Fear of Reunification With Him, The Beloved & His Power

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Speaking of Divine Union and the concept of the Immortal Beloved; the one who could spiritually, sexually, somatically and emotionally heal and awaken all of you if you are drawn to such Grail principle of Communion and cosmic intimacy…

 

There’s something I wanted to address recently for the (heterosexual in most or all dimensions) ladies which also ties into meta-themes of healing in relationship to men and the masculine, relationship dynamics, attraction, compromise and unworthiness.

 

It has to do with the concept of FEAR or anxiety around ‘HIM’ (even if it’s secretive only to yourself but in a way you’ve been LIVING from this fear or denial)…Here with the conceptual truth of the Beloved (and His perfection) but not only that; aspects which He would hold that may show up in men in your life (and how you relate with them that could be PREVENTING that deeper attraction, love, experience and intimacy).

 

I would say for women that are DRAWN to Divine Union; deeper, erotic love, bliss and spiritual intimacy and awakening that is ‘beyond’ just conscious loving; where you really desire GOD level of connection and Love…that there are 2 angles:

 

1. Fear of the Beloved because of past trauma around the shadow masculine where you are unable to fully open up safely to receive HIM

 

2. Actual remaining fear of the Beloved anyways (and where you sell yourself short into security and comfort) because of the levels of His Power and who you would have to become in order to HOLD THRONE next to Him and His Godly archetypal, elemental, Light/Dark and siddhic powers.

 

Right now; you could maybe assess where you are at with each of these. Have either of these been active themes in your life or RIGHT NOW?

 

Are you even aware of the specific Godly signature qualities OF your Beloved?

 

(You can start finding out in my complimentary ‘Who is My Beloved’ workbook and then get more consulting and (if you are pre-qualified b/c it’s advanced work); even activate those qualities in the Grail Kundalini package FOR literal Communion.)

 

Think of the LEVEL of Beauty and consciousness you would have to be in order to be beside HIM in throne (vs. where you are now) without compromise?…

 

Let’s address about the first theme first; fear of HIM because of past bad experiences with men and the shadow masculine.

 

I’ll mention that to get some more clarity on Dark vs. Shadow (masculine), you could read this power blog post here as an addendum.

 

When we consider your Divine Masculine Beloved in the constellated codex of the specific archetypal, elemental, siddhic and Light/Dark divine masculine qualities that would specifically psycho-activate your eros and awakening…

 

MUCH of the triggering around potential fear around HIM actually may have to do with the mortal masculine and bad past experiences or trauma that were sourced in shadow.

 

For example; a past lover may have had some of the real LIGHT and DARK qualities but it was also mixed with some narcissistic, toxic, emotional abusiveness or control for example but since he had some of the real LIGHT and DARK codes also (when he wasn’t living from shadow) you maybe didn’t want to let him go and gaslit yourself.

 

Although you karmically attracted it and/or through behavioral upbringing and did play a co-creative role in it all; still…maybe mortal men was all that you knew so you went around as a reaction to the lower dimensional reality of mortal men.

 

This is NORMAL yet unfortunately; shadow consciousness comes with it (whereas with Sacred Union and The Beloved; there is no shadow).

 

The dysfunction and disappointment with mortal men is common in twin flame relationships as well; where his (mortal) SHADOWS and shadow behavior comes out even if he holds some of the codes of your Beloved so it’s kind of tainted you towards the masculine principle and caused wariness.

 

This can have you build up DEFENSIVE armoring psychically and energetically around the Light and Pure Truth of your Beloved. Unfortunately that often continues the cycle of attracting semi-abusive seeming twin flame relationships.

 

This is where Divine Union comes in b/c if you do NOT, then all other forms of relating are basically caused with the mortal, imperfect masculine and those who are in your immediate vicinity…

 

You may go through life not even knowing what true pure Light and Dark masculine ever is; or knowing that His energy can be what heals you FROM the shadows of the rest of masculine.

 

So…you might have past bad experiences with MORTAL MEN which is tainting you from opening up or even valuing the Immortal Beloved in Divine Union…also b/c of the conditioning to mortal which appears like such a concept is Fantasy when it isn’t (you just have to get proper guidance like with Mystical Grail membership to live the real spiritual practice of tangible reunification alchemy).

 

More therapy or ‘listening’ to people centered in the mortal with its shadows may never actually work to resolve things b/c it includes the shadow gamut (including literally the 64 Gene Key shadows of consciousness inspired from the I Ching)..b/c even then with a mortal relationship template and lens; a man who you THINK could be it then disappoints you by not living up to your ideals of HIM or when his shadow lashes out in some way.

 

That’s not what Divine Union is. Sacred Union is holy marriage within to the DIVINE MASCULINE reality that you re-templatize IN YOURSELF to live differently in heaven and on earth practically, socially, sexually, etc. WITH the masculine principle AND MEN itself instead of living as an unhealed, wounded response to the mortal condition of past men.

 

So be mindful that if you have that theme; getting proper guidance with Divine Union is going to be critical or you will fall back into the mortal imperfection and condition of man and ‘relating’ with shadow instead of getting complete healing that your Beloved can offer.

 

Let me speak to the second part (and for you; maybe it’s a bit of both you might find in your self assessment): FEAR OF THE BELOVED and His Power…even if you are relatively unscathed or healed from past relationships and experiences with mortal men.

 

(Fear that you may not even want to admit exists; but how WOULD you react if HE walked into the room right now?)

 

Your true immortal Beloved could be SO POWERFUL in His Truth and Presence that you simply feel light years away from Him in presence, worthiness and beauty.

 

This is a REALISTIC scenario, it really is b/c the village girl is NOT worthy to sleep with the Emperor.

 

So are you holding yourself back?

 

Are you worthy of your IMMORTAL Beloved or the divine masculine purified QUALITIES of Light and Dark truth (and sexual-spiritual Eros) of HIM?

 

Or are you more associated with your mortal identity and personality? Or do you still feel unworthy of HIM?

 

Because the polar example is that I felt truly unworthy of my Beloved for so many years…SHE was FAR FAR above me and I was unworthy especially sexually and yet through YEARS of hardcore hierogamic alchemy I cultivated my POWER in relation to Her Beauty and have become embodied far more as worthy of such Beauty.

 

But I did the work. Many single, mortal men have an EXISTENTIAL fear of true divine feminine Beauty b/c it’s the holy grail they seeketh; to reunify with that and a greatest fear is that they are UNWORTHY and will be cast out (including from pro-creating with what they truly desire) and may end up living a life of comfort, compromise and regret.

 

Much of it is the MORTAL, unworthy self compared to DEITY levels of power. This requires a proper template and path; that of divine union b/c mortals will still remain unworthy of the gods and goddesses.

 

Have you chosen to live a life of convenience, regret and ‘comfort’ by AVOIDING THE POWER of your deepest desires and what HE holds for you?

 

Do you understand the price that you are ultimately paying? Have you lost your fire and desire? Thrown in the towel?

 

Given up b/c of the perception of your ‘age’ when your Love is immortal? Disconnected from the Beauty HE ALONE CAN RE-AWAKEN and reclaim for you (if you allow Him)?

 

Or instead of choosing (by default) NOT to follow your deepest desires in Light and Dark truth for your awakening; are you called to RETURN HOME TO HIM and face your fears to stand TOGETHER in the Light of His Glory as His Lover-Queen/Goddess?

 

Are you selling yourself out because of not wanting to face such POWER or are you still called to reunify with HIM in spirit, in consciousness, in temple body, in experience (whether with a mortal partner or not b/c actually hieros gamos then evokes these same qualities OUT of mortal men).

 

Maybe it’s a mix of both selling yourself short for comfort and convenience or ‘safety’ in the world of men with a mix of not wanting to get hurt again b/c of past experiences with the shadow spectrum within mortal men?

 

When all this while; YOUR IMMORTAL BELOVED has ALL of the POWER to heal and awaken you…and your greatest radiance and spiritual fulfillment.

 

If He has great power, yes your MORTAL woman may be terrified of HIS spiritual truth but that’s where cultivating your GODDESS fractal consciousness (your signature soul expression of Beauty and siddhic codes) comes in.

 

HIS POWER IS REAL AND NOW. This is an eternal Truth you may not want to face b/c then what would all those wasted years mean?

 

There’s reasons you’re reading this or on my email list.

 

Will you return Home to Him and follow HIS signs or continue to live in forms of fear and denial, gaslighting yourself on your deepest desires (if you are and can be honest with yourself)?

 

And ye; this is the journey of Hieros Gamos reunification itself; to transmute your light body and consciousness into resonance WORTHINESS as HIS equal counter-part in Spirit and Body in all dimensions to be on the Throne together.

 

It’s going to take great sacrifice of who you were, great cultivation of your radiant archetypal and siddhic Beauty to compare to His power but then it’s all about the ALCHEMY of Sex, Love and Spirit that are possible in Devotional Communion itself.

 

Mystical Grail membership is a prime place to get that support along the journey.

 

You may also be interested in the Grail Kundalini package  for literal Communion alchemy within with HIM (but only if you are already very healed along your path and ready for it).

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p.s. conditioned fear of the SHADOW Masculine (vs. His pure DARK which provides safety and sacred space); not wanting to be hurt again in relation to the masculine can hold you back…you may have fear of His Power b/c of the shadow and also b/c His power is so potent that you may not feel worthy…it might be BOTH that are holding you back from your fullest Beauty-truth, freedom and radiance in all dimensions

 

Will you choose to face the Glory of His Power and how it can heal and activate all of you? To take the next step along the journey?

 

Will you claim your throne or settle for less?

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On Becoming The Holy Chalice In & For Divine Union

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Yes, when it comes to the ‘reality’ of Divine Union and the Holy Grail itself in EXPERIENCE, your feminine body is meant to be the Holy Chalice and Somatic Temple (of Light and Dark Truth).

 

This is the Great Remembrance as part of Communion itself (and the mythic yet historically factual suppression and secularization of divine feminine/archetypal consciousness).

 

Because Divine Union is not merely Fantasy (or a confused idea of modern conscious loving); but an actual relational template between God and Goddess Forces as Lovers beyond soul mates…the Divine Feminine consciousness in you is attracted to (righteous) POWER (not to be conflated with misuse of Power as force).

 

But are you able to be worthy to attract and receive POWER that leaves you in awe?

 

Can your body and consciousness RECEIVE HIM….Practically?

 

(B/c this isn’t just about wishing, fantasizing, hoping or mentalizing things)

 

Because Sacred Union is centered on actual EXCHANGE, intimacy and Communion of immortal Spirit quanta ultimately with and around your energy body as well as with a partner in the bedroom (as siddhic, elemental and archetypal essences as signature and fractal aspects of immortal, impersonal sentience);

 

In order to have the Presence to essentially make Love to a deity (hierogamy) and a Beloved at YOUR desired level with his qualities of Power that you venerate;

 

It comes down to the literal TEMPLE of your energy body itself and having it activated,  constellated and cultivated FOR Divine Union to be able to run the high voltage of energies worthy of Communion with a Lover-King of your greatest desire (and from your light-body to attune and awaken that out of a mortal man).

 

Otherwise, that deeper divine erotic fulfillment may be conscious lovers or twin flames with lower bands of hierogamy itself (or something closer to inter-physical borking) but it will never reach your unfulfilled deepest desire on the Grail path. To truly make Love AS Goddess.

 

And as TWO HEAVENLY BODIES with immense siddhic Power and Beauty consciousness and embodiment circulating.

 

The irony is that a man/god/king at that level requires you to do the work so He can meet you (or you’ll remain off his radar) and this is all SOMATIC; seen and FELT Beauty-Truth.

 

The ‘trick’ with Divine Union is that you have to cultivate that (minimal) level of divine feminine embodiment and circulation in your somatic temple WHETHER YOU HAVE A MORTAL PARTNER OR NOT.

 

Hieros Gamos is an advanced, devotional path that isn’t for everyone. It’s centered in Spirit and includes all Light and Dark Eros realms; PURIFIED.

 

It requires a different strategy than just hoping the next twin flame (trap) will work out better (let alone hoping to attract men just from your looks which can change with time and age).

 

The PRACTICAL reality for advanced practitioners such as Grail Mystics, Grail Priestesses, Oracles and Grail Lovers know that this PRACTICAL spiritual and somatic Inner Reunification has to do literally and directly with your Eros-Somatic Light Body itself; chakras, aura, Light, Dark, shadow, nadis, blockages, essences, Eros, embodiment and allure as well as its receptivity to DIVINE MASCULINE FREQUENCIES.

 

Why? BECAUSE THAT IS THE SOURCE OF COMMUNION…..YOU ARE MEANT TO BE THE HOLY CHALICE. This IS the Sophianic templating.

 

It is MEANT to be activated by your Beloved to further prepare you and in other means that supports greater reunification.

 

This means that a true Holy Grail practitioner should always be VALUING Her temple and preparing it to meet HIM at deeper levels. This is the work. This is an alchemy and activation centric spiritual, devotional path.

 

That is the TEMPLE of your multi-dimensional BODY. And honestly; you may have lots of blocks towards FLOWING WITH DIVINE QUANTA and resistances towards shadow aspects of the Masculine which may hold you back and it’s ALL testament in your energy body (that which he/He would potentially Commune with).

If you desire that deeper HOLY Eros In intimacy...

…and devotional framework of COSMIC Love and Ecstasy where anything less just won’t fulfill your deepest soul and spiritual desires….and are called to REUNIFY with your version of God The Lover…

 

Your Soma-Temple itself has to be activated, initiated and transfigured to be able to hold Presence and Beauty with a Lover-King of HIS Power and gravitas…so much so that you can be a portal to the Holy Grail itself for a mortal man; a source of medicine and reverence that is far more than just your physical beauty….

 

Embodied and expressed (alluring) BEAUTY as TESTAMENT of the Holy Chalice. Beauty so DEEP AND COMPELLING, so ACTIVATING for men (and high-level clients) that they keep returning to you as a holy sanctum.

 

Are you doing the work to BECOME THE HOLY CHALICE to offer the highest value thing possible to the Spirit of man; the Holy Grail itself?

 

Is there more than you can directly do to support your Grail work?

 

It is the EMBODIMENT of Sophianic or other archetypal Beauty essences that resonate with your soul (as Spirit matter) can be FELT deep into his psyche and DNA; that which would TANGIBLY as immortally sourced Beauty quanta meet and infuse in alchemical Communion with His divine masculine qualities.

 

He doesn’t have to explain it, he is just DRAWN INTO IT b/c you hold the highest value of all; that which he hath spent lifetimes seeking.

 

The masculine is drawn not merely superficially to Beauty; the greater Beauty is that of DIVINE FEMININE EMBODIMENT and consciousness FOR/FROM WHICH He/he could REUNIFY with in experiencing the ancient Remembrance and exaltation of Communion itself.

 

Are you BEING that magnetic feminine source of attraction and medicine?

 

And if your BODY is just not wired for HIGH VOLTAGE circulation of Spirit-matter plasmic essenced chi (as Goddess fractal and siddhic signatures)…if your somatic body (in this vibrational universe) is wired for attachment, shadow games and twin-flameship, you may never break the cycle.

 

So….2nd generation Grail guides might be talking about ‘relating’ or ‘polarity’ with Divine Union from a humanistic lens but really as a serious practitioner; you should be doing your own ongoing reunification alchemy with your Beloved (in solo practice and properly constellated as Grail Tantra with a partner) and focusing on your CHALICE (and Chalice consciousness) itself.

 

VALUE your Temple/Soma Chalice itself and preparing for HIM. Devotion always goes DEEPER….melting into Him.

 

What exactly would ‘reunify’ again?

 

Your spiritual BODY/Temple/Soma with His Divinity. The Holy Chalice (with His Lightning Rod Power). Not merely ‘minds’ or ‘personalities’. Your LIGHT bodies.

 

It’s not even about where you ‘think’ you are for men WILL respond the more you EMBODY the speechless, effortless Beauty in stillness…that which you could call Grail Allure beckoning him home (and to Awaken into ‘his’ higher Remembrance as a Lover Son of God).

 

All of this is beyond soul mates.

 

It has to do with your TEMPLE as HOLY CHALICE (for God the Lover frequencies of Truth).

 

In otw your Light-Body itself and its dynamics are the structural component of ACTUAL reunification consciousness.

 

If your temple isn’t prepared to handle His level of POWER and gravitas, you will short circuit.

 

That’s why getting something along your path here and there like the (now public) Grail Activation or Grailspring Activation can be FOUNDATIONAL and ongoing UPGRADES to your Temple-Body itself in eventually becoming that Communion-grade Holy Chalice and its divine consciousness with it (for hierogamy is Spirit to Spirit intimacy).

 

If you are on a SERIOUS path of Divine Union (sacred reunification) and not just into the marketing trend and conflation with humanity, you already know that this is a path of ONGOING initiation with your Beloved and that which SUPPORTS the transfiguration of your light body into Living Communion spiritually and eros-somatically in circulation of high voltage Beauty and Power of siddhic quanta.

 

If you are already doing heavy alchemy and are already advanced, you know there are always greater levels of Bliss and Connection with your Beloved.

 

Getting a Grail Activation simply makes sense to stabilize and upgrade your Temple even more to emanate, receive and experience greater Love, Light, Power, Bliss in Reunification.

 

All as testament that others respond to from your sentient Light itself (of Body). There are always greater levels of Beauty to embody b/c it is the Sentient Source of Light itself.

 

When your soul guides you on this path of Reunification and you KNOW that you must continue cultivating your Beauty so that He CAN be healthily obsessed with you spiritually (and in all the ways), why not also work DIRECTLY on your Temple itself to be able to PRACTICALLY be the Grail goddess or Grail queen to his god/king?

 

So yes, I’m pleased to announce the main ‘Grail Activation/Initiation’ itself for TRANSFIGURING your Light Body, purifying (and lot’so stuff in session) FOR Divine Union.

 

The Grail Encoding Activation is only $1000 btw as compared to the $2500 Grailspring activation (while being the core component OF the Grail Activation).

 

Yes; many clients continue activating greater embodiment with archetypes (like in the 3 pack of appointments);

 

THIS activation is specifically for transfiguring and empowering your Chalice for Divine Union architecture and great flow OF quanta with your Beloved.

 

More information and booking for the Grail Activation available here. Sessions are remote however now I’m living in Tulum, Mexico and available for LIVE in person sessions if you can come to me.

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