Ahh….bufo! (Like “Ahh, Venice…”).

Ahh….bufo! (Like “Ahh, Venice…”).

But that’s not how I always felt about it.

Yes, within the last week I had returned for a second ceremony of bufo @ Maya Tulum with my referral (through a client of mine). It was clear I was called to it and it was an obvious ‘next step’.

((BTW; I wrote about my first ever, recent bufo experience here on the blog ))

After doing ‘The Crucible’ with a most powerful shaman in the Amazon basin in a private ceremony in a loft in downtown Iquitos after being an underwhelming ayahuasca experience on the Amazon (I felt more for beginners), it had been about 6 months after and I was called to do bufo.

This was in spring 2020 and I was going to come down from Playa del Carmen to the Bufo Alvarius Sanctuary in Tulum…I started doing some research but then my vestibular issue (which I called ascension vertigo then) flared up and it created all kinds of additional anxiety around ‘doing bufo’.

Bufo of course being the 5 MeO-DMT experience with the Sonoran desert toad which carries this God molecule in its bufo-toxins (do these toads ever lick each other out there?)

So what happened is that I built up anxiety, trepidation and authentic forms of FEAR around it for 5.5 years before I went in during my God Molecule crucible which I wrote about on the blog here. We ended up doing straight 5MeO-DMT (which I didn’t really know about at all until I was talking with them) instead of bufo then while we were consulting around my vestibular issue which they said they hadn’t known anyone who had it who ever did this sacrament.

It was more accurate to get the dosage amount because bufo dosage was more variable (and unreliable), so I first had direct 5MeO-DMT ( a very strong 7 mg).

After that, I did get to finally doing bufo which I also wrote about on the blog but basically my 2nd experience here was what I thought my first experience would be like and my first 5MeO-DMT experience was what I thought the next (3rd) bufo experience would be like.

NOW? I don’t have anxiety around it…in fact, I LOOK FORWARD to continuing to work with it. Yes; we’re basically talking the ~most powerful psychotropic known to mankind.

Bufo has alkaloids that help rejuvenate cellular repair and growth neurologically and many other benefits in addition to being a host of The God Molecule itself.

“5-MeO-DMT, also known as 5-methoxy-N,N-dimethyltryptamine, as well as O-methylbufotenin or mebufotenin, is an atypical psychedelic drug, entheogen, and alkaloid of the tryptamine and 5-methoxytryptamine families.[8][1][5][2] It is found naturally in a wide variety of plant species, and is also secreted by the glands of at least one toad species, the Colorado River toad (Incilius alvarius, formerly Bufo alvarius).[8] It may occur naturally in humans as well.” -Wikipedia

For years; I lived with this anxious trepidation around the idea of it…like a dragon that had to be slayed.

There was something VERY REAL (at least in my subjective experience or ‘false evidence appearing real’) about the ‘terror barrier’.

It was a large and vast ‘unknown’…even AFTER doing regular 5MeO-DMT b/c I still didn’t know what to anticipate (remember I thought it was going to be even more powerful at the same dosage; not that it isn’t powerful, but they’re each their own medicine with different ‘ranges’ so to speak).

Granted, I had a legitimate health concern that AMPLIFIED my concerns, but it was finally time to ‘face them’ as a Soul Warrior and I found my own way with these sessions to become initiated and dissolve any terror barriers.

I overcame most of that and officially with my first bufo session but there was still more to be initiated INTO to really have the more integrated and priceless levels of Warriorship that would be relevant to other areas of living powerfully in-self with.

I’ve mentioned before, not everyone is called to it, but there is something authentic to not overlook about where in your life you may be ‘hiding out’ from things with terror barriers that you KNOW you are supposed to break through with (for some it could be facing the Beauty or Power of their Beloved and the threat of their own unworthiness so they keep living in denial).

Like; I’m not called to ibogaine (iboga) yet or ever. That’s just not my battle but I’ve gone through the battles and tribulations (many) that I knew I was supposed to. So where might you be compromising on something you know that YOU should be doing?

So yeah; back to our storyline…and similar to my previous experience with bufo; again the math didn’t really add up. I’m getting a little ahead of myself so let me digress…

So yeah; it was another lovely beach weathery day as I biked down with less anxiety….as I arrived and took off my sandals with a little concern of the light dirtiness on my feet (I may have to foot mop the floor with some bounty towels later) she had the ceremonial space set up in the yoga shala in a different area facing more southerly.

Relevant accoutrement, incense and altar area.

I was more grounded and embodied and less anxious than before until we moved into ceremony prep…I felt some good, healthy normal anxiety knowing it was going to be an experience (and stronger than last time) yet with a bit more confidence about how my system (still healing in harvest) reacts to it.

Actually I wasn’t as light-headed this time going in (things were relatively ‘normalized’) so that helped also yet still; holding the o-pipe with the medicine to my heart I felt that mix of excited, activated-ness with maybe 18% anxiety but otherwise prepared.

It was still a risk because of my vestibular issue that others don’t have to worry about.

But again; I knew I was called to it (for and with Beloved) and before I left I had called upon my Hero and Warrior into embodiment and guides to be with me throughout…even if there was ‘some’ remaining form of anxiety like before going into battle in the prescient moments before partaking; it was to do the right thing anyways.

You’ve either done bufo or you haven’t.

B/c remember; there are people who will jump out of perfectly good airplanes (oh; hey I’ve done that too..ok just 1 airplane so far) who wouldn’t dare touch this medicine.

We had talked also for 1/2 hour before me booking this one on zoom audio. This time I had for sure wanted to go stronger.

She was planning for me to do the full ‘starter’ breakthrough dose of 70mg (at once instead of split)…and I was like let’s talk about that (that was too light for me)…

I was previously planning and actually already thinking 100mg just to ensure a stronger experience (or even more than that like 125mg) but she felt 100mg should be the maximum for now and prepared it. It felt good knowing that she didn’t want to go further so that is our topline for now and what’s meant to be.

So I had the entire rug and sarong spread-set to myself with 2 pillows that I tested ahead of time (this is important to me).

And then sitting up we had the 100mg dose prepared…I was getting more used to things by now so she lit it and I did my best to inhale as much as I could (telling her beforehand I can’t hold my breath as long as normal b/c it can threaten my vestibular condition and put me in a danger zone)…there was a little bit of confusion if I was doing it correctly but I inhaled and held as much as I can and she promised to start counting faster this time instead of the big delay.

I think I made it to around 5 before I had to exhale and then leaned back.

Similar to last time, it was a gentle but obvious gradient into ‘the zone’; this time more significant of course. The ego was less active and it was generally an egoless zone.

Going into it I already sensed that it still might not be as strong as the 5MeO-DMT but that it didn’t have to be; eventually I would get there with bufo…that’s what made me enjoy this more.

It’s an obvious but magical zone of Unity that I was getting more used to and enjoying…again; quite gentle and manageable…with the ego subdued it allows you to experience more directly as your soul so it’s very purifying including alchemically as it works though the system.

It’s not like I blasted out; I was still there; I guess ‘in body’ but it’s just a different experience more directly connected to the divine where higher frequencies are saturating your energy field.

I did some lightworking during it but there was no specific theme…I whispered key codes again like ‘Beloved’ (of course I said ‘all for thee my Love, together’ at the start).

I also said “I AM….multi-orgasmic, multi-millionaire”…it’s basically a siddhic experience directly.

The ego being present enough to guide with key codes…there wasn’t too much releasing this time but there was some that I helped to support…at one point I could feel the medicine landing more and affecting my cellular body in the legs, reviving them (this medicine healed a previous facilitator from some weird leg injury btw).

The whole experience lasted I dunno around 13 human minutes with an obvious but manageable ‘fade-in’ and then it stayed kinda strong in a very slow gradient ‘fade-out’.

(I don’t know why more people don’t do this more often!). So it was very beautiful and I just accepted that it didn’t have to be my strongest experience with it (those are indeed yet to come) but that everything was working out perfectly with my intention of this being a 2nd initiation and bridge transition into long-term with the medicine.

It’s so beautiful and I guess it’s not normal for people to work with it as often as I’m going to but I just have a hardcore darshana and dharma.

I’m still going to see what it’s like with stronger future dosages to compare to a parallel with 5MeO-DMT while also fully respecting this medicine and my growing legacy with it.

After what seemed like the end of the experience-ceremony, it was a little bit jarring how vibrationally from where I was ; but she offered me another dose to go deeper. I had zero resistance to this and felt it was a really good idea if she’s offering. (She was concerned I didn’t fully properly inhale).

The number 60mg came to mind for a follow-up dose so she prepared that and then gave me re-calibration on how BEST to partake with some extra coaching.

See; the sanctuary facilitator lady ~3 months ago gave me perfect instructions thoroughly before and this medicine woman, she had instructed me and figured I was a little more experienced than I was but I’m still getting used to it…

I do remember last time she calibrated me between doses to do the faster inhale but with all that was going on this time I just didn’t remember.

I didn’t feel any shame or guilt towards myself (we still ended up with the original 70mg worth SHE intended at least!); I was breathing it in too slow but unknowingly.

She ‘could have’ reminded me pro-actively before to do the faster quicker inhale or it collects up before this first dose; BUT it was a micro-learning lesson for both of us.

I think it was really meant to be because even she said something to the likes of ‘whatever is meant to be is meant to be’ AND I was fully trusting my guides and her.

So then I followed her more precise instructions and calibration and actually was able to hold my breath the proper amount WITH the faster inhale to straw-suck it all in and then cover my mouth and she said ‘perfect’. (NOW, I REALLY have it down and won’t have to be reminded again).

Her concern was that I hadn’t taken the full 100mg initially, which is why she offered it in good hopes of wanting me to have a fuller experience (and value even though I was ok with things). So yes; I felt great about a 2nd dose.

And afterwards, because I did the 2nd dose of 60mg perfectly; I was able to gauge that the first dose was still a bit stronger so even though it was 100mg I at least took in 70mg worth+60mg. So technically, I’ve taken bufo 4 times!

In both these 2 doses, I reached a point of egolessness with only occasional hints of egoic thought which reminded me to ‘let go’ and ‘trust the fullness’ of whatever this is meant to be without expectation (and KNOWING that it still wasn’t as strong as the smaller 7mg direct or of future doses I’ll partake with bufo AND in knowing it still has that kind of power; we just have to calibrate the dosages to me)

In the experience, she had supportive music was playing (it wasn’t Saturday Night Fever’) but it’s like it fades away and in this format at least I’m hardly aware of it…It’s just this gorgeous pure state of egolessness.

Bufo ironically is and has been VERY GENTLE with me (so far at least); which is ironic in part because my experience with 5MeO-DMT synthetic (bio-identical) was the experience other people (like Mike Tyson) were saying they had with bufo.

I guess with more experience (and some different sources) and I will figure out more into why.

I know that I’m a powerful soul (and now with Son of God reclaimed); but even I had to kinda ‘ease’ into bufo to play it relatively safer with my still healing vestibular dynamic (so I’m glad the 5MeO-DMT was what it was)….again the math doesn’t add up but I’m ok with that. I had 3x the equivalent DMT this time vs. the first with DMT and that was *still* 3x stronger.

Go figure. But I respect each as their OWN unique medicine…they don’t have to directly compare whatsoever.

Also; one guy said he had done 5MeO-DMT and bufo at the Alvarius Sanctuary within 2 weeks and he said they were basically the same. Hmm…I didn’t partake both there but my experience is that there are similarities but they aren’t the same. When I do reach similar breakthrough dosage with bufo, then I’ll know more.

All of this can help YOU discern if and when you may be called to bufo – at least its on your radar now. She was saying there’s only been about 1 million doses total ever done like this. There’s actually no indigenous tradition of people doing it either; it came about within mere decades of discovery and usage.

So…I wasn’t only thinking about the numbers then; I was trusting the experience and am more active with it now in retrospect but again;

How I could have partook with only 7mg of bio-identical 5MeO-DMT (light to regular dose range) and how that blew me to outer space and my corner of the cosmos and how on the 2nd experience of bufo here (technically 160mg and equivalent of 2.4x the DMT would still be gentler than the 7mg?

I dunno….we both talked and figured it had to do with my tolerance b/c when I took 5MeO I hadn’t had DMT since ayahuasca 6 years earlier. SO BE AWARE that YOUR experience may not be anything like what mine is. Even the sourcing of the toad can be different…hers may not be the 15% DMT ratio…it might actually be 6%, we don’t know (but it’s amaZing natural medicine!).

That’s also why I’m going over the numbers so much because others DON’T and this helps my SUPPORTIVE ego tune in along with my intuition and guides to help me make the right shot calls AS moving into things with faith.

Ironically I shared some of this information and a client of mine decided it WASN’T his timing for DMT even with the advice that he could request a lower dose to start and have them prepare a follow-on dose (taking that advice could help you shave YEARS off of your potential initiation with DMT btw).

Anyways; I can refer her to you if you’re serious about things in Tulum.

Her source is very pure, attuned and hand-selected on the property she has or has access to (for the milking). Somehow I’m thinking that other sources of bufo may be more potent or something but I don’t mind at all; I just have to take a larger amount to reach breakthrough range dose (remember I’m kinda large too around 100 kg + with an enormous temple body space).

I think what’s understated still is how much I LOVE the medicine and how much I’m meant to KEEP working with it semi=actively and long-term….to ME, ‘her’ medicine (sourced) is very GENTLE and pure.

This is a beautiful thing. It wasn’t like the freight train experience that I first had with 5MeO-DMT…this makes it very friendly to experiment around with higher doses (relatively) safely, etc. which I would work up to.

My valuation for this session was to be open to whatever healing but most importantly it was to build a BRIDGE as a 2nd initiation into working with bufo for the LONG-TERM. Again; DMT (a.k.a. ‘The God Molecule’ is VERY Muse line friendly).

My greatest takeaway from this one was really that this was like a FRIENDSHIP BRIDGE and transition into working with bufo/DMT far more often than 6 years apart.

And all of a sudden I’ve done bufo 4 times already with more experiences already planned and I’ve got a lot of work to do with both micro-dosing AND breakthrough doses.

Remember that 5MeO-DMT is more like the ‘oneness with Source’ experience and N,N DMT which is what is in ayahuasca (with MAO inhibitors so it lasts a lot longer); this brings more VISIONARY experiences (like I literally WAS the jaguar striding through the jungle palms within 3 minutes during the Crucible, I WAS the thunderbird soaring above mountains, being IN an astral swamp, etc.).

It seems 5MeO is far less likely to be open to astral interference and entities which can happen a lot with ayahuasca but that can be part of the experience and journey (people criticize it but you just really have to know how to CLEAN THINGS UP afterwards).

Critical to be aware of is NOT to partake bufo (which lasts around 23 minutes) in tandem with MAO inhibitors (like ayahuasca or changa). Bufo and direct 5MeO-DMT doesn’t have the MAOI effect on the neuro-transmitters so it lasts much faster…she said there’s only been like 3 documented deaths with bufo and 1 of those was when someone did ayahuasca followed-up by bufo b/c the MAOI’s were still in their system. That is DANGEROUS and could be lethal.

This is all UNOFFICIAL, off the record advice (along with my experience) and you are responsible for your own research, decisions and consequences; I (and my source) are fully held harmless from any claims; but she also said that smoking changa for example (which is becoming more popular as a form of smokable DMT); you wouldn’t have to wait as long as two weeks b/c that MAOI doesn’t stay in the system nearly as long as when ingested with ayahuasca.

I think it’s very important to have experienced facilitators with the medicine and temple space to guide YOU and initiate you like I’ve done, even if you have a lot of spiritual experience like I do.

Ok….most importantly from here, I look forward to more extensive use with THE GOD MOLECULE itself. It allows me to be more in my true self, power and purity to get a lot of progressive heart, soul and consciousness work done while also receiving experience, blessings, saturation and codes.

I know it’s a key to my greater Heart Awakening as well as clearing up my ‘window to the soul’ and love channel circulation.