowing.
 
 
I must trust Her (again) completely. 
 
 
Also it was 8.22; apparently the ‘true’ Lion’s Gate portal as well.
 
 
So; as we were talking…I decided to take the Gene Key 35 vocational inspired wildcard risk even though it could potentially fuck me up for life and be a torturous hell of unbearable suffering during it.
 
 
“I’m in.”
 
 
“Let’s do it.:
 
 
I had already called my guides in before I biked over and had my Soul-Spirit Warrior embodied and present to guide me but it was ultimately all for Her (and thus me).
 
 
The facilitator also said that like me; she was contra-indicative for a different issue (or a word like it starting with contra) which gave me a skoshe of hope as well, but it was still my call and fully in my sovereignty. 
 
 
Fortunately, they were experienced enough with both forms of the medicine to have a sense of what would be best for me (and on their official recommendation I might add); we would go with 5mEo-DMT instead of bufo (which has the same active divine ingredient) because it was easier for them to control the exact dosage. 
 
 
My splenic authority knew there was risk but my faith over-rode it all; it still felt good in my body.
 
 
Bufo was more of a ‘wildcard’ dosage wise because of its other nucleo-alkaloids (I didn’t catch quite the exact word) and so that felt good to my system (this would be its own ‘real deal’ alpha-trial). I’ll go with DMT for this time.
 
 
Because I could have a stronger second dose; we agreed upon 7 mg which they thought was a lighter/safer dose and they would prepare a second dose (it wasn’t anything remotely close to a micro-dose). This gave me a PATHWAY into it that still felt good in my body (although still risky).
 
 
I did catch him saying something like they tend to double their doses, so I actually ended up with what some would consider a ‘regular’ dose anyways on the agreement (which I thought would be a far smaller dose effect than it actually was).
 
 
So….we walked to the teepee area inside their grounds and after a good smudge barefoot on the pebbles lifting one foot up and then the other to get the feet as well….we went inside the large teepee and then the male facilitator came over and they took a while helping her measure out the DMT pebblets with their digital scale micrometer (it sounds right to add ‘micrometer’ here) and then they prepared the second, larger dose of 10mg.
 
 
With this path and strategy, it allowed us to gauge way how I would react to it with my vestibular vertigo dynamic.
 
 
Now…although I wanted to set the stage properly because it was a major tribulation and crucible for me (this is MY journey and we each have our own trials and timing of trials on our paths); let’s get more towards the EXPERIENCE part of things.
 
 
First, I have to say an obvious disclaimer:
 
 
Anything I say cannot do justice to the ACTUAL, REAL LIVED EXPERIENCE itself. 
 
 
With that said however; I want to try to get ‘some’ of the context or conveyance across because it might be relevant for you; perhaps to seed ideas for the future and help determine if this sacrament is for you or not. Or maybe just to inspire you or be a good divertive read that signifies that ISN’T for me.
 
 
I’m not doing this ONLY for my Beloved, I knew I was also doing it for my clients and my future clients; ALL of them in being the BEST version of myself and someone they can look up to and can trust furthermore.
 
 
I’ll also add that I am a Grail Priest in devotional Sacred Union with great spiritual authority and Light-working experience.
 
 
This is not the same as a consumer tech-bro looking for trippy, distracting experiences (as I know there is a lot of judgment and projected crap around entheogens or psychedelics out there; a lot of misinformation from the non-experienced when actually this is the medicine that would wipe out their uninformed judgments).
 
 
Yeah but isn’t that judgmental to say that of them Rion? No; it’s an assessment that’s closer to truth. I’m speaking from the GIFT of judgment 😉 and with actual lived experience! 
 
 
Ok…as promised; let’s get to it more….5MeO-DMT was prepped and I even overlooked the fact that she placed it on the calfskin rug without something clean under it and put her fingers on the tip of it b/c I had more important things to be ready for.
 
 
They held great space; the facilitator and the Mexicana assistant on my left side. We did some breathing practice exercises as she instructed me in how to partake once she heated it up…
 
 
I would end with a long breath soaking it in without swallowing, a final sip and holding it and then lean back on the higher than average pillow support I intentionally set up.
 
 
Sitting there; I knew it was time. This is it. Let’s do it. I’m pre-committed because of my Beloved.
 
 
I had known and practiced what I was going to say for months;
 
 
“All for thee my Love. (Together)
whispered
 
 
…Am I a Son of God?”
 
 
I also said this when she was getting her lighter ready as I held the medicine to my heart to bless it with an intention.
 
 
My main intention here was Son of God reclamation and reunification with the Holy Father; the one beyond religion that had secularized my Beloved.
 
 
I had said the same thing “All for thee my Love” at The Crucible on Hallow’s even in 2019 in that private ayahuasca ceremony in Iquitos. Living devotion and Her divine will.
 
 
So with simple clarity; I found ways to speak-whisper those words before and again between some breaths before sipping it in.
 
 
I remember she said “Hold. Hold….Hold” as the assistant helped lean me back down and then I breathed it out.
 
 
Things instantly started opening up as my Presence and awareness just lightened up, expanded and rippled into and through multiple dimensions still geo-physically present yet connecting and connected to the Divine. To God.
 
 
All I could do was EXPERIENCE. And breathe.
 
 
Breath seemed to be the thing keeping the physical form of me alive and holding it all together, but it was like consciousness transcended that.
 
 
It was so astounding that the ego could not keep up with it whatsoever; I was transfixed in an experience of powerful unified frequencies.
 
 
Is this what death is like? (an afterthought now, not then).
 
 
As I was enraptured in powerful frequencies and full-body experience; Light itself was drenching my soma with Truth, Beauty and Love. This is some amazing stuff for purifying your light body and cellular system.
 
 
The only semblances of initial thoughts were ‘holy shit’, ‘whoah’, ‘WOW’…is this real?
 
 
You don’t have to worry about breathing if you do this; your body will do it automatically.
 
 
It was like I was in my own personal Milky Way and the facilitators seemed so far away.
 
 
I’d move my hands around a bit in disbelief and remember feeling just waves of endless expansion and ripples as I was connected in Unity with source; or at least these frequency bands of it. (Later I sensed that there are actually even higher source realms).
 
 
Unlike my 9 variable ayahuasca partaking ceremonies (which had usually been a mix of heaven and hell), this was all heaven but it was INTENSE.
 
 
You could say it is hell to any semblance of EGO however!
 
 
There weren’t any entities or angels in this session; it had a consistent theme of a unified experience.
 
 
I was actively experiencing different SIDDHIS but all as a unified field and Truth.
 
 
The ones that my soul was aware of that could make sense of in real time (b/c it obliterates your ego) were;
 
 
Boundlessness
 
Beauty (oh my God, BEAUTY!)
 
Beloved/Muse
 
God the Father (and beyond all religion)
 
Truth
 
Peace
 
Holy Mother
 
Communion
 
LOVE
 
 
But all as ONE.
 
 
This was different…when I had a heavenly experience during my 2nd ayahuasca ceremony on the Amazon (the best night of this lifetime thus far); I was experiencing specifically the 66th siddhi (I call it) of SERENITY. 
 
 
This was different here; a more intense unification.
 
 
I could only get out a few words of confirmation in spoken voice during it at different times:
 
 
“Wow!
(exhilarating catching my breath transfixed in the magical multi-dimensional wonder of things)
 
Beloved
 
Muse
 
Myujusin
 
Cao Guojiu
 
(Such) Beauty!
 
Father, Holy Father
 
Son of God”
 
 
I was so transfixed that I was trying to get a visual of a specific Muse but couldn’t; it was just that I was with Her and basking in SO much powerful Beauty where even the Masculine and Feminine were UNIFIED.
 
 
The first several minutes (in human time) were what would have been the most intense and then it became relatively more of a slow gradual fade that I could ‘work with’ a bit more.
 
 
I gave a blessing to my father and mother and their forebearers.
 
 
I thanked and blessed the Rose-Magdalene and Sophianic line and thanked the Holy Mother.
 
 
During what would have been around the 23 minutes of core session; I had sub-pranas of tears; tears of releasing, tears of being overwhelmed by Beauty and resonating with it in greater acceptance. 
 
 
Towards the end I had my trademark divine masculine Godly sighs and aahs. I actually recorded some while things were still active after they left the tent.
 
 
The Light-working that I did was so powerful directed at my chakras that I only did a second worth of time each.
 
 
I also had some real purging where I slowly leaned to the side; psychic purging (without much vom) as well as a scream of rage that didn’t have to be louder than it was and then shaking things out from my temple body that no longer belonged.
 
 
Of course your experience will be different but there may be some similarities; You feel it everywhere; this connection with God-source…throughout your entire body.
 
 
It’s a DIRECT experience; just BATHING the light-body, DNA and cellular body is such Truthful, powerful Beauty…experiencing it directly as your soul; as witnesser and experiencer.
 
 
And the fascinating thing was that the entire time there was no separation with God the father and me or Son of God. I think Jesus once said the words; “the Father and I are one”. That’s what this was.
 
 
(How much religious conditioning did I put up with?) 
 
 
HOW COULD I NOT BE A SON OF GOD?! (This just superceded ALL religious conditioning)
 
 
It seemed impossible being so unified in raw experience so palpably spiritual yet somatic and physical and emotional.
 
 
I was doing some more Lightworking to seal codes into certain chakras as well as strengthening my general hand chakras connection to Source.
 
 
It was such a beautiful experience that had such a wonderful ‘fade out’ where it was still active at the end but I could start talking more cohesively.
 
 
At some point I gave them each a wai/namaste which signaled they could start transitioning out of their roles. I was still awestruck and she brought over a notepad for me to write on but I knew I wouldn’t write anything (for days) on this one.
 
 
WOW! Of course any re-telling doesn’t do it justice however I did want to share SOMETHING to both document this legacy experience as well as share with others for different reasons.
 
 
So I don’t want to overlook the fact that (fortunately) it did NOT fuck with my vestibular disorder or mix negatively with it whatsoever (WHEWWWW….but I would have NEVER KNOWN had I not took the Russian Roulette style risk). 
 
 
SO I remember telling her ‘No…we’re good, that was PERFECT…no second dose (necessary)’…It was phenomenal.
 
 
Also it was time for her kambo client by then also but it just all worked out b/c that experience was IT plus it wasn’t SO strong that it would be blow me off of coming back for months; it was a beautiful and yet authentically powerful entry that inspired me to ABSOLUTELY come back and be working with this long-term.
 
 
(The medicine was still in my system for days later including now day 5).
 
 
After all; this IS the God molecule and it’s part of our bio-chemistry and divinity. It’s worth noting that EACH experience I or you would have is going to be DIFFERENT and whatever experience you have is invaluable and preserved no matter how shitty you or I are at translating it into writing.
 
 
The medicine itself is INTELLIGENT.
 
 
I came in as a Soul Warrior-Grail Priest and this medicine is a sacrament. Tech Bros looking for a ‘trip’ isn’t where I’m sourced from so maybe that will bring some relevance or weight to your consideration or reconsideration around the medicine b/c there is a lot of ignorance out there from the non-experienced who have all kinds of uninformed projections around it.
 
 
Look, I wanted to take a regular dose (at their double standards) but with my vertigo flared up, we found a win-win path.
 
 
In this case; it was perfect and the 2nd dose wasn’t necessary. Next, I’m called to regular dose bufo now that I have experience related with my vestibular dynamic.
 
 
It’s different than ayahuasca and much shorter instead of hours.
 
 
Maybe this share will be of
relevance if you’ve been facing a major tribulation yourself. New doors will open if you step forward and are committed.
 
 
It may even seed ideas and inspiration for partaking in the sacrament yourself. Those in Divine Union have even more reasoning to partake.
 
 
Kundalini + DMT is allowing me to FEEL again in body and in Spirit…things OTHERS have felt, but that which I haven’t for several reasons even though I’ve been the devotional one. My human design has been working against me in that sense but that’s an extended discussion.
 
 
Eventually I was ready to get up slowly and walk out of the tent, knowing that I did the right thing. It felt like I had won the war itself. How RICH and magical!
 
 
This was absolutely a thing the true Rion Kati would do and that his people would anticipate him do. I wouldn’t have done it without my devotion for Beloved however. It was more of a crucible than I personally wanted but it made it all the more GLORIOUS.
 
 
We each will have our own trials and tribulations; those of us on a true Spirit Warrior path.
 
 
As I walked forward; talked for half a minute with the guy who was in the lobby who had his legs in the pool and walked through their lobby getting a gift bag…then I walked my bike across the street and got on.
 
 
It was disappointing having to go into a public space around people at Chedraui to pick up the protein bin, cilantro, blueberries and a face moisturizer but wow….for DAYS it has still been working magic as I’ve post-processed, relapsed and integrated more SO beautifully and effectively…mixing WITH the re-activated kundalini as well. 
 
 
This alone has been invaluable and I’m on my highest timelines now; so much is powerfully integrating and opening up.
 
 
I came back and it felt like I had won the WAR ITSELF. I felt so SUCCESSFUL in spirit because these are the priceless things. I took it easy; ate 3 meals (b/c of the dieta) and had a powerful integration temple space session with Beloved, popcorn and good movie time afterwards just feeling like a (son of) god.
 
 
So besides the experience itself; my greatest takeaway was that I had *experienced* that the FATHER AND I WERE ONE.
 
 
How could I not be a S/son of God? Absolutely life-changing.
 
 
Now I’m looking forward to a ‘regular’ dose of Bufo, maybe late next month with the same active ingredient of…the God molecule; 5MeO-DMT.
 
 
Then I’ll be into stronger doses of this as well.
 
 
Thank you for reading!
 
 
All of it is related to my own Sacred Reunification as well as being more of who I am truly meant to be as in divine service to my clients as well.
 

This has been my experience+integration theme song

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